Chapter 1
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DECEMBER 23, 2015. 2 DAYS BEFORE CHRISTMAS, i met, Christian.
I fell at him easily, because he was my knight and shinning armor.
He even accompanied me to the house.
He cares for me, he loves me.
But sometimes he's so busy and i do understand his excuses, because he was also studying.
We even talked about our future, our plans and everything is arrange in the right position. We just actually planning to get married.
I felt so excited to be married,
i even decided the name of our childrens. Some of them are our name combination, and some are not.
I am so contented to be with him.
He's my world,my sky and my galaxy.
We almost spend 4 years in travelling all over the country,
Attending some party. Even he's not a party person.
Love can fool us
Destiny will trick on us
Yung akala mo, ayun na.
Yung akala mo sya na talaga.
Tapos akala mo lang pala.
It hurts imagine things that can possibly happened and later on in just a snap, everything becomes impossible.
Impossible to have and to reach.
I was buying some goods and things to use for my surprise, when i saw him in the counter with the girl I'm familiar.
I know that's him :-\
Maybe he was just with his friend, a girl one. Phew~ that thoughts are killing me.
I continue choosing some goods when i saw my old friend.
Aira a flirt friend...she look similar to the girl who's with Christian. Geez, that's impossible.
Christian hated Aira, and so Aira too. So it was impossible that they would be together.
She said something but i didn't listen. It was useless to listen to her awful words.
Until she dissapear like christian.
Coincidence, i guess.
I have some feeling that christian don't have much time for me like he used to be, he said he's busy and he still find some available time to spend that with me.
We will have a date!
I believe on everything he would say. I trust home so much, Howie wish  he do too.
It feels like, you're in the hole with full of mystery...like you're too captivated on him.
I was so inlove with him, that i can do everything he want, to make him happy...
Im so inlove that i forgot to see the surroundings...
He must made some spell to me, to be like this.
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Dec 24, 2019, I was about to surprise him to our 4th anniversary, but i was the one who got surprised.
I cried.
Pero hindi tears of joy.
'Tears of pain'.
I didn't give him a hug, I give him...
'Manlolokong sampal' with matching kick sa egg to crack.
I give everything to him, my trust, my soul and all of me. I don't have everything left with m—i still have pa pala my physical body, who almost owned by him.
Nanggigigil buong kalamnan ko sakanya!
Pero dapat mukang chill lang and act cool, but I can't help to get mad. He made me the person I don't wanted.
Pero naiinis talaga ako kaya bahal na magkamatayan, ipaglalaban ko yung karapatan ko.
I thought, we gonna meet to our favorite restaurant, to celebrate our anniversary. But I was wrong, and always be wrong.
He said. "Let's break up." As if, he was just saying normal words. It's hurt seing him acted cool.
He told me not to worry about,but he always make me worry.
Three words.
I felt pain.
My head isn't functioning that well. Maybe I should go to the therapist to fix my uncontrollable mind.
Late ko ng narealize na break na kame nung nasa pinto na ako ng bahay.
I fall on the floor, not even felt pain in my but.
I keep on thingking on how could I start my new life without him, because I'm so use to be with him all the time.
Why me?
who's better than me?
Is she can dance while cooking?
Is she can make him laugh?
I heard footsteps, that's why i started to act like normal, like nothing happened.
We secretly in-relationship, that's why i can't tell to my family, what was happening to me or what I gotten in my heart right now.
My mom call me for a dinner,the sinigang soup are really suitable for this rainy season.
Muntik na akong madulas sa hagdan dahil sa katangan at sa kahibangan. Phew~
My mom even ask, kung yung isip ko nakarating na sa mars.
I just chuckled and continue savouring all the sinigang soup.
We continue eating but i felt like someone is glaring at me, i look at it and found my mom's eyes looking at me mysteriously, she do look like glaring but she was just looking.
My mom looking at me, like she's reading my head and it scares me alot.
She looks scared when she acted like this, i mean...did ever someone heard a news about 'Maria Labor' the one who eated her child's and prepare it for dinner? Well I will tell you...
