8:00
I am walking while thinking how tragic my life is. My father died and then the next day my mother died too. Same date when my girlfriend broke up with me.
Tanggap ko nung iniwan niya 'ko kasi aware naman ako na nawawala na 'ko ng oras sa kanya. But my mom? I don't accept the fact that she leave us because of nothing.
There are some kinds of love that lead you to death. For me, there's sacrifice and being selfish. Mayroong pagkakataon na sinasalag mo ang mahal mo sa pagkakabaril. Ikinamatay mo ito. Dito pumapasok ang sakripisyo. But in Mom case, she died because she want to. She died because she doesn't want to mourn with us. She died because he died. In short, she died because my Dad died.
And that's the power of love. Love will turn to tragedy that will cause people to be hurt then it will lead us to death.
She didn't think that she have us. Us that will be here to be with her in poor and relief. I hoped that she had made a good decision. Not for herself but for our sake.
But what can I do now? She's gone.
Who would I throw the blame? To me? To my father or to the one who killed my father? I don't know because my fault is not being there by her side to protect them.
This is not the right time-
BOOOGGGGHHHHH!
Nakabunggo ako. Napaupo siya kasabay ng pagbagsak ng cellphone niya't maleta. I think she's from abroad. Well that's based on my observation.
Hindi ko ito pinansin. Nagmamadali ako papunta sa abogado. Pero ng nakalayo ako ng dalawang metro ay may naramdaman akong matigas na bagay na tumama sa likod ko. Her cellphone. Napahinto ako at tumingin saglit sa gawi niya.
Cellphone 'yong binato niya?! How rich is she. It's expensive base on the style.
Pero hindi ko siya pinansin sa halip ay nagtuloy tuloy sa paglalakad. But she said something that stops me.
"Hit and walk really? You know what Aiden, I can kill you now but I'm kind person to hit you because of small reason like this. But I remember that I'm here to protect you not to kill you." Mahaba niyang sabi. Nakangisi na siya niyan nang makita niya ang mukha ko.
How did she know my name?
"I don't need protection of yours 'cause I have my strength to protect myself." I said. My name used is Ruiz. No one knows except for my family my true name. But how come?! Humarap ako sa kanya ng may marealize ako. Pero huli na. She's far now. No way! Baka may ibang makaalam. Pero nagmamadali ako. Kailangan kong makapunta sa abogado ko dahil sa kaniya ko kukunin ang impormasyon patungkol sa kaso ni Dad. Naglakad lang ako dahil malapit lang ang bahay nito sa amin.
Nakarating ako kay Atty. Hart. He's one of my father's friend kaya tinulungan niya ako without payment from us.
Pagkarating ko ng office ay bumungad sa'kin ang malungkot na mukha ni Attorney. Naramdaman ko naman ang masamang balita.
"Good morning Attorney. How's investigation?" I asked straight to the point. I am doing this for justice.
"Pardon Mr. Ruiz. Your Father's death is legal. He was shot on head. He intentionally killed by the Agent or maybe a Secret Agent." He said. I can see how sad he is. He's my father friend so that's natural.
"Pero po pwede naman na ipakulong na lang. Why do it need to end on killing?" I asked. Naging seryoso siya sa sinabi ko.
"You know that your Dad came to other county right?" Tumango ako. Ang totoo niyan ay nag paalam daw siya kay Mom na pupuntahan niya 'yung kaibigan niya. He was invited. Noong una nga ay akala ko 'yung kaibigan niya ang pumatay. But base on Attorney, he was killed by an agent.
"So what's connect?"
"Maraming Agent sa ibang bansa. At sigurado akong may ibang ginawa ang Dad mo kaya umabot sa ganoong sitwasyon." Maybe a transaction again? I chuckled in my mind. Of course that is the reason."And your Dad is a Druglord. That's not just a jailing case. It is really a death penalty. It is serious case Ruiz, don't think revenge." Anong akala niya sa'kin? Mapanghiganti? Maybe I was hurt but I didn't think a revenge. I can raise if I want.
Nag-rebelde ako because I saw dad using prohibited medicine. Pinalagpas ko iyon noong una until he start hurting me because he saw that I saw him. I think that's the effect of his addiction. Makalaipas ang ilang linggo, naisipan kong sundan siya. Na-curious kasi ako sa ginagawa nito at lagi siyang umaalis. Nagulat na lang ako ng barilin niya ang lalaking kausap niya lang kanina. Sa mismong harap ko. Doon nagsimula ang pagrerebelde ko. I didn't go home for two months. I think a plan but somebody fulfill it for me.
We didn't have same plan yet the crime was ended. Atsaka ko lang naisipan ang plano ngunit huli na ako. Marami ng namatay dahil ang tagal kong nag-isip. Ang tagal kong pinagiisipan.
"Sige po." Sabi ko at tumango.
"But before you leave, see this bullet. Ito ang dahilan kung bakit nasabi kong legal ang nangyari." Sabi niya. Napatingin ako sa balang hawak niyang nasa plastic. Indeed agent is the killer.
Masasabi ko ngang kakaiba 'to at ngayon lang ako nakakita ng ganitong bala kasi mayroong nakaukit na mga letra dito.
Who are you?
N-D?