I cringed to myself when I got home.
Dawn told me that he bought me a shirt and a pair of short pants last night so that I will be able to change my clothes but unfortunately, I am so wasted. He also didn't bother to undress me too.
If he didn't truly undress me, then that means he didn't do that thing to me last night, right? but my painful ass explained it.
I banged myself at the wall near our mansion's main door. I look crazy here.
Plus, I am probably carrying a child now. That means I am going to be a mother! Ugh, I'm not ready for responsibilities yet. I should tell Dawn about this. My child needs a father!
“Where were you last night?” Daddy's cold presence welcomed me at the door.
He eyed me from head to toe. Nice job Helly, you made your Daddy mad again.
I bowed my head as I felt guilty. “U-uh, Daddy… I'm sorry. It's Shannie's birthday last night so she invited me and Yulla to go out.” I almost stuttered.
He then again eyed me as I walked past him and sat on the couch. Finally, I'm home.
“If you're with Shannie and Yulla then how come you flew to Mr. Hadley's unit, huh?”
Oh, here it is… Here's the real trouble that I made. How am I going to say this? I'm searching for words to be my reasons but my brain didn't participate! So I just remained silent the whole time.
“Do you know how embarrassing is it receiving a call from others and say “Sir, your daughter Helleon is with me? She's wasted but don't worry, I'll take care of her.” a call like that?! Goodness Helleon Eummer, for all you know, their family is from a successful Corporation! They are so professional! Helly, I didn't raise you to be a girl like that. I'm so very disappointed in you Helly…”
I bit my lower lip more than five times. His cold and baritone thundering voice filled the whole place.
His last sentence echoed in my mind. I feel like there's something stuck in my throat as my voice won't come out.
I keep on swallowing hard to hide my pain and to stop my tears from falling…
“What happened?” Thankfully, his voice calmed.
I shook my head and shrugged. “I don't know, Dad”
He sighed heavily. “You didn't know?!”
I nodded. The guilt filled my whole system more.
“I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU!”
My soul almost left my body. Right. My Daddy is fuming mad because of what I've done. This moment sucks. If only I didn't let myself drink hard last night, this wouldn't happen.
“You know, Helly... I raised you alone well not because your Mommy asked me to but because I love you! I am taking care of you. Can't you see? I didn't hire any maid herein because I know I should be the one who will take care of you as you're my daughter!”
Yeah, we don't have any maid here. My Daddy and I are living peacefully here in our mansion alone.
“I am spoiling you on everything that you want, you want to buy dresses, I gave you money. You want to buy, new phone, I gave you money. You want to take Education as your course, I let you. That's because I don't want you to feel bad! Even though it means forsaking our own business.”
My Daddy gasps for air after all he said. He's stressed right now and it's because of me. I am a disappointment. I don't even know how to please people around me as well as my Daddy.
I can't make them proud of me.
We are from a family of doctors. My grandfather is also a great doctor as well as my uncles and aunts. My Daddy is the firstborn Addingston so grandfather assigned him to become Addingston heir. I have a lot of cousins who are med students too. Their parents arranged their marriage and luckily, Daddy didn't do the same.
As I am the only daughter, I am the heiress but I forsake that responsibility. I don't want to become a doctor when the time comes because I'm afraid of blood.
As I was searching and finding myself, I realized that I want to become an educator. A great teacher. I want to teach my students what lessons I learned back in my teenage days.
Luckily, Daddy didn't force me to become a doctor. He wants me to do whatever I want, yes. He wants me to marry someone I love, yes because that is what he did before.
He chose my Mommy over everything. He even told me that their relationship back then was so tragic and he won't let that happen to me.
“I saw you wearing a black satin dress last night, how come it has become a hello kitty shirt now?”
He's pertaining to my shirt. Goodness, why did Dawn choose this kind of print?! I looked like a thirteen-year-old.
“D-dawn bought this for me last night, Dad.” I closed my eyes out of embarrassment I felt.
My Daddy's expression was in shock as if he couldn't believe what I did. Damn Daddy, I think we have the same thought.
“You let other people buy you clothes?!”
“Dad, he insisted—”
“I don't care!”
“I'm really sorry Dad… Dawn Hadley seems like a good man so I worry about nothing.” I muttered with sincerity.
I looked at him again and he was glancing at me.
“But still, that's embarrassing. Don't do that again. If you don't want to see your Mom's ghost later tonight.”
I sighed.
Can I do bad things again so I will be able to see Mommy then? Even if it's just her ghost? She's a good woman back when she's still alive so I fear nothing. I'm her daughter, so she won't scare me.
Daddy walked out and headed on the library's way without saying anything.
“Am I forgiven, Dad?” I happily asked.
He turned his head to me and his eyes squinted. “It should not be that easy. Your Daddy is still disappointed.”
I sighed in despair. Right, I made an unforgivable and embarrassing mistake. I'm curious, is Dawn thinking about me now? Is he disgusted at me because he saw the wasted version of me? Goodness Helly... you're embarrassing and disgusting.
My Daddy didn't say anything after that so I headed to my room. I collapsed my body to the bed as I finally felt how tired I am.
I thought I was lucky because Dawn, the most handsome human being for me, saw me last night and let me sleep in his guest room. He even accommodated me well without saying words. He let me eat breakfast with him.
I see he knew me but why and how? I forgot to ask him that. I got hypnotized by his handsome face to the point I can't think well.
I wonder if he already has a girlfriend? Her girlfriend is probably lucky to have him. He's a gentle type of man—almost perfect! I wish that I can marry someone like him soon too. I simply wished for that.
After thinking about some random things, a picture frame of me with Mommy and Daddy caught my attention. I went near it and suddenly, I felt a bang on my chest.
I still didn't get over the pain. It's not that easy to move on. Back then, I used to think that maybe Mommy doesn't love us, that's why she didn't fight for her life. But then, I realized. Her suffering is not easy. I wiped the dust on the picture frame. I resemble my Mom. Everyone said that I am the new version of my Mom as we have the same round and tantalizing eyes, pale skin, and small but pointed nose.
She's smiling in the picture. I was at the center of them and we were all smiling. Her smile is sweet as if she's not gonna leave us.
I just wished that I could turn back the time so I can tell my Mom how much I love her... though until now.
I wiped the tears that had been flowing in my eyes. Damn, I miss this brave woman. I want to be strong like her too. Brave like her.
I placed that photo frame again back on my side table.
When the night comes, Daddy and I are peacefully eating dinner. As in, no voice from the two of us. I see that he is still mad at me.
“Daddy… I'm sorry…” I pleaded. I can't take this all anymore.
He looked at me with a blank expression. “I can't resist you and you know, I can't pass a day without forgiving you. Please, just make sure that you won't do that again. Daddy was very worried last night.”
I nodded sincerely. I shouldn't do that again because Daddy might blast here.
“Eat properly and don't think about it. I'll just go to Mr. Dawn Addingston and ask for an apology.” He smiled at me as an assurance.
I immediately felt a warmness in my heart. I almost screamed in the middle of the meal. I'm so happy!
After our meal, I then headed to my room and after taking shower, I went to sleep.
I shouldn't disappoint Daddy again like that. He might kick my ass off this luxurious mansion.
Might as well, stop making out with the random boys. My Daddy didn't raise me to become a flirt daughter so I shouldn't do it.
I made tons of mistakes but I've learned the lessons. Thanks to Dad's scolding lately.