•This must be credit to the right full owner•
Maria Labo is a 2015 Philippine thriller film directed by Roi Vinzon. It is based on a Philippine urban legend about an Overseas Filipino worker believed to be an aswang known as "Maria Labo" who is said to have eaten her own children.
See kinain nya talaga, pero may buod talaga yung kwento.
'A meek domestic worker (Kate Brios) in the Philippines falls under the spell of a demon and looks to her family to satisfy a newfound hunger for human flesh.'
Even curious what is aswang?
According to Philippine folklore, an aswang is an evil, shapeshifting creature that shares the grotesque characteristics of werewolves, vampires and ghouls. It has no consistent image or description because its appearance varies per region.
Move on with that, I realize that Christian can be similar to 'Aswang'. Just like aswang he was evil.
My young sister confess to me, she said. "I didn't do on purpose to touch your phone,ate." She look at me with a scared look in her eyes.
I forgot my phone pala bobo ko.
i placed a smile on my face, to show her it's alright.
She smile at me also and i felt a little heavy feeling just vanished.
Now they knew, my mom didn't say anything.
She really make me creeps.
Im so ready to hear her words. >_<
But nothing came. 0_0
Unless....
She hugged me, like i was the most precious thing that she have.
My tears beggan to fall, I hate crying i hate showing my weakness.
They might use it against me!
I run towards my room, and even slipped on the stairs. I heard their gasped, but i don't mind.
I call christian 3 rings before he answer...
A long silent, before i talk manage to make my self calm.
I crily so hard, but i didn't make any sound.
I even use liza soberano line like.
"Pangit ba ko! Kapalit-palit ba ko!?"
A long silent again, no one even talk after my histerical drama.
I regret doing that. I swear.
Before i heard him crying, I heard what he said."You foolish women." That's the unforgivable.
He even told me that it was accident, he was too drunk that night DAW, that he didn't see her as his ex.
I don't know but I all said to him is, "Sana all bulag pag lasing."
I even don't know that they do have things in the past. How come Christian hide that thing to me?!
That reason is keep on ringging on my ear.
My eyes becomes blurred, that i didn't realized, i was keep on stubbing a photo of him in our last photo we take before break up.
Before i ended my call, i just told him my 3 words... "FareWell My Love."
I know he would say something, but i ended it. Too useless to listen to it.
He told me his ex girlfriend is pregnant, he is the father.
1 year old na yung bata, how foolish I am to not notice that.
Whenever he buys fruits more than I did, and telling me na it's for beggars near by.
I just realized that beggars are far from here.
I cried again, this time i make sound.
A freaking sound, that you can tell someone is dying inside, Someone is in serious pain.
1 hell years!!!
He cheated on me.
Not just cheated, He even make me look like fool.
His ex is, old friend of mine.
and that's aira.
The person na he told me, not to worry about.
If i knew that in first place i would just grabed her hair and stub it infront of him in that day in store,That flirt one!
She didn't just stole my love.
She stole my happiness
My half part of my body, that are now feel empty.
I tried to move on...
And i guess i succeed.
I'm here in the park, running so fast that i was about to lost breath.
"Patayin daw ang sarili proxi! Parang hindi nadala ah!" My soul telling me.
i saw them far from me, but not that farm
They're happy together.
Christian holding their baby and smiling like they don't hurt someone.
As if they do good deeds in their life.
I smile bitterly. Those bastards!
He saw me and his ex too, that his wife now.
I use to call Aira as a mistress, now I look like the bitter mistress. Foolish!
She kissed christian while looking at me, huh! As if I care.
I just rolled my eyes and continue doing my bussiness.
i don't have something to do with them. im done with my bussiness.
I don't want to ruin their happiness.
Even they ruin me all over.
But destiny will surely playing on me.
That should be me; By justine bieber" now playing.
"I felt goosebumps when the chorus started..."
"I saw how you look so happy."
"I saw how you look contented to them"
"How i wish i was your ex"
"Im starting to feed my heart in pain again..."
"I remember how happy of you when i gave you my gift."
This is so wrong
I can't go on
Till you believe That should be me.....♬♬♬♬♬
As the song ended, my memories with him did too. It was hard to moving forward, when memories of the past didn't let you go.
