Kabanata 9
Excited
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It's been months but we are still on Indo. Wala sa palano ko ang magtagal dito pero hindi manlang ako makalabas dahil sa hindi malamang kadahilanan. The bodyguard's dead body was buried on the mansion's backyard. Hindi ako makapaniwala na hindi lang ako ang nakakita sa ginawa kong pagpatay sa lalaking iyon. Even my daughter saw me killed that fucking monster at ni gulat sa mukha niya ay wala akong nakita. It was as if sanay na siyang makita akong may pinapatay na tao ang that shocked me. So much.
"I'm sorry, Baby." Iyon nalamang ang tanging nasabi ko. Isang oras na ang nakalipas magmula ng nasaksihan niya mismo na pinatay ko ang lalaking iyon. The bodyguard's body was buried on the backyard. It was odd because two kids helped me carry that body. It was as if nagsama silang dalawa kasing lakas nila ako.
"It feels weird." Napabuntong hininga ako. Weird na makitang pumapatay ang nanay mo ng tao. Yeah, right. "I mean weird, because i feel like I'm like you, who kill people in fact i don't. It feels like i know that you are killing people but infact i don't know. This is my first time seing a dead person full of blood, and I don't feel scared at all. So, you don't have to say sorry, Mom." Oh, God! Dapat hindi na ako nagtataka. Siguro'y namana niya ang pagiging ganito saakin at sa ama niya. Averil is a ruthless man, he kill whenever or wherever he wants. And me.
Matapos naming mag usap ng araw na iyon ay kinausap niya ako. She wanted to go to a school where killing is legal, where using guns, knifes, swords, bombs, poisons were legal. Natawa nalang ako no'n kasi wala namang skwelahang ganun. Walang nag eexist na gano'n sa mundong ito.
"It's been months but why aren't we going back to the Philippines?!" Iyon agad ang bungad saakin ni Aera pagkapasok ko sa bagong mansion na binili ko sa Indonesia. Unlike the mansion before ito ngayon ay malapit sa City.
"I'm waiting for your Dad to move but it's been months pero hindi parin siya gumagalaw. It seems that something bad happened in your family that is why i booked us a ticket. We are going back to the Philippines kahit na ayaw pa ng Nanay ko. Our flight says 4:30. You don't need to pack your things, tanging dala nalang namin ng anak ko ang aayusin ko at pagkatapos babyahe na tayo papuntang airport."
"What?! Ala una palang, so, That means we'll stay there for Three Hours and A Half!?" Tumango ako. Kung mananatili kami sa mansion na ito tiyak na malalaman ni Mommy na uuwi na kami ng pilipinas at baka anong gawin niya para mapigilan kami sa pagbalik. Para mas safe ay sa airport na kami maghihintay ng flight namin. I actually don't know why Mom keeps on stoping me from coming back to the Philippines. Wala akong maisip na dahilan. I looked at my watch and saw that its already One o'clock and twenty minutes.
I was about to walk when suddenly i smelled blood. I don't really know why i have this kind of thing na nakakaamoy ako ng dugo pero kapag umaabot na sa punto na nakakaamoy ako ng dugo isa lang ang ibig sabihin no'n. Danger. Kung simpleng sugat lang at nagdudugo ni isang patak waa akong maamoy but this one, hindi.
"You smell it, too?" Napalingon ako saa likod ko kung saan si Aera na nakakunot na ang noo at patuloy na inaamoy kung saan nanggaling ang amoy ng dugo. "Upstairs."
Tumango ako sa sinabi niya. I smelled the blood from upstairs. It hit me, ang mga kwarto sa mansion na ito ay nasa taas, walang ibang tao dito kundi ako, si Aera at si....
"Fuck!"
"Aerille!"
Hindi ko na pinansin ang sabay naming sigaw dahil pareho na kaming tumatakbo paitaas. Shit! Shit! Shit!
Nakarating kami sa harap ng kwarto ng anak ko but the smell of blood is not strong that only mean one thing. I opened the door but saw nothing. Walang tao. Pumasok si Aera at agad na ch-in-eck ang CR but she ended up opening the walk in closet and saw nothing. Shit! Naamoy ko pa ang dugo pero hindi talaga nagmula dito.
"Wait! The smell's getting stronger." Huminga ako at tama siya. Lumalakas ang amoy ng dugo, that is when we hurried opening the room's door and shocked from what we saw.
