Even how good is the reason why people are hiding secrets, the truth will always be revealed. The worst is, this can make a person suffer more than what they’ve expected.
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“Hey, Leana. Baby, what’s happening?” I asked her multiple times but I didn’t get any response.
She passed out a while ago while I’m askng if I can court her. My hands are trembling and I do not know what to do. I just saw myself carrying her and I don’t know if it’s just an adrenaline rush but unexpectedly, I ran going to the hospital. This scene feels like a Dejavou. I remembered the first time we met, I am seven years old that time when we visited my grandmother’s hospital and they let me go out for a walk.
I can’t still forget the moment that I laid my eyes on her. It feels magical. And when I ran towards her direction, I nearly got hit by a movng car.
That moment I already knew that she’ll take a big part of me, she saved me and made herself as a barrier with her bike. I already admire her for being brave.
Now I realized that feeling when I’m running while she’s on my arms peacefully sleeping. The feeling are still the same, happiness of meeting such a brave girl and nervousness because of an uncertain possibilities.
I hurriedly bring her to her room. Yes, I know where’s her room. Because when we’re still kids, I often enter her room while she’s sleeping and creepy as it may seem, I always leave a note telling that she must stay strong because we still have to marry each other someday.
I don’t know if she’s getting those messages from mine but t didn’t bother me, I never put my name on it either.
When the nurses came in, my sight went blurry.
No, not this time please.
Before the head nurse known as Ma’am Nanny asked me what the hell happened, everything went black.
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It feels like I just woke up from a long sleep and I still feel the dizziness in my head.
“Glad you’re awake.” I saw my mom sitting in the couch of my personal hospital room. My room is beside Leana’s, She don’t know that I’m also here at the Rainheart paradise.
I saw how my mother looked at me angrily. Why is she mad? I didn’t do anything wrong.
“Ano nanaman ang mga pinag gagagawa mo at napagod ka nanaman ng ganito? Alam mo namang prone ka sa sakit kapag nagpapagod hindi ba?” I can still sense that she’s worried so I calmed myself and smiled at my mother instead.
“Mom, I didn’t do anything wrong. Mang Mario helped me to do the tree house so it wasn’t me who gets tired. You don’t need to worry that much.” I explained.
“You like her that much?” I don’t know what to answer, the only thing that I really know is that she’s the only girl that made my heart race and make me feel different emotions in just a snap. She always made me happy and the way I looked at her makes me feel at peace.
“Yes mom, I love her.” That words suddeny came out from my mouth and it gives butterflies in my stomach. I still can’t believe that I said those lines in front of my mother. I never knew I could finally admit my feelings towards her and it made me feel like im in the river of happiness.
“But can’t you see? She’s dying! Mas lamang ang ibinibigay niya sayong sakit! Hindi ka na ba nagsawa?” Isaw how mad she is while looking directly to her eyes. Why does she have to tell me this? Do she even know everything?
“Mom, I love her and I’ll always be at her side no matter what.” I seriously said. I may look unrespectful but it’s what my mind tell me to say. I’m just stating the truth and what I really feel.
“Tinuveil,” She can’t reply to what I’ve said. I know that she’s surprised because at my early age, I already know how to value someone.
I just prove to myself that this isn’t infatuation anymore, this is seriously what they call love.
“Wala na ba talaga akong magagawa? Kebata bata mo pa, nagmamahal ka na.” My mom stated while smiling widely and so I do.
I’m happy. More than happy.
“Isn’t it good, mom? I already found the girl whom I’ll love the most.” Everything that sorounds me feels like floating in too much happiness. I’m really in-love.
“My son is not a baby boy anymore. Your father must be so proud of you. You’ve really grown up such a good man.” She proudly said before hugging me tight.
“Thanks mom. By the way, is she fine?” she just raised her shoulders so I immedietly got up and kissed my mothers cheecks before hurriedly walk outside the room.
But then I felt strange, I became worried seeing Leana’s bestfriend and her mother sitting outside, crying.
Before I could ask them, the doctor came out of her room with no emotion written on his face.
I fought the urge not to punch this doctor, why can’t he just spill the beans than to hide around the bush? It’s irritating the hell out of me!
I’m already holding the door knob when suddenly Leana’s bestfriend stopped me. I then looked at her confused then I realized,why would I come in even if her bestfriend from her childhood can’t?
Can’t they just accept as part of the family? I’ll be marrying Leana, soon though.
I laughed at the thought in my mind. Up until now, I’m still imagining how beautiful Leana is, while wearing her long white gown and her belo while walking in the aisle. Towards my direction, of course!
I wonder what it feels like waking up with her, making our own family and raising our children well. I’m excited as hell! But for now, I want her to achieve her goals first then I’ll finally ask for her hand and give her everything that she wants. I’ll spoil her with my love and make her the happiest woman alive!
“Bat nakangiti ka dyan? Parang ang saya mo ata?” I came back to my senses when Leana’s bestfriend speak beside me.
“Don’t mind me.” I just simply said and I saw her nodded in agreement. I saw her grin too before we saw the doctor came out again but this time he let us in.
I waited for Leana’s bestfriend to enter first but she didn’t even bother to sneak inside.
“Ikaw na lang ang pumasok. Ayokong makita ang bestfriend ko na nahihirapan, pakiusap lang.” she said before covering her eyes and bowed then she cried, almost shouting. I admre them both from being bestfriends, strong as a diamond that nobody can broke them apart.
“She’ll be fine.” I said before opening the door and leaving her outside. Even I want to comfort her, I still want to see my baby, so badly.
After opening the door, Leana’s mother surprisingly hugged me tight. I don’t know but I feel like hugging her back. She’s crying.
I don’t know what to do to stop her from crying or even talk. I became silent until she slowly calmed and separate from our hug before holding my hand and looking at me intently.
My mind stops from working and it feels like my world stops from moving too when she said those words that made my heart beat stops. I feel like any moment now, I’ll burst into tears. How could this world be so cruel?
I’m speechless after my mind finally processed what her mother just said.
“H-hindi naman siya tuluyang gumaling, gusto lang daw na iparamdam sakanya ang normal na buhay, Ijo may taning na siya. Hindi na magtatagal ang anak ko.”
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