Ano ba dapat na isuot pag aatend ng graduation? Toga? Psh! Pero may naisip ako! I chose the black outfits. Lahat itim. Wag ng magtanong kung ano, basta itim.
Syempre, lumabas na ako dun. And I saw him infront of the mirror, posing like an idiot. Di ko nalang sya pinansin at nagtuloy-tuloy sa labas ng sasakyan nito. Kakapasok ko palang sa driver's seat nung buksan nya ulit pintuan. Kinaladkad nya ako palabas at pinapunta sa kabila. He opened the door and slightly bowed his head..
"Come inside the car, gf ko, and we'll ride the road to forever" and he winked
Di ko nalang sya sinagot at pumasok na. Alam nyo na, daming alam ng lalaking to. Kung di lang mapapakinabangan, pinaslang ko na'to.
He drove in silence, wala lang naman sakin yun, sana'y na ako. All the time, nakatingin lang ako sa labas, familiar places. For two years, nothing changed in this place.
Nang out of nowhere a music played.
"Wtf?!!" naisigaw ko sa gulat.
Habang sya, napapreno ng wala sa oras.
"Okay ka lang ba gf ko? Hala! Napanu ka? Baka may masakit sayo! Punta na tayong hospital?"
I cleared my throat as I tried to compose myself. "Nothing, just keep on driving"
Bakit? Ang gara lang kasi ng boses nya eh. Napakasintunado. Tsk! Sinaksak ko nalang earphone ko tsaka pinafull volume yung music.
"Hey.. hey!"
Kinukusot-kusot ang matang bumangon ako, syempre, unang bumulaga sakin ang mukha nya.
"Okay ka lang ba? Gusto mo na bang umuwi tayo?" he asked me with an obvious concern
I felt like my heart was touched by a warmth feeling. I dunno pero napangiti ako "Nah! Pasok na tayo sa loob"
Tumango nalang sya sakin at umalis na nga kami dun. As we walked in the hallway papunta sa community center kung saan gaganapin ang graduation. Girls kept on looking, not that obvious pero nararamdaman ko parin yung mga masasakit nilang tingin kahit na nadaanan na namin sila.
Tell me people, kikiligin na ba ako? Ito ang sitwasyon, I am walking with him beside me as our hands have been intertwined with each other. I am on my poker face while he's smiling from ear to ear, tsk, kaya ayaw ko sa mga ganito eh! Nakakasuka!
I closed my eyes as I remembered anything.
I was with Ally that time, we're talking about random things. Nagtatawanan pa nga kaming dalawa ng out of nowhere, may bumangga nalang sakin at dumaan sa gitna naming dalawa to think na sobrang lapad ng dadaanan sa kabilang side.
Sa sobra kong pagkabigla, nahawakan ko manggas ng damit nito kaya napaharap sya sakin. And to my surprise, HE slapped me, right straight to my right cheek.
People gasped, from what? Yan ang hindi ko alam. Halos maiyak na ako that time, oo, ganun ako kahina.
"Rogue!!!" sigaw ni Ally sabay lapit sa'kin "Are you okay?" at hinarap na naman nya si Rogue "The hell Rogue? Ano na naman ba'to?!"
Nakatungo lang ako habang nagbabangayan sila dun. Nahihiya ako! Ayaw ko ng away!
Kinulbit ko si Ally "Ally, tama na please"
"Tsk! Insecure bitch" he murmured as he walked away.
Nakapamaywang na hinarap ako ni Ally "Ikaw naman babaita, saan mo ba nilalagay yang katalinuhan mo? Darn it Ry!! Saan pa at naging Hellary ang name mo kung di mo gagamitin?"
"I don't want to fight him" I said in a low tone. Simple, if papatulan ko sya, I have this chance na mandilim ang paningin ko. And IF that will going to happen, kawawa ang baklang yun. Pero di pa napupuno ang banga, malapit na.
Nagising lang ako nung may ulol na bumatok sakin. Akmang sisinghalan ko na ang kung sinong pangahas na'yun nung makita ko ang concern look nya.
"What?!" I hissed as I glared at him
"You.. you spaced out for almost thirty minutes" he told me
Nag iba ako ng tingin "Tsk! Just don't mind me" and I noticed that we're already in the ComCen, the program already started. And that gay already on his speech at yan na naman, pilit na namang pumapasok sa utak ko ang mga ginawa nya sakin. No! Not yet! Not yet! Not now!!
"This graduation is not complete because one of our friends, is not here" the whole place was filled by murmurs and my fists turned into balls
"May isa pa pala silang kaibigan?" ang lalaki sa tabi ko "I thought, they are only nine"
"Just listen, idiot" I hissed. I felt her, staring again, her worried stares.
"Maybe most of you here can still remember her, jusk like me, she was running as a Summa Cum Laude, a candidate of both brain and beauty. But unfortunately, she died two years ago in a gang rape. Wherever you are, Ry, you are always in our heart. Always remember that, my friend" at pinahid pa nya yung fake tears nya.
Ang plastik mo Rogue, napakaplastik mong mahadera ka!! Pero again, dahan dahan na namang sumilay ang ngiting di ko mapigilan. You'll pay twice, thrice or even more, you piece of shit!!
Then, tinapos na nito ang speech nya na maluha luha pa.
"Rest room lang"
At palihim na sinundan ang mahaderang bakla. At gaya ng inaasahan ko, ngiting wagi ang bakla habang papunta sa restroom.
He was unzipping his zipper, syempre, nakatingin sa baba nung pumunta ako sa likuran nya.
"Missed me?" I asked him not letting him turned his head.
Namumutla ang mukha na tumingin sa salimin at mula doon, kitang-kita ko kung pano naglandas ang pawis sa mukha nya sa noo nito.
"Don't worry Rogue. YOU. ARE. ALWAYS. IN. MY. HEART. AND. MIND. MY. FRIEND" at bago pa sya makahuma, I pressed something on his neck resulting for him to faint.
From my thumb, I wrote something on the mirror with the use of my blood.
B.R.U.T.A.L.I.T.Y. I missed you guys, your Satan is here!