after running aground with an army officer yesterday a year later I opened my heart again, I was met with my colleague both from a medical background as a doctor, at first I was used to him because I considered him a senior at the hospital, which at that time coincidentally he is a specialist doctor and I am still a koas doctor, as time went by this person began to approach me, this person began to show his interest in me, but I still didn't want to respond because I still felt hurt, one time when we took a break at lunch he say oada me
dr.F: "Hi Mustika.... how are you, are you getting tired or not when you are working as a young doctor." he said pleasantly so that we have a topic to discuss.
Me: "I'm fine, what's going on, senior?" I said.
dr.F: "No, I just want to talk to get closer to you so I can get to know you better, I can play at home later, I want to stay in touch with your family," he said to me.
Me: "What are you doing Doc, are you sure you dare to play at my house?" I asked him.
dr.F: "sure donks, let me know your mama papa, your sister, what do you want to bring later, what kind of food does your sister like, what does your mama papa like?" he said.
Me: "Don't bother, Doc, please if you want to play, I'll tell Mama and Papa to prepare delicious food." I said.
dr.F: "Wow, I'm happy, tomorrow when I'm free, I'll play there". he said
As time goes by my seniors are getting closer to me and my family, but over time I also feel more and more uncomfortable, basically I myself refuse to unite with fellow doctors, I start to stay away from him, my seniors are confused about why my attitude has changed, until he apologizes many times even though he doesn't do anything wrong, my heart refuses to unite with him, in the end we decided to just be friends, rather than one of us feeling hurt.
.The following month I met God with an air force, at first I didn't recognize him, at first we were also normal friends, after our relationship lasted for months I just found out that this person used to be my classmate when I was still in elementary school in space, and for months -That month I just found out that he is also the son of my fifth grade teacher. I thought this relationship was going well because his family background and my family already knew each other. I thought this relationship could reach the stage of marriage but it didn't, it turned out in the middle our relationship began to drift apart, his nature began to turn violent, like to rule arbitrarily, likes to be angry, cheaters. I decided to end this relationship.
the following year I started to open a new page again because my family was also required to get married soon so I inevitably had to step forward, I had to rise from my pain, God met me with a military doctor, a doctor who also served as the navy in Surabaya , all these meetings accidentally seemed like God had arranged everything.,He also approached my family like Dr. F. The difference was that our relationship lasted for about 5 years, at that time I was still practicing my medical profession, I still couldn't practice independent, from the start he accompanied me until the final round he told me like this.

dr.M: "Do you want to marry me this year or what?" he asked me.
Me: "Yes, I believe that if we are soul mates, you will patiently wait for me until my education is complete, until I become a specialist, until I have a general clinic, until I become a permanent civil servant," I said to him.
dr.M: "yes, then I will marry someone else, who I am ready to marry, I am already 30 I can't wait anymore, later if I continue to use you, I will be old, my child will just be born." he said.
me: "yes, it's up to you to marry someone else, I don't mind, yes I just think that we are not a match, it's like that, I say goodbye to back off, I hope you find a woman on the side of the road that you can marry." I said to him.
dr.M:"I'm sorry". he said.
finally our relationship is over, it took me a long time to get up from the wound because it's been 5 years the scars won't go away, I try to let it go, but I still cry every day, every time I always ask God, why is my story like this and then when will i find the best,
two years later I tried to rise from this situation. Then God answered all my prayers and my parents.
In the midst of carrying out my profession as a doctor, I was met by a competent person with a police officer. Our meeting started from the Colombo security guard. At that time I was going to make a driving license, there were several stages I went through when I got to the last stage, my steps were stopped by the police, he said .
Police: "Hey beautiful, can I help you again, I want to know the phone number, I want to input the data." while looking at me.
With my innocence, yes I gave my phone number, I didn't think anywhere, yes, realistically I gave him he didn't know when I got home from there on my phone.
Police: "Tututtt, hello my beautiful lady who was at the Colombo security guard."
I answered formally: "yes sir what's wrong".
Police: "Nothing, just want to be friendly, okay?" I replied: "Sure you can."
We continued from there, the first year we started to communicate intensely, the second year he moved to Brimob, I and he became closer in the third year he started introducing me to mama papa and his extended family,
mother-in-law: "beautiful child, do you know how much the salary is, bro?" ask me mom
Me: "I know mom.". I said to my mother-in-law, she asked again,
Mom: "With a salary like that, you think you're a family that's not enough, while your salary as a doctor is enough, is your salary enough, are you sure you want to continue when your salary is like this?". mom said
Me: "I think it's enough ma'am as long as we can still help each other, while I'm still allowed to work, as long as I'm not prohibited from serving all of this will be enough, mah even more." I said to my mother-in-law.
Mama: "Hopefully, son, I hope you can be a daughter-in-law who loves Mama and Papa, who sincerely loves you, can be a good wife, a good mother for your children in the future." Mama said. Mama spoke again about my PNS program, Mama: "Son, how did you say you want to be a civil servant, it's better if you come along with Mama. The civil servant in Papua will live there with Mama, then move to Manado after you move your assignment to Manado, you two will be together. It's the same as living in Manado, Papa, Mama will also live in Manado, what do you want, the opportunity for civil servants in Papua is great, I want to accompany you later," said Mama...
me: "thank you very much mom, I'm grateful to be given in-laws as good as mom and dad, I want to talk to mom and dad first, hopefully you'll be allowed to take the civil servant program in Papua."
The more we get to know each other, and I also introduce him to my parents
Me and my husband-to-be who is a police officer have a dream to have many businesses both in the medical and other fields, at one time I talked about the continuation of my future with this policeman, I said to him, "What if we open a Pertamina business now? Later on the other side we will open a public clinic so all of them generate income." I said.
Mas police: "Oh, it's a good opportunity, we can try it." he said to me.
finally we pioneered our business both and I am grateful that our business was facilitated and launched by the powerful so that until now we have become successful and become young businessmen. Years passed and I finally proposed to him, 6 months later we had a pre-wedding trial in his office, after a few months I was asked for a proposal. by him, and finally I legally became the wife of a policeman, became a bhayangkari, and became a successful doctor.
I prove to my family and friends that what you say is impossible to succeed, it is impossible to become the wife of a policeman, in fact when the one in power willed, behind the impossible word he spoke, God turned it into possible and now it has become real, all his words were turned by God into a miracle, I became a miracle. a successful doctor becomes a police wife (bhayangkari) and our efforts are many everywhere. God is fair in all things.