"A-aerille." Nanghihina ako. I felt Aera little hand tapping my back. Parang ulan na bigla nalang bumuhos ang mga luha ko. Walang buhay, sira sira ang damit, naliligo sa sariling dugo, may malaking hiwa sa leeg.
"N-no, this can't be. T-this c-can't be."
"I'm sorry, i failed to protect her." I cried, hugging my daughter. Hindi naniniwalang wala na siya.
"W-we can still save her, Aera. Call the ambulance, faster." Umiling siya. No, no! We can still save her, right? Pwede pa siyang mabuhay. Pwede pang mabuhay ang anak ko. No, please.
"No, we still can-"
"She's dead. Even if we call the Ambulance they can't save her. She died not because of blood lose but because of the-"
"N-no." Still not accepting that my daughter is dead. Hindi ko matanggap. Buhay pa siya, kanina lang nag usap pa kami. She-she was e-excited earlier. No, please.
"I'm sorry."
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Umuwi kami ng pilipinas dala dala si Aerille, she's just asleep. Whenever i think that she's just asleep kumakalma ako.
"You are insane!" Sigaw ni Aera saakin ng makitang pinapaliguan ko si Aerille para sa paghahanda namin pabalik ng pilipinas.
Ngumiti ako sakaniya at tinuloy ang pagsasabon sa anak ko.
"Huwag kang maingay, natutulog-"
"Hindi siya tulog! Patay na siya! Patay na ang anak mo! Why can't you see that?!"
"Hi-hindi." Paulit ulit kung sinabing hindi at paulit ulit kung pinapaniwala ang sarili ko na hindi patay ang anak ko pero 'yong mga taong nakapaligid saakin, paulit ulit ding pinapaalala saakin na patay na ang anak ko. Ilang araw akong umiyak, ilang araw akong walang kain, puro tubig at halos gusto ko na ding mamatay.
"Hi people!" One day, Isang video nalang bigla ang lumitaw sa TV. Nakangiti ako at maayos na ang lagay ko. Bakit? Dahil buhay pa ang anak ko. Katabi ko nga siya palagi eh, lagi ko pa siyang kinakausap at naglalaro pa siya sa kwarto ko. But all of this is all my hallucinations.
"Its my first time having a, what other people call this? A vlog? Anyways, i can understand filipino but I don't speak filipino. Lol, right? Actually, i think this is not a vlog, though." Then she laughed. Nakakatuwang makita siyang masaya. Kumakalma ako.
"Okay, time check, 1:03 in the afternoon here in Indooooo!" She giggled. But then, her face became serious.
"Actually, I don't want to bother my Mom, so, I'll just tell you guys why I am having this kind of a vlog. Something happend and after that insident happend, I always feel that someone is watching me, someone's been watching me. Right now, I feel more nervous than the previous days. I feel like there's something that will happen to me and it's actually weird if I tell you guys that right now i kind a smell a strong scent. And there's a voice on my head telling me that the scent means Danger and..... Death-" Nakita kong bumukas ang pinto kaya natigilan siya't nilingon muna ang pinto bago humarap ulit. "My Mom." She whispered and then the video stopped. Kalmado siya ng sabihin ang salitang 'my mom'. Ibinalik ko nadin ang tingin sa TV. One o'clock and Three Minutes. The last time i checked my watch that time na sinabi kong 4:30 ang alis namin ay one o'clock and nineteen minutes na that only means hindi ako ang taong pumasok sa kwarto. May posibilidad ba na kamukha ko ang pumasok?
Pumasok na naman sa utak ko. My Daughter is Dead, i am just probably hallucinating that she is with me right now, happy and playing. I am hurt, may posibilidad din bang naghahallucinate lang ako ngayon? Na nakita ko ang video? Umiling ako't humiga na sa kama. It's been two months and now, i decided to go to the hospital and be check by a doctor para hindi na ako mag hallucinate at gusto ko nang maghiganti sa taong pumatay sa anak ko.
Now, I'm excited. Excited to kill mercilessly. Wait for my revenge killer.
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Napapansin ko ang pag iba iba nang names ng mga anak ni Valentina. So I've decided to put this:
AERILLE IZABEL AXIS
NICOLLIN SHAN AXIS / COLLISTER AXIS / COLLIN/COLIN