My tears began to slow down through my cheeks.
I wipe it and walk like everything is fine.
I buy some candy, to relieve my stress and to forget those memories.
Atleast i learn.
I learn to let go...
I learn to love with regrets.
I learn that trusting isn't for everyone.
I learn that love isn't just happiness, love is all about being in pain and being strong to face the reality.
It's a mistake, but it has a lesson.
I just continue studying, i'm to young to fall inlove that much.
I'm fool to be trick that easily.
I even transfer to another university, to forget things and to start a new beginning.
This gonna me my, chapter 1.
I can say, this school is much different than i used before.
This place is crowded. Rich people. (i don't belong here.) Sofisticated.
I just believe in my own thoughts. "Everyone has their own princess inside" and I don't why i have that thoughts.
Maybe i could be a princess too...
Before you enter in the school gate, the manong guard will ask you 3 question.
•Your name
•Your I.D
•Whos with you.
They're crazy for asking who's with you. Paano akong walang kasama?
I gave him my I.D.
i tell him my name, even obviously na malalaman agad yon in the first place. Naka imprint na name ko sa I.D, duh.
But a long silent happened, parang may dumaan biglang angel.
When a guy answer the question, that it was supposed to be mine.
He said "Im with her."
I felt awkward...
Etchosera ang peg.
Everyone is shock,as in lahat talaga bongga!
Ay panis na starstruck yata.
Does his too special to deserve that reaction from those people like that?
I just shruged.
I don't want attention.
I go to the 5th floor.
This is so fancy that you can use a freaking stairs not elevator.
How could a fancy school don't have elevator. duh..
A long journey to room...
One word for this school..
I can't read the school name. It was written in japanese. ~ 私は美しい ~
I hope this school will be enough for me.
On the 5th floor , you can find the long hallway.
You can easily find your room , by clicking some Mike icon and listen what would the voice said.
Finaly i found it...
Ohayo! Are you crysoberyl? , Then you belong here! Have a good day. bye! bye! ~
Umupo nalang ako, doon sa malapit sa bintana.
magandang tanawin, parang ako. Chossera...
Habang tumatagal ay padami ng padami sila.
They got my attention when a long gasped happened.
Their is a man that are standing infront of me.
I even raised my eyebrow. Not just im sadistic, but im confused.
He's petite but a good version, he seems sadistic yet attractive.
Siguro hindi pa gaano deep yung boses nya kasi senior highschool palang kami, what more pag college?!
"That's my seat."
I was so distracted to his eyelash,wow that was so long. Hiya eyelash ko,na parang tumubo lang ng di sinasadya.
I didn't heard his words clearly.
"Im bored. Get up."
I answered him. Without thingking
"I am too." what am i saying?
I heard a loud laugh, or let just say their laugh.
Now im doomed. ('.•﹏•')
i just get up and go to the back seat.
(づ_-) . "Now im making the attention."
The teacher arrived at exactly In time.
Glad they're teaching some sports.
She even introduce herself.
/Mrs.Anderson, Andria/
- 52 years old
-Sports Teacher
-Have 3 kids
-Teacher # Secretary
- Wife of the ceo of Anderson corporation
- Sweet
She looks Independent.
We take a long break,2 hours ang breaktime,I just go the cafeteria,I brought some energy drink and ofcourse the one and only fries.
I choose to seat near at the window,And a person who has a long lashes come to my sit.
i was about to stand up, when he grab my wrist.
"Stay" He said.
I felt like a dog. Should I bark?
"Are you new here? He asked aske, at it it was not obvious.
I just noded,to please him.
"Look im not going to eat you." He explain, while gesturing his hand like he's surrendering.
I am looking down on him. But after he said it, i look at him in his eyes. Those minty green eyes are tempting me to ask kung engkanto na sya.
Geez, I'm really out of my mind.
My heartbeat suddenly stop.
Not because of his looks, or his gestures.
Pero pwede den. HAROT MO BHIE.
But because of the surroundings, that now looking at us, with confused on their faces.
I don't want attention guys...
Im confused to.
