ASHANNAH'S POV
PAGKATAPOS kong kumain ay umakyat na ako at pumasok sa silid ko. Kinuha ko ang laptop ko at binuksan ang social media account ko. I opened my Facebook account first then I click the messages
I saw Fayrea's message asking if I'm okay so I replied 'yes' then Avia's message asking if who I am with in this house so I replied 'my brother'. Since Fayrea is already offline, Avia is the one who replied my message
Avia: so your dear brother cut his class to babysit you while you're on your period?
I rolled my eyes after I read Avia's reply
"What's new? He's always like that ever since so what's the matter?" I replied
She replied 'okay. If that's so then I will leave this soc-med. Bye bye My dear! Enjoy your time with your so-called-brother' then she put a sarcastic emoji. Inis akong nag log out at tumihaya sa kama. Bakit ba binibigyan nila ng malisya ang lahat sa pagitan namin ni Ythaniel? Kahit yung mga katulong dito sa bahay sinasabing bagay kaming bilang babae at lalaki at hindi bilang magkapatid. Sa mga studyante naman sa school sinasabihan akong baka boyfriend ko na daw si Ythaniel dahil napaka sweet daw namin palagi. What's wrong with those people?
Tumayo ako nang may kumatok sa pintuan. Nakasimangot ko itong binuksan
"What's with that face?" Kunot noong tanong ni Ythaniel sa akin kaya mas sumimangot pa ako
"Someone's b*lly*ng you again in social media?" He asked again. Alam kasi nyang maraming umaaway sa akin sa social media dahil sa kanya. Paanong 'di ako aawayin eh kasama ko palagi yung ultimate crush nila, the campus heartthrob, Ythaniel delos Reyes! Tsk!
"No. It's not someone. It's Avia" I said while pouting
"Oh? What did she told you again this time?" He ask. Alam nya kasing tinutukso ako ni Avia at Fayrea sa kanya
"That I should enjoy my time with you" I honestly said. I can't see his face because I'm looking at the floor
"Hmm? Is that so? Can I come inside?" He said. I nodded my head. Wala namang malisya sa akin yun kasi palagi naman kaming magkasama sa isang kwarto except if we are sleeping. That's not appropriate
Tumabi ako at niluwagan ang pagkakabukas ng pinto ng silid ko para makapasok sya
"Come her and drink your milk" lumapit naman ako sa kanya at kinuha ang tinimpla ng gatas sa kamay nya bago umupo sa sofa bed malapit sa kama ko
"Hindi na ba sumasakit ang puson mo?" He asked again
"Hindi na. Ayos na ang pakiramdam ko. Salamat sa gatas" ngumiti ako sa kanya. Tiningnan nya ako ng maigi kaya tiningnan ko rin sya
"Anong problema mo brother?" I asked him
"Nothing." Maikling sagot nya at iniling ang ulo saka tumayo galing sa pagkaka upo sa isang sofa
"Matulog kana. May klase pa bukas. Uuwi daw si Mom at Dad bukas" ang sabi nya at binuksan ang pinto
"Good night Brother" saad ko. Lumingon sya sa akin at ngumiti
"Good night Little Sissy" sagot nya at tuluyan ng lumabas ng silid ko
Ininom ko na ang gatas ko at tumihaya sa kama pagkatapos
Paano nga ba naging magkapatid ang isang Ashannah Zacharias at ang isang Ythaniel delos Reyes? Well, my mom and his Dad got married 10 years ago so that means I and Ythaniel become step siblings ten years ago. My Mom and my real Dad annulled their marriage when I was 9 years old because Dad had an affair with his Best friend. I was so down that time. I don't want to have a broken family but seeing my mother crying every night because of my father, broke my heart. Kung paanong ayaw kong mag karoon ng isang pamilyang hindi buo ay ganun din ang kagustuhan kong maging masaya si Mommy so I respect her decision. I come with her and I left my Dad with hatred in my heart. After one year with my mom she finally introduce me with her new love and that was Daddy Xyril, Ythaniel's father. I don't like him that time but he show me how he loves my mother so I accepted him and after a month they got married. The day of their wedding, Daddy Xyril introduce me his son, Ythaniel. Ythaniel is two years ahead of me. He's so serious that time. I was so scared of him back then but when I was left with him at that day he prove me wrong. He's maybe cold outside but he's a good man inside. From that day, he always protect me when I am in trouble and we become close until I addresses him 'Brother' and he addresses me 'little Sissy'. His Mom died after giving birth of him so it makes Daddy Xyril a single Dad. They are so good to me so I gave back the love that they gave to me. I am happy with my family right now and I don't want to ruin it because of some issues
Alam kung hindi pwede pero inaamin ko. I like my brother not because he's my brother but because he is a man that I am dreaming to be with. I like him as a man and not as my brother. It is so hard for me to hide my feeling for him if he's near at me but I'm doing my best to hide it, for the best. And I hope that I am doing well. Imagine how hard for me to contain my feelings when he's doing some things that can make my heart beats faster than normal.
