He chuckled. “Glad you like it.”
Then he also kissed me.
He gave me a tulips bouquet. My favorite flower.
“Flowers for my wife. Happy 1st-month hon!”
I smile while accepting the bouquet.
After that, we started to have our romantic dinner.
“Where did you order this steak?” I asked curiously.
I love steak it's my favorite food.
“Why doesn't taste good?”
“No. I love it. I just want to ask where did you order this so that I can order also whenever I’m craving a steak.”
“Well, I'm glad that you like it. It's a good thing that I cook that. I can't imagine someone is cooking for my wife.”
My eyes widen. “Are you serious?”
He gazed at me. “Is that so hard to believe?”
I shake my head. “It's not that. I just didn't expect that you know how to cook. And it looks like you cook better than me.”
I suddenly felt embarrassed because ever since we got married I’m always the one who cooks our breakfast and dinner.
He cooks better than me, so I’m curious if he enjoys eating the food I cooked.
He chuckled. “I still prefer your food though.”
I can't help but smile.
“Liar.” I accused him.
“I am not lying. I just love the food that my wife cooks for me.”
“TSK.” I am trying my best not to smile.
After we had finish eating, Maru went to me and offer his hand
“Wife, may I dance with you?”
I smirked. “Where’s the music?”
Again in a snap, there’s a piece of romantic music playing.
“May I?”
I nodded and accepted his hand.
He hugs me and started to move. I close my eyes and rested on his chest.
(Music)
Time...
I've been passing time
watching trains go by
All of my life...
Lying on the sand,
watching seabirds fly
Wishing there would be
Someone waiting for a home for me...
(Music)
Something's telling me it might be you
It's telling me it might be you...
All of my life...
“You look disappointed a while ago.” He teased me.
I rolled my eyes.
“I thought we will just have a normal dinner. I’m quite disappointed.” I honestly told him.
(Music)
Looking back as lovers
go walking past...
All of my life
Wondering how they met
and what makes it last
If I found the place
Would I recognize the face?
“Well, that’s part of the plan. I want you to think that we will just be having a normal dinner.”
“You are so mean!” I gave him a soft punch.
He chuckled and tighten his hug.
(Music)
Something's telling me
it might be you Yeah,
it's telling me it might be you
(Music)
So many quiet walks to take
So many dreams to wake
And we've so much love to make
(Music)
I think we're gonna need some time
Maybe all we need is time...
And it's telling me it might be you
All of my life...
“Happy 1st Monthsary wife! Looking forward to spending my forever with you.”
“Thank you, Maru! Thank you for being a great husband! Thank you!”
I can't help but cry.
(Music)
I've been saving love songs and lullabies
And there's so much more
No one's ever heard before...
Maru wipe my tears and gave me a quick kiss on my lips.
“I don't want to see you crying hon.”
“Tears of joy.”
We both laughed and continue dancing.
(Music)
Something's telling me it might be you
Yeah, it's telling me it must be you
And I'm feeling it'll just be you
All of my life...
(Music) It's you...
It's you...
I've been waiting for
all of my life...
(Music) Maybe it's you...
Maybe it's you...
I've been waiting for all of my life...
***
I can’t help to smile every time I remember how we celebrated our first monthsary as husband and wife.
Imagine we only celebrated our first monthsary, what more if it's our first anniversary?!
And to thank him for last night, I decided to take a leave from work to cook lunch for my husband.
I wanted to surprise him that’s why I did not tell him my plan to visit him in his office.
When I enter the building almost all the employees are greeting me.
It's my first time to be here. I’m quite surprised knowing that the people here knew me.
I was so busy with work that I wasn’t able to visit him here.
That’s why I will not miss this chance to surprise him.
I’m also excited to see my husband in his office. How is he as a boss and how he looks like in his office? Is he a serious or a cool boss?
I went straight to the reception to inquire though I already know my husband’s office. I just do that for formality considering that it's my first time here.
“Hi!” I greeted them.
I see recognition from their eyes.
“Good afternoon Mrs. Ottave!” They greeted me.
“I'm visiting my husband. Is he in his office?” I asked them.
“We'll just call her secretary Ma'am.” They said.
While they are calling my husband’s office I took a glance at the building’s lobby.
Just like our building, their lobby also has a minimalist look, simple but elegant.
“Ma'am Mara as per your husband's secretary, Sir Maru is in his office.”
“Okay. Thanks. ...” I look at her nameplate “Abbie”
I used the private elevator and push the 30th-floor button.
I don't why but I suddenly felt nervous. It's my first time seeing him in his office.
When I reach the 30th floor, my heart is beating crazily.
I let a heavy sighed before I went out of the elevator.
When his secretary saw me she was about to greet me when I signal her to be quiet.
“I want to surprise my husband,” I whispered to her.
She just smiles and went back to her work.
I was about to open the door when I heard him and his dad talking.
“What's the meaning of this Maru!” I can sense anger in his voice.
“What do you mean dad?” Maru asked curiously.
“Don't play dumb with me young man! Look at those papers! What is she doing in our company!!!” His father’s voice raised.
“Dad she applied here, she passed the interview that's why she's working here now.” He calmly explained.
“You think I believe you? I thought you're happy with Mara?!”
My forehead furrowed.
Why did his dad mention my name?
“Yes, dad. We just celebrated our first month yesterday.” He looks tired of explaining.
“Then why is your mistress work here?!”
My eyes widen.
Mistress?
Does Maru have a mistress?!
Who is she?
“Dad, Jana is not my mistress!” He said angrily.
His father smirks.
“Really? Then why is she here? If she is not your mistress why can’t you cut your connection with that girl?! You think I didn’t know that until now you are still seeing each other?!”
I can’t take it anymore. I think I've heard enough.
I went out of his office. I ignore his secretary calling me. I just want to get out from here.
I felt like someone is chasing me, so I almost run like a mad girl. I wanted to leave the building as fast as I can. When I reach my car, I just let myself to cry.
I laugh bitterly.
I scolded myself for thinking that maybe our marriage will work, that Maru and I will be like a normal couple.
But I guess I'm wrong.
Reality hits me again.
No hope for me.
I'm just a business wife and forever will be.
***
If you’ll ask me, I don’t want to go home yet. I must admit, I’m so disappointed with what I discovered.
I guess I expected too much.
I thought that we can live like a normal family. I expected too much from him.
But who am I kidding right? We all know that there is no love in us. And he is in love with someone else.
I even thought that I could replace her. But I was wrong. I can never replace her.
Even if he is married to me, the person he loves is still her.
I didn’t notice that my tears began to pour again.
I felt pain in my chest, and this pain is very familiar to me. I felt the same pain when I found out about my parent's view on my existence.