"Look a-" He didn't finish his words, when someone tap his shoulder.
his friends i guess. Sana all nalang.
"Are you really our Zach or you're being posses by a demon?!" Said the guy, whos wearing a big glasses that are not enough to cover his goodlooking face.
"What!?" Said zach, while laughing.
Which made his friend gasped, like it was once in a lifetime to see him laughing.
"Kakaiba na to bro! patingin mo na sa albularyo 'to! Kinakabahan na ko" Madramang saad ng guy, whos wearing his smiley face everywere.
But before i finish fantizicing their faces, they introduce their selves.
"I'm Kharyl Gonzaga, nice meeting you" Said the guy, whos wearing a big glasses.
"I'm cleford Anderson" Said the guy, whos wearing his wide smile everywere.
Glad they don't flirt.
But before i answer, zach talk.
"Let's get outta here" Zach said.
Im staying here in my seat and let them go.
Now im alone. Glad.
i was about to scoup my rice and start to eat ,when they look at me with confused.
I answer their look with. –What- are-you-looking-at– look.
Zach came back and grab my wrist to stand up and followed him, while his friends are smiling like idiots.
I'm really confused right now.
Whenever we passed to our schoolmates, they just gonna gasped and murmur something.
But the only murmur that get my attention, when someone says , "This will gonna be exciting".
Im not just comfused right now. Im also scared.
Mukang di maganda pakiramdam ko dito ah!
We stop in this little house, I thought we are the only person here, their is one another.
They talked to the person and now i know their friends, Before they introduced that to me.
I felt pain again.
My chest felt pain...
Before i look at him, i felt the old agenda. Something that is not vague anymore.
And I'm not wrong...
I can't face him now...
My memories is giving me headache.
"Chr-r-r-ristian?." I sounds pathetic. I admit it.
"Magkakilala kayo? Edi mabuti hahaha" Said Cleo.
"Yeah she's my girlfriend" Christian said.
"EX-GIRLFRIEND" i empasized everywords to clear to him.
A short silence.
Their faces looks like this. (-.- )( -.-)(-.- )
i can't stay here.
I felt like im wasting my 3 months on moving on.
Those bastards...
I just nodded and got back to room.
I even cursing them in silent.
if they didn't get me their, i won't see him.
But a little thankful, because i saw his face again. I still like him.
"Marupok." My soul said.
When i saw zach, i was about to talk to him, when i saw his eyes is Scary. He looks mad and ready to punch you, if you disturb him.
He also have blood in his lips.
Scary again....
Napasabak ata to sa matinding gera juskoo.
I even saw how our school mates look at him, They look scared and scary.
Till the classes end, I found my dorm, I have some roommates. Natatakot ako.
Hindi ako masyadong friendly to day.
im in pain...
"Hi! are you our new roommates?" Said the short hair girl.
"Wow! You have some very long hair" Said the blond girl.
With matching touch pa sa hair ko.
As i can see, they are good.
I didn't even answer them.
i just continue walking and fantizicing the place,While them, continue telling me what to do here.
I smile.
"Ay! Kala namen hangin lang kausap namen" Said the short hair, girl habang tumatawa.
"Aray! Makahampas naman Klea eh!" She said again.
That must be really hurt. Based on the sounds.
"So by the way,highway,without entry pass, im klea Andrea Kyles. " Said the blond girl And offer her hand.
"Im stepichon. Charr..im Amethyst Audrey Clark" Said the short hair,girl.
"Im Proxi Leigh Gil" i said.
They noded.
We talked till we stop in the story, on based of our experience in our family.
I started.
-My dad cheated, His not really cheated like going to the other doors, He cheated for us. Our dad are broke that night when he was dringking a hard wine, that he doesnt remember anything he did.
even getting pregnant to our auntie if di na panagutan ang auntie namen my mommy lola and mommy lolo would be angry and dad feel upset and choose auntie over her loving wife and 2 beautiful daughter. I said.
"My mom died early than we expected. Im really broke that day that i even give my virginity to the random guy." Said klea
"Im abandoned by the asshole fake family." Said amethyst, with bitter sound.