I hope that this feelings I have for him right now will fade away soon because I don't know if I can take it anymore. I am hiding it since 7 years ago and I am afraid to accept the fact that it is going deeper and deeper as the time flies by. I know that we don't have the same feelings for each other. He sees me as his little sister. No more, no less. While I am here, having a romantic feelings for him. How I wish that he didn't become my brother so I can express my feelings towards him freely. I envy those girls out there who had a freedom to shout how they love, like and admire my brother, while me? I can touch him, hold him, bond with him but I can't express my feelings for him. And that's the most painful part for me.
Maybe it is the sign that I need to set aside this forbidden feelings. Maybe I need to forget what I feel for him. Maybe I need to give my attention to another man out there. Maybe.... Just maybe..... This feelings will fade away this time. And I hope that I made a right decision. I hope that I would be happy for my decision
Naramdaman ko ang pagbagsak ng mga luha ko kaya agad ko itong pinunasan. Tumayo ako mula sa pagkakahilata sa kama at binitbit ang basong nilagyan nya ng gatas kanina bago ako lumabas sa silid ko naglakad pababa. Nauuhaw ako kaya kailangan kong uminom ng tubig
Dahan-dahan akong bumaba ng hagdanan dahil madilim na ang buong mansion. Tulog na ata ang lahat ng tao dito at ako nalang ang gising. I was walking slowly to the kitchen when I bumped to someone. A masculine arm wrap on my waist then someone pull me close to him. I can smell his manly scent and right there, again, I can feel my heart beats faster than normal
"B-Brother?" I asked
"Asheng? Where are you going?" He let go of me then he turn on the light switch in the whole living room. Yes, we are at the living room because the doorway to the kitchen can be found at the right side of the living room
"I was about to go to the kitchen. Nauuhaw kasi ako" saad ko sa kanya. Tumingin sya sa akin at kinuha ang basong hawak ko bago ako hinawakan sa pulsuhan at hinila papasok sa kusina. Pinaupo nya ako sa isang stool at lumapit sa ref saka ito binuksan at nagsalin ng tubig sa bagong baso na kinuha nya sa cup board
"Akala ko ba tulog kana?" Biglang tanong nya na bahagyang nakatingin sa akin habang binabalik at pitsel sa loob ng ref
"I was imagining some things when suddenly I felt thirsty so I decided to go here to drink some water" sagot ko habang pinaglalaruan ang mga daliri ko sa kamay. Lumapit sya sa akin at inabot ang basong may tubig. Tinanggap ko ito at ininom
"May switch ng ilaw sa tabi ng hagdanan. You should turn on the light before you walk around the house. Paano kung hindi kita nasalo kanina? Ede nadapa kana?" Panenermon nya. Imbis na mainis ay kinilig pa ako. See? Sino ang hindi mahuhulog sa kanya kapag ganyan ang ugali nya? Matamis ko syang nginitian
"Thank you for that, Brother. You don't need to scold me" sagot ko nalang sa kanya
"Still a br*t" he said then he get the glass away from me and put it on the sink
"Let's go. You need to take a rest" hinila nya ulit ako at hinatid sa silid ko
"Go inside and rest" utos nya kaya binuksan ko ang pintuan ng silid ko bago sya hinarap
"Good night again, Bro" saad ko at sinara ang pinto bago naglakad palapit sa kama ko at binagsak ang katawan ko dito. I need to take a rest. May klase pa ako bukas