I was overwhelmed with guilt for giving in to Randy. I must confess my mistake. All my good teachings were thrown out on a platter of a stupid date. On seeing Isaac, all the charm that held me bound loosed at a go. Hmm, Isaac Newton. His thoughts are killing me. I wanted him badly, so much that I had to send for Lilian.
"Hey, girl, what's eating you up? I was busy taking my nap when your phone won't let me be. Aren't you silly?" Lillian kidded.
"Can't you be serious for once!" I chided.
"Let them out. Your face is scary." She muttered as she yawned.
"I'm so sorry but I have shot myself by going out with Randy. I discovered my heart is for Isaac. You know the most painful experience, Isaac released me for his friend. He doesn't love me again." I cried out.
Lilian doubled with laughter. Can you please stop this madness?" I yelled.
"I thought you said it was over between you and Isaac?".
" He cheated on me. He committed fornication."
"Hey girl, let's not mix things up. He never cheated on you. You were never his. He only committed fornication, but you have not given him a chance to explain himself about Sophia."
"So what should I do now?"
"The whole thing is going messy. Randy is hooking you and only God will deliver you."
"You have not solved my problem?"
"I can not, you are the one that will go back to Isaac to give him a chance to explain himself. Then you will decide what you want."
I jumped on my friend's neck and shouted!
"Now you've given me the direction of what to do."
"Hmm, why not see the pastor or his wife for better counsel!"
"Yeah, that sounds more like It. I goofed. I must pay the prize." I uttered.
I must admit that my ego was beaten. How do I go to Isaac to ask for his explanation? Will he answer me? I'm sure he hates me now. He does not care for me again. I had to go to God in prayer.
I remembered one of my favorite songs. "Hear my cry O Lord!
Attend unto my prayer.
From the depth of my heart will I cry to you, when my heart is overwhelmed, lead me to the rock that is higher than I."
I went to the mid-week service and the topic of the pastor's message was directed to me.
"Retrace Your Steps."
I wept a lot and felt sad. I made a wrong move, I concluded and I needed to retrace my steps. I have to see Randy and talk to him. It was clear that I led him on. I should have been firm and stood my ground.
I called Isaac but he refused to pick up my call. I gave him several missed calls but to no avail. Well, I concluded that he had moved on. I also made up my mind to move on.
Randy came in to see me in the company of two of his friends and it became difficult to talk to him about my decision.
As soon as he left, I made a call to him.
"My baby, is this how you miss me? But I just left you? I'm sorry we have to meet over the weekend. I will be out of town." He replied.
I became weak. This is not going to be easy as I thought. It's not advisable to make mistakes. It's costly. I regretted my actions and I became more determined to right my wrongs.
I was strolling two days after on a cool evening when I saw Isaac walking towards me. My heart was beating rapidly. Did he see me? Was he coming my way? So many whys as he continued until he stopped my way.
"I am coming from your apartment, Derin." He mumbled.
"Oh, hope there is no problem?" I replied holding my breath. After all, he does not care anymore.
"But you've been giving me missed calls and I felt I should respond to you and find out why you kept on calling me." He whispered.
"Can you please listen to yourself? I would not blame you though. I have moved on Isaac." I found myself saying.
"Was that why you were calling me?"
He yelled at me. His brow furrowed.
"When I called severally you chose to ignore my calls. So why did you think that I should not ignore you now?" I yelled.
"I see, do you want me to give you a pat on the back for jumping from one bed to another?" He growled.
"It is not what you think, Isaac. We need to talk. Can you please give me a chance?" I pleaded.
"The chance you never gave me?"
"But I want to hear your side of the story now!"
"And you think it's not too late?"
"Nope, it's not."
"But you've committed yourself to Randy and he is my best friend."
"No, please…" I uttered but tears would not allow me to explain.
Isaac saw my tears and he quickly brought out his handkerchief to wipe my tears. He held me in his warm embrace and I was glad. I rested my head on his broad chest.
Then the voice growled,
"No Isaac, Derin is mi- n-eee! "
We both disengaged to see him walking towards us in great fury. I knew that I was in trouble and had dragged Isaac into this.
"Randy, can you please calm down and let me explain the things you never know about me?" I cried out.
"No Isaac, you betrayed me. You knew that I was out of town and you decided to snatch my woman, how low can you go?" Randy roared at him.
"Why can't you allow me to talk, Randy? It's my fault, not his." I tried to reason with him. But he ignored me outright.