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We talked about our kalapitbahay.
"I had some really crazy neighbor,she has a daughter.
His husband can't produced baby but his husband brother does.
I don't want to exposed her name, but she's really the queen of spreading fake rumors in our baranggay.
Her daughter is all over like her,I thought her daughter would treat me nice, i even treat her to everywhere and treating her like my sister but she betrayred me And finding out na she's finding butas saamen para ma siraan. gladly they failed.
But sadly, her daughter at 13 years old, are already watching some scandals and doing some stuffs that aren't allowed to do at her age." I said.
"That's was really rude of her! How can she be like that if someone treat her nice! She's so inbelievable" Said klea with dissapointed look.
"If i was in her position,that if i get a friend like you, i won't do anything to left you, your a good catch" Said Amethyst while clapping her hands,while explaining.
Till we fall asleep, because of tiredness and because it was past midnight already.
The principal said that no classes today.
Nagkakasiyahan lahat ng bulate ko sa utak.
We were talking to each other when we heard a 3 knock.
"Are you expecting some visitors?" Said Klea to amethyst.
Amethyst nod. "My boyfriend"
She hurry open the door.
We followed her, because she takes too long to go back at us.
And we saw her. Tulala.
I even surprise when i saw zach,cleo,kharly.
"Cleo my boyfriend lang inaasahan ko ah!" Amethyst said.
Klea nodded, but her brows looks confused and look at zach.
"Im visiting her" Said zach, while pointing his finger on me.
Im a little shock, but i didn't show.
baka trip nya today.
"Im just visiting my wife." Said kharyl, that really cause us to widened our eyes.
"Did you just said, you're visiting Clara!?" Klea said.
Magaling to magbago ng usapan ah. Clap.
"This could be!?!? Clara is amazing" Nababaliw na saad ni klea.
But sadly klea can't escape to amethyst.
"Klea... You have something to explain to us..." Amethyst said, while sounding like klea's in danger.
Klea still silent and made a peace sign.
time passed they said good bye.
So nagchikahan na kami ng keri lang...
"Clara! Do you know zach is really a person without feeling and soul? How could you get his attention?Said Klea.
"Maybe because i seet on his chair" i said, without being sure, if im right.
"or maybe because i was opposite in his sit, you know? I don't also..." i said.
Till klea told us her too long story.
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PROXI LEIGH GIL P.O.V
Ameythst went to her date, while klea went to the music room.
I don't know that their is music room exist here.
I Use to be alone when my dad left us, Dark is my comfort zone.
i even call my self. "Unexisted soul"
i walk out to the room and go the library near at our room.
I started reading some creepy stories so i won't feel alone.
But i regret it now...
I heard some noises, sounds like someone walking. But i know before i enter in library, i am alone here.
I felt goosebumps!!!
my head is telling me to run, while my heart is telling me to collapse.
The noise sounds like it's going near me.
And.....
"Ahhhh!!!!". Wala na kong pake kung magmuka akong tanga o king sinuman makarinig saken.
Sinunod ko na ung utak ko, tumakbo na ko.
Lahat na yata ng santo natawag ko, kahit yata mga late teacher na tawag ko na.
may matawag lang.
1...
2...
3..
Pahinga...
1...
2...
3...
Inhale...
Ayan nanaman yung tunog!
Ayokong lumingon jusko!!!...
Exhale...
1...
2... -
Takbo ulit...
Mapapaaga yata yung buhay ko dito.
Salamat nalang sa lahat guys godbless.
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Nakarating na yata ako sa dulo ng hallway ng di ko inaasahan...
Muntik na mong atakihin sa puso ng may bumagsa ng kung ano.
ԅ( ¯ิ∀ ¯ิԅ) - Help!!
Saktong pagtalikod ko may nakita akong isang schoolmates kong nakangangang nakatingin saken, kaya umakto ako ng walang nangyari sabay nginitian sya.
('-ι_-｀)...... Can somebody eat me now!!!?.
Safe na kong nakarating sa dorm namen ng walang anong bagay na naririnig. ≖‿≖
Before i enter, i look in both side, just to see if no ones mysterious.