I woke up with my right hand numb as if something heavy is holding it down. I opened my eyes and saw the guy from yesterday sitting beside my bed, lightly snoring. What is he doing here? I pulled my hand away which awakened him from his sleep.
"What are you doing?" Naghihinala kong tanong.
I seriously can't trust anybody in this place. I haven't forgotten that. Even if I'm cooperating with these fake doctors, that doesn't mean that I completely believe them. I am no May Gonzales.
"May, matagal kitang hinanap. The night we last saw each other, pinagsisihan ko na sumuko ako sayo. Sana hindi pa huli ang lahat para ibalik ang dating tayo," he pleaded in despair
Again, napatutok ako sa mata niya. His eyes are the most expressive eyes I have ever seen, there's something he wants to say but he is reluctant. He is not hard to read, he's one of those people whose eyes talk. Even without a word coming out of his mouth, his eyes speak.
"I really don't know you," I straightforwardly confessed to him.
The pain was evident in his eyes. He might have got the wrong person but he held my wrist and showered it with kisses. Wait, is he a molester?! I was about to push him away when I felt a warm liquid fall on my wrist and heard small sobs from this weird guy. First, he spouts nonsense yesterday. Second, he slept in my room. Third, he suddenly gets touchy and cries out of nowhere. This guy definitely is not normal. And I'm sure it has something to do with this place.
"I'm sorry. Mali ako, May. Hindi ka mahirap mahalin, mali ako. Patawarin mo ako. Hindi ko lubos maisip na kaya mong gawin sa sarili mo to. Hindi mo dapat ginawa sa sarili mo yun. When you said that night na naiintindihan mong hindi ikaw ang pipiliin ko—" I cut him off by pulling my hands away and pushing him lightly.
I shook my head in disagreement with his words. There's something more he hasn't told me. I'm desperate to escape this hospital and I'm desperate to find out their dirt. I still can't reach Luke and dad. I bet they are worried about me but how will they find me if I am trapped in here? I remembered this guy works here. Will this guy be the answer to my questions? Will he be the key for me to reveal this freak hospital's secret? Is he my stair to giving light to this inhumane experiment this freak hospital had got me gone through? He can be. His eyes are too transparent for him to be spouting lies. I can't say he's acting or pretending either but for now, let me fish some information from him and play along.
"What are you blaming yourself for?" I can't help but ask in curiosity, "tell me everything."
He wiped his tears away and looked straight into my eyes. I don't even know his name. Who is he? And what is his role in this identity made by this freak hospital?
"Dalawang buwan lang kita 'di nakita pero ibang iba ka sa May na nakilala ko," he weakly chuckled.
I mentally rolled my eyes at his remarks. I don't know that May and I are totally different because I am not May Gonzales. I will never forget my own identity. I am Elena Perez and I will find a way to prove that.
"I-I don't remember anything about May Gonzales," I lied through my teeth.
How will I remember anything related to May Gonzales when I am not her in the first place? But pretending at this moment is the best option I have right now. His eyes widened as I muttered those words and tears suddenly started falling in his eyes again. I can't help but be mesmerized by his expressive eyes, it's like an ocean trapped in a bottle and the tears are the waters that overflowed.
"Kasalanan ko 'to. Alam ko, sinabihan mo ako. Nangako ako na hindi ako bibitaw pero sumuko ako," he cried as he kissed my head, "ganyan mo na ba kinamumuhian ang sarili mo at binura mo ang mga alaala mo? Kaya mo ba sinubukang magpakamatay--" I shut him up by pushing him away.
Erased my memory? Is he stupid? Magpakamatay? I didn't try to kill myself. It was an accident. What is he talking about? Is this another brainwashing agenda of this freak hospital? Do they think I'd fall for their trick by sending this weird guy?
"I didn't try to kill myself. I got into an accident," I corrected him, "there's a difference"
Why do they keep trying to install that made-up story to me? Do they think Elena Perez is stupid? Have they not done any research?
"Please leave. I don't want a stranger lingering around my room. I can't rest with you being here. Don't bother bringing any food."
I motioned to shoo him away. Showing my not interested in him look, he let out a sigh and grabbed his jacket in the chair.
"Sebastian ang pangalan ko, tandaan mo 'yan. At kasintahan mo ako."
My eyes widened with the words he uttered. Him? My lover? He's insane! The only man I will ever love is Luke. He gave me a shy smile as he scratched his head.
"Ibig kong sabihin, kung papayag ka sana na magkabalikan tayo. Magiging magkasintahan tayo ulit," nahihiyang tugon niya.
My jaw literally dropped at his nonsense. He is definitely beyond saving!
"I have enough of your brainwashing tactics, get out of my room!" I commanded him.
He let out a bitter smile and stared at me lovingly. He's either insane for making up all these stories or he's a great actor who can win Oscar's award. Either way, he's spouting nonsense.
"Aalis ako ngayon pero babalik ako. Sa dalawang buwan na nawala ka, napagtanto ko ang pagkukulang ko. Hindi na kita susukoan ulit because I learnt it the hard way, losing you is like losing a part of me."
I frowned at his statement and turned my back at him. Not just mental but persistent too, he's no help. I felt his hand patting my head. This freak hospital will stop at nothing to try to brainwash me. Too bad for them I already met Luke and no guy can ever compare to him. He's the only guy who can make Elena Perez swoon over a guy. I miss you so much, Luke. Where are you?
"Gagawin ko ang lahat para mabalik ang iyong alaala at papatunayan ko sayong mahalaga ang isang may Gonzales. Pangako, babawi ako." He whispered before finally leaving.