Out of a reason, there is this feeling that you're gladly enjoying even it kills you the confusion.
I was so shocked and mad that I slap him when he tried to come near me. I know I was beyond my limit but come to think of it. If not's because of him, eh di sana Leandro and I are in good terms now.
"Ow. What a welcoming gesture Yana. Thank you, it's so sweet of you." He said with sarcasm.
"What are you doin' here? Don't tell me that it's just a coincidence because we both know that it's not." Nangigil kong angil sa kaniya na hindi ko na napigilan pang sapakin siya sa kaniyang braso lalo pa't makikita sa mukha niyang natutuwa pa siya.
"Relax Yana, masyado ka namang sadista. Hindi ba pwedeng nagkataon lang talaga kaya..."
"I don't believe in you. So stop this talkshit and tell me why are you following me because it's not funny anymore. Kung akala mo nakakatuwa pwes ngayon sasabihin ko sayo na hindi so if you'll excuse me, and never follow me ever, again." Agad na kong tumalikod dahil baka maiyak pa ko sa harap niya. Hindi naman kasi nakakatuwa. Buti kung si Leandro yun pero hindi eh. Lalo't siya pa, kapag nalaman nanaman 'to ni Leandro, baka nga talaga masaktan nanaman ako.
Hindi ko na alintana ang mga taong nakinood sa aming eksena dahil nasisiguro kong bago pa man may makapagvideo, naitapon na ni Anj ang cellphone nila. I knew her. She's very protective when it comes to me. I am just a hardheaded woman.
Salamat nalang at hindi na ako sinundan pa ng lalaking yun. Nagkulong nalang ako maghapon sa cottage namin kahit na nabuburyo na ako dahil naiisip ko palang na makikita ko nanaman ang pagmumukha niya, naiinis na ako.
We could be friends naman eh. Naisip ko lang. Baka nga kung hindi dahil sa interview na yun, pwede ko siyang kausapin after the incident last week. Kaya ko ipaliwanag kay Leandro na we just ended up being together that night, I know he'll understand me. Pero dahil sa confession niya, that's enough reason para layuan ko siya.
It's 7 pm when I decided to went out dahil sa gutom at sa isiping baka pwede na akong lumabas kasi gabi naman na. I'm sure wala nang masiyadong tao.
I don't know Anj's whereabout but I trust her.
I chose to eat pizza instead of proper meal. Wala akong gana. Buti nalang we bought some while we're in an city before coming here.
After eating, I made myself a coffee and went out just to feel the fresh air. I was busy sipping my coffee when I felt someone sit beside me. I knew it. He is still here. Tatayo na sana ako when he suddenly grab my hand and talk.
"Yana, let me explain. Let me clarify myself. I don't have the intention na guluhin kayo ng boyfriend mo. I mean, I've wrecked it but it's unintentional, hindi ko naman alam na your boyfriend would react nang ganun sayo. I'm sorry. Please, hear me out first."
I don't know but I saw myself in him everytime that I am begging for Leandro to hear me out and fix our misunderstanding kaya umupo ulit ako beside him para pakinggan siya. May mga tanong rin ako na alam kong masasagot kung kakausapin ko siya nang maayos.
"I'm sorry for what I have acted kanina but I wasn't sorry for hurting you. You deserve it." Malamig kong sabi sa kaniya.
"I know. I was a jerk for publicly introducing you but I also did not regret of what I have done to you." He is really an asshole one but at least he's now sorry for bringing up my name.
I kept quite after that, I wanna give him a chance to talk without me interferring it kasi alam ko namang magkakasagutan lang din kami kapag ganun.
"Did you remember last week when we met? It was not the 1st time that we did actually."
Napaisip naman ako sa encounter namin nun. Kaya pala he was like having a self-talked kasi he is expecting na I know him. But sadly, I didn't.
"It was when my Mom had a controversy on a modelling industry. Many people bashed her telling that Mom is not really a good model to become an international supermodel ..."
"Wait, Mom? Are you talking about Ms. Samantha Zerano?" Takang tanong ko. I know her. I actually idolize her. I remember when people talk shits about her not being good, I was the one who stand still with her by posting in my social media account how womderful she is. I also got an interview asking me who's my favorite model because I am really good at wearing clothes. So I actually told them Ms. Zerano despite the negativities she is facing that time.
I am not just a writer. I do modelling as well in my Auntie's Modelling agency here in the Philippines.
Anyway, I knew Ms. Zerano has a son but I don't have an idea who it is. Tapos, si Andrew pa pala? Of all people? Really huh?
