"I like you. And, I want you..."
"WHAT?!"
W-What did he just say!? H-He likes m-me??
"Why? Can't believe it?"
I could not answer and kept looking at him. This is not what I was expecting him to tell me!
"Y-You're joking, r-right..?" I was startled.
"Y-You like me??" I still can't believe it..!
I was expecting him to say that I should distance myself from him! Not this one!
He got up from his seat and stood right in front of me.
"I've been liking you for months now. I don't know if you notice what I do, but I have been showing you for a long time that I want you." He said seriously. I could not answer.
"You don't have to like me back." He held my hand, "just don't stop me from liking you." He said before leaving, and left me dumbfounded.
What the hell? I bet he's just joking, right?? Yes, of course he's just joking! How can a Nicco Salvador like me?? Argh, this is so confusing!!
"Hey, dude..." Khianne said as he approached me.
"H-Ha? W-What is it?" I asked like a fool.
"Hmmm. Nothing. I just saw Nicco coming from here at your table... what did you two talk about??" He said. I shook my head immediately and said, "n-no, nothing. H-He just... cong- congratulated me! Yeah, that's right! He congratulated me, hehehe."
"Oooyyyyy! Hmm, something's fishy. What did he tell you? Huh?" He asked intriguingly.
"Err..." I was so nervous that I could not speak.
Should I tell him? No, no, he will just tease me. I don't want to say! But, Khianne is my best friend and also my cousin... no, no, no, he will judge Nicco. And I don't like that.
"Hmm, judging by your actions. Nicco told you something you didn't expect, right?" He said, smiling like a dog.
"Y-Yes. He asked me if someone confessed to him and said he wanted it, what would he do?" I kept saying that even though I was lying.
"Eh!? He's a player, isn't he? Why is he still asking you? Why is that?" He asked, confused.
"I-I'm not pertaining to a girl-"
"What!? A guy confessed to him!?" He cut me off. I nodded hesitantly because he looks stupid looking at me.
"Hmm, are you talking about Nicco or are you talking about yourself..?"
WHAT?
How did he know that? How did he know thaaatttt!?!
"What? HAHAHAHAHA! Just kidding, you look bad. But, shhhkkkk! No way? A man confessed to him?? A man!?" He clarified.
"Y-Yes, h-he said." I replied.
"Shhkkk! If it was me, dude, I did not know how I would feel because of course I was used to women who is always confessing to me and then suddenly a man would say that he wanted me. Woah, dude! That's cruelty! But of course you can't help but to think, 'how am I going to react? Doesn't that sound weird because we're both men'. I have no problem with the members of the LGBTQIA+ community, ah. I'm just saying that when you're really straight from the start. You really can't react properly, and you'll feel weird." He further explained, and it made me feel worse !!
I scratched my head so hard because of what he said. Argh! What you said just added to my thoughts, Khianne!! It's annoying! What am I going to do now!?
"Oh, why do you seem to be in trouble? It's supposed to be Nicco, right?" He suddenly said. I looked at him in shock. Uh-oh.
"Pierre, admit it to me. Does Nicco like you? " He said directly so I was shocked. He looked me in the eye seriously.
I'm busted.
"Y-Yes." I answered and quickly hid my head in my hands.
"Aha! I knew it!" He exclaimed!
"W-What do you mean?" I asked.
"I have been telling you this for a long time, Pierre. How many times have I told you that Nicco really likes you, but what do you always say? 'No, we're just friends' or 'are you crazy?' Hahahahahaha! Now, tell me I'm wrong!!" He proudly said!
"W-What? I-I thought you're just m-mocking me b-back then..." I can't believe that he really meant it when he said it before! "H-How did you know??"
"Of course, Hahahahahaha! Who do you think I am? Duh? Of course, you can really see his actions. It started when you were hospitalized. He was very worried, the guy was still shaking when he called me, Hahahahaha! Tsk, tsk, tsk, just said that you're just really numb!" What he said made me more shocked.
I felt that his actions in recent months were different, but I didn't give it any meaning because I do not want to assume...
"So, what are your plans now? Will you avoid him? " Khianne now asked worriedly. "I d-don't know." I said.
The party went well and was fun... for them. While for me, I was just in my chair for the whole party, but they called me to have some speech, and of course I did a speech. After the party, I immediately left the bar. But before I could get into my car, someone pulled my hand and took me to the dark part of the bar.
"Who are y--!!" He covered my mouth and whispered something in my ear, "why can't you just like me back? Huh?"
Nicco!?
I quickly removed his hand that covered my mouth. "What the hell is wrong with you!?" I shouted angrily.
"You! You made me like this! Damn, Pierre! You're driving me crazy! Shit!" He said that his sluggish eyes were staring straight into my eyes.
"What do you think you're doing, huh? Why are you forcing me to like you right away!? Do you think that is so easy? You know, Nicco, you're messing with my mind, and you're hurting my head!" Maybe the reason I said those words was the alcohol I drank.
"I'm sorry, okay?" He quickly apologized. "But I want to tell you this, I really like you, Pierre."
"Whatever, Nicco. Let me go home." I impatiently said. But he shook his head as an answer.
"Argh! Nicco!! I'm not ready for this, okay? You were the first man to confess to me! What do you think I should feel right now?! You're making me angry!" I'm not totally pissed off!
"And, you're making me crave for a desire..."
"N-Nicco..." Calling his name is all I can say. I was very nervous and sweating profusely.
"What the hell are you talking about!?! We're both men for Pete's sake!" Finally, I have the courage to shout at him. I don't know what I will do to get away from him.
"Nicco, we're both drunk, okay? Let's talk about it sometimes, but no-!!!"
"I'm craving for you." He said after he KISSED me!!
Nicco kissed me on the lips! Even though it was just a peck, he still kissed me!! Oh, God, what am I going to do!?!? Argh, Nicco!!
I still could not move from where I was standing and still looking at him. I took a deep breath before thinking ...
... of PUNCHING him.
No, better not, Pierre. He's still your junior.
"Nicco, I don't like what you did to me and I hate you for that. But I hope we don't talk about it first, today, I have a job tomorrow, and you don't have a sensible mind yet, so can we go home? Huh?!" I said like I'm pleading.
I did not let him speak anymore because I ran to my car and got on. Likewise, I have no idea how Nicco will go home in that situation. I still hate him. He was not my first kiss, but he was the first man to kiss me! I have never seen myself in this situation before.
What he did earlier made me confused. I don't feel disgusted or anything. Just like Khianne said, it's normal for me to feel weird but I just felt weird when he confessed to me... but now, when he kissed me, I didn't even feel disgusted. This is so confusing!!
I arrived at the house past midnight and all of the people were asleep. Before sleeping, I readied all the stuff I'd need for tomorrow's interview. I have been applying to this company for a long time. Actually, my dad owns a company but I don't want to work there because I really don't want to have a special treatment.
After packing all the stuff, I never thought about what happened to Nicco and me earlier because...
...I'm going on another journey in life and I'm not sure if Nicco is still there.
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To be continued...