Love stay when we got to understand every flaws, love stay, even it's painful, it always chose to forgive.
Mataman kong tinitigan ang sarili sa salamin wearing a short-haired wig, huge eyeglasess and a dark matte lipstick when someone interrupt me at my back.
"Maganda ka pa rin with that mask pero hindi ka makikilala ng agaran kung hindi ka tititigan so I think okay na 'yan. Let's go babe?" James said na iminuwestra pa ang kamay to his hip, with a smile plasterred on his face. He thinks talaga na isasabit ko ang kamay ko sa kaniya huh! Manigas ka.
I turned my back to him when he was ready to stepped forward with me. Mabilis akong nakalabas sa botique na pinagdalhan niya sa akin and carry those books that I bought a while ago. I am confident enough na hindi nila ako makikilala because of my aura na purong kabaliktaran sa mga nakakakilala sa akin. I have a long straight hair, wearing an eye contact every time na lalabas ako, with a nude lipstick because I hate dark colored lipstick. Also, hindi rin ako sigurado kung ako nga talaga ang hinahanap nila so I walked alone. Malay ko ba kung may celebrity na namataan sa loob ng mall na 'to. I just thought it now. How stupid of me. Damn that James. Dahil sa kaniya kaya nagpadala naman ako.
"Hey, pretty woman, you can't come outside alone. You must pretend that you have a date. They are aware about your boyfriend's destination kaya iisipin nilang mag-isa ka. They know na narito ka because of a picture posted by unknown on the internet a while ago while you're eating pizza so you must be wise enough para takasan sila." I was taken a back when I saw myself on the internet na pinagpipyestahan ng mga tao. Like really? I should get going asap. Hinayaan kong tumabi sa akin si James sa paglalakad dahil aminado akong his idea would help me get out here. But I didn't cling my arm with his because I don't trust him.
Pagdating sa labas, maingat kaming nakalusot sa napakaraming reporters but I heard one of them say my name loudly kaya na-confirm kong ako nga ang kanilang kanina pa inaabangan.
Pagkarating ko sa aking kotse, agad kong pinaandar kahit alam kong James is looking at me like I was the first ever woman who don't know how to say thank you for someone who helped me. Medyo nakonsensya ako but my feelings got vanished immediately when Mom called me.
"Hello Bree, where are you? You're on the news a while ago until now on the internet. Don't tell me you're out? Are you driving? Tell me your exact location Bree, your body guards has to come there immediately. You should have watched tv. Bree, there are so many paparazzi out there..."
"Mom! Stop. I'm okay. I'm on my way to my unit so you don't have to worry. Hindi naman siguro alam kung saan ang condo ko so I'm safe there. Lilipas din naman yun, especially 1 month off ako sa trabaho. Remember? I and Leandro will be going to Sorsogon so it'll stop bago pa man ako makabalik dito sa Manila Mom. Kaya wala kayong dapat alalahanin." Kalma kong sagot saa kaniya kahit sa totoo'y natatakot ako sa posibleng magiging reaksyon ni Leandro kaapag nalaman niya ito.
Mom understands me and has to end the call dahil she's on a set pala right now for her taping on the upcoming movie na pinagbibidahan niya. Mom is known for her husay saa pag-arte since she was a child up until now.
Anyway, It's not my fault if I'm the one Andrew's referring to. Hindi ko siya kilala and I can easily turn him down. Ang inaalala ko lang ay si Leandro na baka kung ano ang isipin niya.
Pagkaakyat ko sa aking unit, agad ko siyang tinawagan to ask if he's coming at agad naman siyang sumagot.
"Hello, Love. How was it? Are you enjoying?" Tanong ko patungkol saa kaanilang reunion. Wishing he does not know yet para ako na mismo ang magsabi sa kaniya para iwas concluding. But I was wrong.
"How about you? Are you enjoying from Andrew-whoever-that-asshole's confession? Sino siya? Bakit hindi mo siya naikuwento sa akin? Is he somewhat a very special friend na ngayon lang nakapagconfess? Tangina Briana, you are a cheater!" Tuloy-tuloy at gigil niyang sabi through whispering on the phone. Maybe they're eating. So I decided to calm myself first and ask him to went here as much as possible to talk about it.
"You don't have to ask me because I'll definitely go there after here so you better make a good fucking excuses."
I wasn't shocked either when he ended the call just like that. Alam kong galit siya but I can't help being mad as well.
As far as I know, hindi ko kilala si Andrew nang lubusan so paano ko ikukwento ang iniisip niyang meron kami? Second, I wasn't the one who confessed. He should have at least consider it. Third, I so love him the most, but how come he can't even trust me enough? Many thoughts are tryin' to interfere with my issues right now na feeling ko masisiraan na ako ng bait until Leandro came and hold my both arms tight with his mad eyes hanggang sa mapatayo ako.
"Love, I'm hurting. Let go of me. Please?" Hindi ko na napigilang mapaiyak because of the pain I am feeling physically as well as emotionally. What the fuck is wrong with him? I don't have any fault here. He let go of me when he saw me crying but his mad eyes stilled. I was shocked when he threw one of my base malapit sa akin. Muntik na akong matamaan but it doesn't make him scared of.
"Layuan mo ang Andrew na 'yon Briana. Nagkakaintindihan ba tayo? Ha?" He said na pigil na pigil at malinaw ang bawat salita. His conviction from his word is in it.
I tried reaching him pero mabilis siyang umiwas.
"I never know him personally in the first place para iwasan siya. Bakit ka ba sa akin nagagalit? Wala akong ginagawang masama. I don't even cheat. What's with you?" Hindi ko na napigilang magsalita seeing how he reacted about it.
"So gusto mo siyang makilala ha? Talagang inuubos mo ang pasensya ko Briana!" At muli nanamang tinapon ang isa pang vase sa may gilid ng sofa ko.
"That's not my point Leandro! You should have at least hear me out para magkaintindihan tayo." Kalma kong sabi para sana mahimasmasan siya pero nagkamali ako.
"You know what? Ikaw ang hindi marunong makinig. You should have stayed here last week para hindi na nag-cross ang landas niyo but you came out without me knowing it! Kasalanan mo kung bakit may mga lalaking ang lalakas loob umamin because you are giving them a motive! Fuck Briana, akala mo hindi ko alam? Akala mo hindi ko alam na magkasabay pa kayong kumain ng Andrew na 'yun nung umalis ako dito?"
Hindi ko alam na alam niya ang tungkol sa pagkikita naamin ni Andrew and I did'nt expect it coming. Kaya pala galit na galit siya.
"It's not what you're thinking Love, let me explain. I never..."
"Don't need to explain. I don't wanna hear your excuses. Have some alone time kasi hindi na ako sasama sa planned travel natin. Bahala ka sa buhay mo. Cheat whenever you like, I'll do it as well. Wala kang kwentang girlfriend."
Just like how he see me as useless one, he left just like that again. Without me explaining and him hearing my side.
And guess what? Sayang ng 1 month off ko sa sarili ko kasi hindi naman pala kami matutuloy.
Kailan ba ako masasanay?
Ilang tickets and reservations na ba ang nasayang namin because of misunderstanding?
Ilang masasakit na salita pa kaya ang iiendure ko just because I love him?
I am not a cheater. I don't do that. I love him but his love would never be like the way I love him.
Love that is understanding, love that is forgiving.