"Yes, exactly. She is my mom."
"So how did we met? I don't get it." Saad ko na naguguluhan pa rin. Wala akong maalalang Andrew in my past. It happened 6 years ago at kahit anong pag-alala ko, wala talaga.
"We've met on a biggest Auction happened six years ago sa La Cestina Hotel. It's for the charity foundation at isa ka sa may highest bidding in exchange of a dinner date."
I remembered it. That was the 1st time when I've met Leandro. He won. He bids me 1 million for just a dinner date. But I still don't understand how I've met him.
"I was the other one who bids you half of the winner."
"So may we call Ms. Briana Zee to start the bidding program. Who wants her for a dinner date?"
I plasterred my fake smile infront of those men kahit naasiwa ako. I don't have a choice but to do it. It was a surprised bidding actually. We all invited for it para daw sa Charity foundation but we don't know kung ano ang for auction. Until they announce this kind of shit for a dinner date. I obliged kasi it's just a dinner. Inisip ko nalang na harmless.
There are men who raised their cards with 20 thou, 40, thou, 50 thou but it all comes down when someone stand up and offer 500 thou. I heared gasps to those who bid lower that he did. Nagtaka ako sa laki ng bid niya. But I neglected it knowing na baka mayaman siya. When I saw him, he's actually handsome, has a muscle toned na halata sa kaniyang formal na suot, maputi, halata ang brown eyes niya kahit malayuan and his height was undeniably good. Mas mataas siya sa akin kung titingnan. I was hoping na wala nang tataas pa because I felt okay towards him.
But while I'm busy checking him out, someone got stole the offer and bid 1 Million. Bagay na lalong nagpaingay sa loob. What the? Baliw ba sila? Magsasayang ng pera just for a dinner? Alam kong it's for a cause pero isn't it too much kindness?
"Higher than 1 million?" Asked the coordinator.
I saw the other guy took his seat and let the other guy won over him. I was a bit disappointed that time but when I saw who had won, it was actually fine because he is somehow a good looking as well, feeling ko a trustworthy man rin the way of his looks and gestures.
So Leandro and I ended up on a dinner date that night.
So that's it. It's him. Maybe he got interested with me that time knowing that I'm a great fan of his Mom. Kaya siguro siya nagkainteres nang ganun. Hayagan kasi ang pag-aidolize ko kay Ms. Zerano so probably, it's just it. Nothing more. Nanahimik na lang ako pagkatapos. Slowly digesting it. But still nalilito because of his confession.
"So to formally introduce myself, Hi. I'm Andrew Zerano, your long time admirer. But a harmless admirer, because I only love to see you happy and nothing more." He offers a handshake but I politely declining it by asking.
"I understand you now but I just want you to know na wala kang aasahan sa akin. I have a boyfriend, a long time one. Alam mo naman siguro, but what makes you think na kapag sinabi mo ang nararamdaman mo, all will be fall into places the way you think it is?" Bilib ako sa tapang niya.
"Honestly, I really want to pursue you. Pero hindi ko naman inaasahan na kapag umamin ako, makukuha kita agad. I know it takes time. Somehow, I feel at ease kasi alam kong alam mo na. Pero hindi rin okay, because I knew it, you're not. And I'm sorry for that." Sincere niyang sabi.
"No. It's okay. We both know na wala tayong kasalanan kung bakit ako nasasaktan. You just confessed, nagmamahal lang din ako. Dun nga lang sa taong hindi ako madalas maintindihan," Sabi ko naman habang naiisip si Leandro. Thinking how he reacted upon Andrew's confession. Is he afraid that Andrew might steal me away from him? What could be his reason for being mad at me like I did cheat. Mababaliw na ata ako kaiisip sa possible reason niya.
"You knew yourself better than us Yana, it's beyond love. Alam kong there's this particular reason why you're still holding on and I'm telling you, mali ka sa ginagawa mo." Naalala ko si Anj.
Patayo na siya nang hatakin ko ang kamay niya to ask what's he referring but he slowly remove my hand and continue turned his back to me. Natatakot ako kasi pakiramdam ko kilalang-kilala niya ako bukod sa pagkakakilala niya sa akin six years ago.
"Do you really love me, ano bang alam mo sa akin Andrew?" Hindi ko na naiwasang mapatanong half-shouted because of our distance. I knew it. There is really something with him.
"Just a concerned citizen." He says, at tuluyan nang umalis.
Without having a chance to ask kung bakit rin ba siya andito? Oh sheeez. I'm going crazy.