“W-Wala na tayo magagawa.” nagsalita ako para matanggal ang pagka awkward namin.
“Y-Yeah..” we walked in sync and sits on the bed. F**k hindi ko kaya 'to, ba't ba napunta sa gan'to ang lahat?
Thyrone's POV
“N-No, Thyrone she's not a girl that you can do it with. She's your secretary, control yourself. Just think that she's a monkey or something.” napapasabi ko sa utak ko, pero hindi ko mapigilan na mapatingin sa kaniya at halatang kinakabahan siya, kaya nagsalita na ko.
“Don't worry Ms. Raven, I won't eat you. We will simply sleep together peacefully. I still have high standards.”
Lumina's POV
Okay na sana yung sinabi niya to assure my safety pero nakakainis yung huli, ano ibig niya ba sabihin hindi ako pasa sa standards niya? What the hell. Agad na akong humiga sa inis ko.
“I'm not worrying sir, I know naman you have those you called STANDARDS 'di ba?”
“Y-Yes, standards..”
Pero kahit anong sabihin namin, wala kaming magawa about this. Awkward pa din, well it's natural because we are man and woman. Normal lang 'yon right?
Thyrone's POV
Please tumalikod ka sa'kin, you're so beautiful baka hindi ko mapigilan sarili ko. She's so calm right now while ako inaalala ko ang dugo ng pagkalalaki ko na kumukulo na. How can she be calm at this moment?
Nahiga na din ako at tumalikod sa kaniya, I can't be calm. Ang hirap.
Pero sa gitna ng pagkanerbyos ko, she asked something.
“Sir?”
“Hmm?”
“Are you okay?”
“W-What do you mean? O-Of course I'm okay.” nahalata niya bang kinakabahan ako?
“Not about this moment, but about what you did in your office. I heard from Clyde, about your family.” napatahimik na lang ako sa sinasabi niya, hindi ko alam ang sasabihin ko, kung magpapanggap ba akong okay o magpapakatotoo.
“Sir, Do you know? You're so strong. You can smile and act like nothing happened. You can endure your everyday life without reminiscing your past. But sir, if you pretend that you're okay everytime, instead of being alright for real, you will only create your fake happiness.” her words are right, she knows that I'm only pretending, she knows how hard it is, but she's not right about I don't reminisce about my past, especially with the one I loved so much.
Napaharap ako sa kaniya, and she was facing me right now. I can feel her breath and warmth, I can see closely her eyes. And I can see that she's sad.
Lumina's POV
Bigla siyang humarap sa'kin, but instead of being awkward at that moment, I feel sad. Because nakikita ko sa mata niya, na nahihirapan siya.
“You're wrong.”
“Hmm?”
“I can only reminisce my past, with that girl. I'm sure you know her, dahil lagi naman kinekwento ni Clyde 'yon sa taong nasa paligid ko.” I just nodded.
“When I was 18, I met this girl. She's Shaira. From the very moment that I saw her, she's so joyful and happy. Her smile is like a sunflower, her eyes is like a sun that's smiling. Everything about her is bright. I like her, no, I love her. But she's the opposite of me. I'm gloomy and dark, my life is a pitch dark. But she became my light, it's like a girl finding a little child in a hidden dark room. She always brighten my day.”
As he talks about her, he was smiling, for real. I can sense that he really loved her, his geniune smile and happy eyes was the evidence. But his expression was changed, it became more sad, it looks like he's feeling an excruciating pain.
“But, when my father knew about our relationship, he tried to separate us. Nung una hindi niya kinaya na mapaghiwalay kami, that time I was thankful na kahit anong gawin ng papa ko hindi siya umaalis sa tabi ko, I always hope na hindi niya ko iwan. I always hope na mababago namin ang isip ng papa ko, but suddenly..” isa-isang tumulo ang luha niya, na ikinagulat ko.
“She died, and more of that, it's my father who killed her. Because ayaw namin bumitaw sa isa't isa, pinatay niya ang kaisa-isang babaeng mahal ko na tumayong kaibigan, kapatid, nanay at babaeng gusto kong pakasalan. At.. Huli na ng malaman kong buntis siya.” nagulat ako sa nalaman ko dahil hindi sinabi ni Clyde ang part na 'yon sa'kin.
