“What are you talking about?”
He looks at me intently.
“Ano? Hindi ka naniniwala? You wanted my reasons and now you won’t believe me.”
“Stop your nonsense.”
Our eyes met but I broke it off.
“Jelcy?”
All I can say is napaka life saver ni Bea ngayon. Agad kong tinungo ang kinaroroonan ni Bea at hindi na muli pang nilingon si Ken.
“What did you guys talk about?” panimula ni Bea.
“Wala naman.”
Of course, I lied. How can I possibly tell her that Ken just confessed to me? Masasabi ko nga bang confession ‘yon kung hindi ako siguradong hindi siya nagbibiro? I mean, there’s a chance na ginagamit niya lang ‘yon as excuse para layuan ko si Porsche. I don’t even know why do I have to leave Porsche alone, he hasn’t done anything wrong to me at all, kung tutuusin ay napakalaki kong sagabal sa buhay ni Porsche.
“Liar. Napakadali niyo talagang basahin ni Ken.”
My pair of eyes blinked in unison.
There’s no way she knows anything about this.
“What do you mean?” I asked in disbelief.
“Wala naman.”
How dare her use my words against me.

Midnight. I waited until Bea fell asleep. Dahan-dahan akong lumabas ng kwarto at halos mahulog ako sa hagdanan noong may makita akong aninong nakatayo sa ibaba ng hagdanan.
A cold gaze was fixed on the anxious young man in front of me. I couldn’t see him clearly pero dahil sa liwanag ng buwan na nanggagaling sa itaas ng bintana ay kitang-kita ko ang kanyang mga mata.
Bumaba ako at sinundan naman niya ako ng tingin.
“Mag-iingat ka.” ani Porsche.
“Thank you.”
Nagmamadali akong umalis at hindi na nilingon pa si Porsche.
Nagbabakasakali akong maabutan si Thana at Third at hindi naman ako nadismaya no’ng makita ko silang nakaabang saakin at masayang nakatingin saakin.
“I thought you’re dead.” Bungad saakin ni Third.
“I wish I was.”
We talked for a few minutes and started training like we did before but this time, we were extra rough. I still think I lack skills but it’s better than having no skills at all. Hindi ko naman gusting mamatay na hindi man lang sinbukang ipaglaban ang buhay ko.
Kailangan ko lang magfocus. Maraming nangyari nitong mga nagdaang araw, having that mention, bigla nalang pumasok sa utak ko si Ken.
“Ouch!” angal ko noong matamaan ako ng arnis na hawak ni Ken.
“You’re not focusing.”
Nilapitan kami ni Thana na kanina ay busy sa pagteraining.
“I’m sorry.” Ani ko nalang.
What am I thinking? I have to think straight and get Ken out of my mind. Kahit kailan talaga nakakadistract siya.
“We have to train more. Our enemies are burning candles at both ends. Gagawin nila lahat para walang matira saatin.”
Hindi ko talaga maintidihan ang purpose ng lahat ng nangyayari saamin. Why do we have to suffer like this? The thought of the Dean talking to me in the interview suddenly crossed my mind. Sigurado akong may kinalaman ang Dean dito. Kailangan kong malaman kung siya ba ang mastermind ng lahat ng ito.
But there’s some matters that I’m more curious about as of now.
“That day, when I fainted, what exactly happened?”
Thana and Third blinked as their eyes adjusted.
“Actually, about that, gusto ka rin naming makausap.”
It’s not really a surprise for them to question something right now. I, myself, have so much unanswered questions in my head.
“How do you know Porsche?” tanong ni Third.
I was confused by his question so I squinted my eyes.
“I mean, hindi palasalita si Porsche, but it looks like sobrang close niyong dalawa. Is there something going on between you two?” dagdag niya.
I kind of figured out na ito ang itatanong ni Third. Well, most people misunderstood us, especially Ken.
“There’s nothing going on between us, it’s just… We’re friends…”
Or are we?
“There’s something fishy about that Porsche.” ani Thana.
“What do you mean?”
Bakit ba parang lahat ng tao sa paligid ko hindi pinagkakatiwalaan si Porsche? He’s kind kahit mukhang hindi considering the amounts of times he helped me.
“Hindi ko gusto ‘yong vibe na binibigay niya.” Kibat balikat na sabi ni Thana.
“He helped me a lot tho.” ani ko naman.
“Well, yeah. That’s why he’s suspicious.” Sapaw naman ni Third.
“I don’t get it.”
I think they’re misunderstanding Porsche. When I first talked to him, he doesn’t look scary at all. Although, he doesn’t smile a lot, other people might’ve describe him as intimidating person.
“Natatandaan mo pa naman na tumunog na ‘yong alarm no’ng nasa labas ka pa ‘di ba?” tanong ni Third.
That reminds me, naabutan nga kami ng oras sa labas ng bilog, but how come Porsche and I are still alive?
“Yeah, I do.”
“That guy in black didn’t even dare to lay a finger on him.”
I was aghast. I started to have my suspicion but I don’t want to jump into conclusions yet.
“I don’t trust him.” Dagdag ni Thana.
It’s so hard. Who should I really trust in this kind of situation?
Porsche, are you really someone I should not trust?