"Are you okay, Elyana?" my mom out of nowhere suddenly asked me. I forgot I was still with her. I got lost in my own thoughts and for a moment, it scared me.
I could clearly see the concern and sadness in my mom's eyes. I knew she was hurting as well because of what was happening to me. It hurts to see her and my dad sad because of what I was going through. To realized my marriage was a mistake that I even fought for was truly a shame.
"Y-Yes, mom. I am," And this time, my turn to smile. But mine was fake, and hers was not.
Dad arrived, and we went back to the hotel. We requested sandwiches, and that was what we shared as our dinner. After eating and taking a few minutes of preparing before going to bed, we three slept together again in the same bed.
My parents hugged me like I was back to being their small daughter. Being in the middle of them made me feel protected. They fell asleep faster. I heard dad snoring, and as the night got deeper, the more my thoughts bothered me.
To distract my mind, I tried to think of a few plans to do after I get divorced, although Finn didn't sign the papers yet—anyway, I thought of a few things, but what made me feel excited was the idea of going back to the Philippines to start a new life there.
I have friends in the Philippines, the Martincu's siblings who have been my friends since I remember. Lea the eldest, and the twins of Martincu, Felix, and Felipe—I mean Felicity, who are just a year older than me.
Felicity is my childhood best friend. Born as a boy, but he has a heart of a girl. I still remember those times he was often at our house when we were kids to play with me and my dolls. We play dress up and I let him wear my clothes and sometimes we do make-up together.
Their Dad was very strict when he was alive. That was why he hid who he truly was for a long time. Actually, I was the first to know. That became our secret for a very long time before I convinced him to tell his parents when we were in high school and, as we expected, their dad didn't accept it.
That was where he rebelled. He became the black sheep of their family and when we were in college, Felicity ran away and whatever he has now, it is the fruit of his own hard work. I had never been so proud when I got the news his career as a matchmaker had been booming.
He's a well-known matchmaker now in the Philippines. The owner of the first-ever matchmaker agency in the Philippines. Not a big agency, but he's earning big because most of his clients are rich.
Well, Felicity is the sister who would always make you smile. Among the three Marticu's children, he had been the closest to me. We stayed in contact but recently we have been so busy. Lea already had her own family. She just gave birth to her second child, and last among the Marticu's, Felix, this nerdy and aloof twin brother of Felicity whose brain had been so hard to read.
They are identical twins and it's hard to know who and who, but for me, I have a way. You just have to wait to see whose hand moves like he was holding a magic wand, and when it comes to Felipe, he mostly acts snobbish and he likes to walk out, it's Felix.
Felix—actually, he's the type of guy that girls chase, unlucky them. He was too snobbish and he always focused too much on his studies before. He was the version of a no-girlfriend-since-birth, but I somehow understand why.
He is the only boy in their family, because one is only half, and their dad wanted one of his boys to be reliable enough to manage their engineering firm. I heard he's still single and I'm thirty-six now—he's thirty-seven.
Sometimes it made me wonder maybe he was waiting for someone. Who knows, when we were kids, people around us teased us as childhood sweethearts. They say we look good together. One is handsome and one beautiful. Thinking about those old times puts a smile on my face. I honestly feel like a fool, smiling alone. Even though my day and the days that passed were very stressful, I found a reason to smile.
Like I suddenly found a light, even though darkness surrounds me.
I fell asleep after reminiscing about things back in the Philippines and I put it on the top list of the plans I will do once I'm done with Finn.