“Everyday, even now at this moment. I can only think that it's because of me, na kung binitawan ko na lang siya, masaya pa siya ngayon, na kung hinayaan ko na lang siya, buhay pa siya ngayon. Kung hindi ko ipinilit ang gusto ko, hindi mamamatay ang babaeng mahal ko. I was immature back then, sa sobrang mahal ko siya I didn't know she was suffering. Huli din ng malaman kong pilit na pinapaabort ni papa ang bata, ang gago ko diba? Hindi ko na alam na may anak kami, hindi ko pa alam na pinapalaglag ni papa ang bata. I was saying on my mind that time na handa akong pakasalan siya at iwan ang lahat, but I just hurt her. Hindi niya manlang natupad ang pangarap niya, hindi ko manlang siya nayakap sa huling pagkakataon. Because I'm too greedy, god gave me a punishment.”
Umiiyak siya, he was crying in front of me. At naiiyak na din ako.
“My dad escaped that problem while his son was suffering. My dad simply said that it's his driver's fault. Grabe pamilya namin 'no? I guess like father like son.”
Thyrone's POV
After what I said, I saw how her tears starts to fall, I don't know why she's crying right now. When suddenly, she said this.
“It's not your fault sir. I believe it's not your fault. It's not greed, she loves you and you love her. She also wants to stay by your side. You both did your best 'til the end. Natural lang na pang hawakan mo ng mahigpit ang taong mahal na mahal mo, you can't let go of her dahil sa sobrang pagmamahal. So stop blaming yourself, I'm sure she also don't want you to suffer after what happened. I'm sure she wants you to be happy without blaming yourself, I'm sure.. that she and her baby, are happy in heaven.” she holds my hand and wipes my tears, I hugged her.
Finally, I found someone whom I can tell everything that I feel. But, I'm also scared, that she might also leave me.
Kierra's POV
“Haist, ba't hindi siya sumasagot?” kanina ko pa tinatawagan si Thyrone, pero ayaw niya sumagot. Nasa'n na kaya siya? Wala din siya sa bahay nila and even in his office, sino kaya ang kasama niya? Kahit naman may kasama siyang babae hindi niya iniignore ang phone call ko.
“I'm worried about him, nasa'n na kaya siya?” patay ang phone niya, and I don't know his secretary's number, so I can only call his driver, at agad naman itong sumagot.
“Hello ma'am?”
“Hi uhm, kasama mo ba si Thyrone ngayon? Nasa'n siya?”
“Ayy ma'am hindi pa po ba siya nakakauwi? Nasira po kasi yung kotse so naghintay po sila sa restaurant kaso natagalan ako kasi sarado yung mga gawaan ng kotse dito.”
“Sila? What do you mean by sila? Sino kasama niya?”
“Si Ms. Lumina Raven po, yung secretary niya.” agad kong binaba ang phone ko sa inis.
He's with that girl? And hindi pa sila umuuwi? They're spending this night together? I knew I don't like that girl. Ang bilis ng progress huh? In bed agad. Well, I'm sure after that itatapon agad siya ni Thyrone. I'm sure of it.
Lumina's POV
Bigla akong nagising dahil nauuhaw ako, tatayo na sana ako ng maramdaman kong nakahawak pa din siya sa kamay ko. Pilit ko tinatanggal ito pero kahit tulog siya ang higpit ng pagkakahawak niya. Kaya nahiga na lang ulit ako.
“I was suppose to take revenge, but bakit napunta ako sa ganitong posisyon? How funny.” napabulong ako habang nakatingin sa kaniya.
“Hindi talaga siya nagbago, his eyes, nose, lips are still the same.” I said while looking at him sleeping so soundly. When suddenly hinatak niya ako at hinug na ikinagulat ko.
“Hmm~” huni niya habang tulog siya.
“Uhh, sir..” ginigising ko siya ng mahina pero ayaw niya magising.
Hindi ko alam, pero nadala na din ako, I hugged him back. I can feel his warmth, when suddenly.
“Shaira..” he said her name, hindi ko alam, but I was dissapointed, or sad. I'm having these mix emotions, I don't know. Ang hirap i-explain ng nararamdaman ko, why am I sad that he's saying her name in his sleep?
“Hmm?” bigla siyang nagising.
“Ms. Raven?”
“U-Uhh sir..” bigla niya akong naitulak.
“Oh my god Ms. Raven! D-Did you just hugged me while I'm sleeping?!” nagulat ako sa sinabi niya, ako pa sinisi?!
“What the— ikaw kaya nauna! Bigla mo ko hinatak e dapat iinom ako ng tubig, tas tignan mo.” tinaas ko ang kamay ko na hawak-hawak niya.
