Prologue:
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SABI nila pag mahal mo, PAKAWALAN mo para lumigaya siya sa iba.
Pero hindi  ba nila naisip na ang totoong mahal kahit gaano kasakit,
Kahit gaano kahirap,
Kahit anong mangyari,
Kahit gaano katagal,
Dapat ipaglaban mo pa rin?
YON ANG MAHAL.
Pero sa sitwasyon ko. Ako yong nang iwan sa aming dalawa.
Hindi ko siya pinaglaban.
Ipinagkait ko sa kanya ang karapatan na meron siya.
I was so happy that time when I went to a doctor and asked what happened to my body, and then I found out that I was bearing his child.
Sa sobrang tuwa ko nang malaman na buntis ako ay agad akong pumunta sa kanyang condo. He didn't know I came back as early as possible because of my mission.
I want to surprise him that there was an angel sent from above to be with us.
But when I reached his pad, I saw his clothes scatter all over the living room.
"Kahit kailan balahura talaga ang lalaking 'yon!"
Isa-isa kong inimis ang nagkalat na damit niya patungo sa kanyang kwarto. Nakangiti kong binuksan ang pinto pero agad ring nabura nang makita ang pigura ng dalawang taong nakahiga sa kama.
I clench my fist as I drop his clothes to my feet; tangina bakit ang sakit?
Hindi na ako gumawa pa nang ingay at basta na lang akong umalis sa bahay niya. My heart tightened because of what I saw earlier. I never thought that he could do this to me.
Ako kasi 'yong tipo nang tao na advance mag-isip. I mean I always think outside the box for the possible worst scenario. Bago pa man sila magising ako na ang unang lumayo. Hanggang sa paglabas ko sa kanyang condo at makasakay ako sa elevator, tulala lang ako at hindi maiproseso nang aking utak ang nasaksihan ko.
Gusto ko siyang sumbatan, awayin, ingudngod sa pader ang mukha nang babaeng may lakas ng loob para gawin sa akin 'to pero hindi ko ginawa. All I can think about is my baby.
After I disappeared from his life, a year after; I heard that he is a part of a band superstar.
His face is all over the internet, TV broadcasts, billboards, and everything. They are one of the Filipino bands whose famous all over the world, not because of their looks, and being one of the youngest successful business person in the world, but because of their talent.
Tahimik akong sumubaybay sa bawat achievements nila as a band. I also buy their albums na puro lang naman rock music, bibihira sa kanila ang Ballad songs kasi nga hindi bagay kay Dezrail na siyang vocalist nila.
Sa achievements na naabot nila masasabi kong I'm so proud of them. Sa likod nang anino nila, nandoon ako - tahimik na sumusuporta.
I know I looked pathetic because I left him for no reason, no explanation - no words at all!
Senri Daeyl Kuruzaki, one of the members of a famous Filipino band named Blackhand, idolized and fantasized by every woman - is my ex-husband.
A few people around us know what happened between us.
Maitatama ko pa ba kaya lahat ng mali ko? Makakahanap pa kaya ako nang lakas ng loob para sabihin kay Senri lahat?
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I slammed the door as I opened it before I entered our recording studio. I hurriedly sat down in the vacant chair beside Dezrail who was playing his guitar.
"Problem?" He asked.
"I know his problem Dezrail. That woman again right?" Kaizen grinned at me. I ignored his teasing.
"Bakit kasi kinama mo? Ayan tuloy nawala ang asawa mo sa'yo," Jaspersaid.
I looked at him with a poker face.
"There's nothing happened between us, I was surprised when I saw that woman beside me. I was too drunk and think that the woman beside me is my wife." I lean my chin from my knuckles as I get away my eyes from them.
Sinji is everything. I don't know why this happened to us. Wala akong maalala na kasalanan sa kanya bukod sa magising ako na ibang tao ang katabi ko.
"Mahirap 'yan lalo na at may asawa kang tao. Paano kung nakita siya nang asawa mo?"
"Her brother told me that she's in France right now but when I woke up my house front door was open. I don't know what happened between me and that woman."
Ayokong sirain ang pangalan na matagal ko nang iniingatan but regarding Sinji, I forgot everything.
She's my WORLD...
She's my EVERYTHING...
We decided to go on a trip out of boredom. Sa dami-dami nang pwede naming puntahan ay ang mall pa ni Dezrail.
I was occupied by Sinji's disappearance and I didn't notice that I bumped into something - no, it's someone.
I looked down at my feet, then I saw two kids falling on the ground. They look like twins - a boy and a girl.
"Tss. Look where you are going, Mister." The little man hissed at me like he's the one who's irritated because they fell from the ground. Lutang lang talaga ako kaya hindi ko sila napansin.
"Gomenasai." I unconsciously said it in the Japanese language. The two children who were now standing and holding hands, looked at me in confusion. "I mean I'm sorry, I didn't mean to bump into you."
"If you wander around spacing out, just go home already." This kid is so amusing.
He talks like a grown-up man.
"Kuya maybe Tita Mommy is looking for us." I wanted to ask something, but they had already walked away from me. Humalo na sila sa dami nang tao dito sa loob ng mall.
I feel like I saw them somewhere, and I think they resemblance to a person I know.
"Hey Senri, quit spacing out. Iiwan ka namin." Tahimik na sumunod ako sa tropa, laman ang mukha ng dalawang bata ang isip ko.
I want to have a happy family with the person I love the most. But it's impossible for me now. She's so happy without me, and it broke my heart.
I hope someday, I can have a child just like the two who I bumped into earlier... I wish it would happen.
I have everything...FAME...MONEY...LOOKS... but not the woman I love...
It's like a missing piece of my body. I can't complete it.
Like a MISSING MELODY in my world full of sadness and emptiness...