“Kanina ka pa nakahawak kaya hindi ako nakainom ng tubig.”
“A-Ayy gano'n ba? S-Sorry.” agad siyang nagsorry at natawa naman ako sa isip ko.
“Pero, weh? Hindi mo 'ko hinug? Ako talaga?”
“Kung hindi lang kita boss baka tinadyakan pa kita, dapat nga sa sahig ka e kung hindi lang ako naaawa sayo e.”
“Hey! Are you talking back at me?! At your boss?!”
“Dapat kasi hindi mo na ako inakusahan!”
“How dare— ang tapang mo para sagut-sagutin ako ng ganyan!”
“Alam mo sir kung wala kang balak matulog ulit WAG MO KO IDAMAY IT'S STILL 4 AM YOU KNOW AT ANTOK NA ANTOK PA KO!” agad akong nagtalukbong at nahiga.
Thyrone's POV
“W-What the—” nagulat ako dahil sinigawan niya ako.
“Tsk, Oo grabe kakaiba 'tong secretary ko sinisigawan yung boss niya palit kaya tayo ng position baka gusto mo?!” humiga ulit ako at nagkumot, natanggal ko ang kumot sa mukha niya at nakita kong tulog na siya. I can hear her snore a little bit.
“Pft, she's snoring like a dog, haha.” bigla 'kong naaalala si Lumina, ang babaeng sinaktan ko noon.
—FLASHBACK—
After namin pumunta sa dagat, nag drive ako papunta sa restaurant. Pero nakita kong tulog siya, pinagmasdan ko siya saglit. I can hear her snoring. Pinagmasdan ko siya.
“To be honest, you're not that ugly, if you can just be stylish and go to a dermatologist. You will be very beautiful more than any girl.” sa pagsasalita ko, bigla siyang nagsing.
“H-Huh? Anong sabi mo?” para siyang lasing na nagsalita.
“Wala.”
— END OF FLASHBACK—
They're has the same name, and same snore. I wonder kung siya talaga 'to, but still, it's impossible.
“Haist Thyrone why are you thinking about that girl?!” napasabi ko sa sarili ko at pinagmasdan ulit si Ms. Raven.
“She's really pretty, even how she sleeps.” sa kakatingin ko sa kaniya, nakatulog din ako.
Lumina's POV
Nagising ako dahil sa liwanag ng araw, at nakita ko na 9:00 AM na kaya agad ko siyang ginising.
“Sir! Sir!”
“Hmm?”
“9:00 AM na! Late na tayo!”
“What?!” agad kaming tumayo, at nag ayos, nag hilamos siya at sumunod ako. Bago kami umalis tinanong ko muna ang land lady kung may sakayan ng bus dito.
“Ah oo meron, kaliwa ka paglabas mo dito, then kumanan ka. May makikita kang bus station.”
“Thanks po.” nagmamadali kaming naglakad ni Thyrone.
“Ba't ba kasi 'di mo ko ginising agad Ms. Raven?! Late na tuloy tayo sa work!”
“Aba e tulog din ako malay ko bang hindi ka din pala early riser!”
“Ba't ba lagi mo sinisigawan boss mo?!”
“Nakakairita ka kase!”
“A-Ano?! Nakakairita?! Baka nakakalimutan mong ako nagpapa—”
“Sir, paalis na yung bus bilis takbo!” sabay kaming tumakbo at naabutan ang bus.
“First time ko sumakay ng bus ha?”
“Hala seryoso sir?”
“Oo, I always take cabs or my cars.”
“Wow iba talaga mayaman, but medyo sad din kasi hindi ka nakakatry ng mga ganito, wag mo sabihing kahit train hindi ka pa nakakatry?”
“Oo..”
“Tsk tsk. Kawawa ka naman, be thankful to me na nakaranas ka ng ganto ngayon.”
“Why would I be thankful to you e naghirap ako kagabi?”
“Hindi lang ikaw naghirap sir, ako din.”
“Manahimik ka na nga.”
“Tsk.” lagi kaming nag aaway, hindi ko na alam. nakakainis kasi siya magsalita walang delicacy.
Pagbalik namin hindi na kami umuwi at dumiretso na lang sa company dahil mal-late siya sa mga meetings. Agad kaming pumasok sa office niya when suddenly, ando'n ang papa niya.
“Oh, good morning son.”
“D-Dad.. Why are you.. here?”
Bumungad din sa'min si Kierra.
“Kierra, what are you—”
“Son, let me introduce your future wife, Kierra Husley.”
“What?!”