I bit my lips as I gulped. Bumuga ako ng marahas na hangin bago ikuyom ang kamao ko.
"Anong ginagawa mo dito, Sin?" muling ulit na tanong ko.
Sin's expression suddenly changes. Mula sa pagiging matapang ay naging maamo ito.
"We need to talk, baby." he uttered, looking at my eyes.
Umiling ako bago muling ayusin ang pagkakabuhat ko kay Athena. "Umuwi kana."
Nilagpasan ko siya at iniwan doon. I was expecting that he will just stop right there, but I was wrong.
Marahas akong napaharap sa kanya ng bigla na lamang niyang higitin ang kamay ko.
"Ano ba!"
Nang dahil doon ay nalaglag ang mga paper bags na hawak hawak ko. I gritted my teeth as I began pulling my hand from his grip.
"You will talk to me, Sabrina. Right fvcking now."
Sin's face hardens. Nanatiling mahigpit ang hawak nito sa kamay ko kaya naman hindi ko maiwasang mapangiwi.
"Bitawan mo ko, Sin! Ano ba?!"
As if a cue, Kyle immediately held Sin's shoulder as he shove it away. Nang dahil doon ay naalis ang pagkakahawak nito sa mga kamay ko.
Kyle blocked me using his body. Kasalukuyang nakaharap ang likod niya sa akin kaya naman hindi ko lubos makita kung anon na ang nangyayari sa unahan.
"Anong problema mo, pre? Can't you see that Sabrina doesn't want to talk you? Bakit ba ang kulit mo?"
"Don't meddle into someone's business, asshole. I am talking to Sabrina."
My feet automatically step backward when Kyle suddenly just spread his arms, as if preventing Sin to come near me.
"Ayaw ngang pakausap. Bingi ka ba?"
Within a split of seconds, napahiyaw ako nang bigla na lamang bumulagta ang katawan ni Kyle sa harapan ko.
The next thing I knew, Sin was now dragging me off to somewhere. Nang dahil doon ay nagising si Athena na kasalukuyang nasa bisig ko.
"Sin ano ba!"
Athena started crying. Pumintig ang ulo ko pinaghalong kaba at frustration. I began pulling my hand from his grip but he didn't budge a bit.
"Sin! Let go off me! May hawak akong bata! Ano ba?!" desperado at nanggagalaiting bulyaw ko dito.
Marahas itong lumingon sa akin at bahagyang tumigil sa paglalakad. He gritted his teeth as he kept his face hard.
"I've been trying to call you all day night, Sabrina, but you just kept on ignoring my fvcking calls! And now, you're with fvcking someone?!" matalim na pahayag nito.
Confusion and terror crawled into my system when I realized that we were now approching his black honda civic.
"Bitawan mo ako, Sin!"
Marahas ako umiling nang mapagtanto ang nais gawin nito. I tried pressing my feet hard against the ground to prevent him from pulling me away. I was histerically shoving his hand from mine pero kahit anong pilit ko ay ayaw talaga nitong bitawan ang kamay ko.
"No!" He growled.
Everything happens so quickly. The next thing I knew, Kyle was already standing in my side. Mabilis lumipad ang kamao nito sa mukha ni Sin na agad namang nagpatumba sa kanya sa semento.
My eyes widen in shock when Sin suddenly just stood up and punch Kyle in return.
"A-Ate.."
Kinagat ko ang pang-ibabang labi ko bago haplusin si Athena sa likod. Mabilis ko itong ibinaba sa gilid ng kalsada bago ito hawakan sa magkabilang pisngi.
"D-dito ka muna ha? May aayusin lang si Ate."
Athena immediately nodded her head. My averted in our fvck up situation.
I frustratedly ran my fingers over my face as I ran towards their direction.
"Tama na!"
But they still remain fighting. Napasabunot ako ng buhok ko bago ilibot ang paningin ko sa paligid.
Mahina akong napamura. There is fvcking no one that could help us!
Kyle tried punching Sin on the face but he immediately dodged back and kick Kyle's stomach instead.
Nang dahil doon ay tuluyang natumba si Kyle papahiga. Nataranta ako nang sunod sunod niyang paulanan ng suntok ang nakabulagtang bulto ni Kyle.
My heart pounds in so much madness. "I said fvcking stop it!"
Because of so much frustration, mabilis kong hinagip ang damit ni Sin mula sa likod bago itulak siya papaatras.
My eyes immediately sprung with so much tears afte staring at Kyle's wounded face. Dumura ito ng dugo bago mag-attempt na ituon ang mga braso sa semento.
Marahas kong binalingan ng tingin si Sin na ngayon ay hindi makapaniwalang nakatingin sa akin. Napahawak ako sa ulo ko.
"Pagod na ako, Sin."
I frustratedly wiped my tears as I pushed him. Napaatras ito ng kaunti dahil sa ginawa ko.
Sin tried reaching my hands when I slapped him. Nang dahil doon ay napaharap ang mukha nito sa kabilang direksyon.
I gritted my teeth as I pushed him for the second time. Muli itong bumaling sa akin. "Baby.."
I shook my head as I stared at his eyes. "A-ayoko na."
His lips slowly parted while staring at me. He tried reaching my hand once again when I slapped him for the second time.
"T-Tama na. Ayoko na."
Slowly, his eyes met mine. "W-What do y--"
"L-let's stop this, Sin." Marahas akong umiling dito bago muling magpahid ng mga taksil na luha.
"A-ayoko n-na. P-pagod na p-pagod na akong i-intindihin k-ka."
Tulala itong napatitig sa akin. I shook my head as I step back a little.
"B-baby, you c-can't do this t-to me..." his voice cracked upon saying those words.
Mapait akong napangiti at muling umiling. "We're done, S-Sin. Umuwi kana."
Sin shook his head. He took a step forward and even attemtepted to hold my hand when I pushed him away. "Tapos na tayo, Sin! Bingi ka ba?! Ayoko na sayo!"
A hurt expression immediately slashed across his face. Nagpahid ako ng luha gamit ang likod ng palad ko bago marahang tumalikod at lapitan ang direksyon ni Kyle na ngayon ay nakatingin sa akin.
I help him to stand up as I placed his arms around my neck. "I-I'm s-sorry.."
Nagpunas ito ng may dugong pisngi bago umiling. He faces Sin's direction but I immediately closed my eyes.
I can't look at him. This is probably the best thing that I should do for the both of us. Mahal ko siya pero pagod na ako sa paulit ulit na ganiyong scenario.
He always does what he wanted. Punch people just because he's upset. Forbid me to talk to anyone else just because he doesn't want me to interact with other people.
For the past 2 years of our relationship, God knows that I have tried my best to understand and forgive him despite of his wrong doings.
Naging bias ako dahil mahal ko siya. But I guess, naging bulag ako sa lahat.
- - -
"Okay k-ka lang?"
I snap back to reality when Kyle spoke. Kasalukuyan akong nasa bahay nila para gamutin ang mga sugat na natamo nito kanina.
Athena was already home. Naiwan ito kay Elisa na maagang nakauwi dahil half day lang daw sila.
Bumuntung hininga ako bago muling idampi ng marahan ang bulak na hawak hawak ko sa sugat na nasa noo ni Kyle.
I bit my lip as I tried to prevent myself from crying.
The image of Sin's face kept on appearing inside my head.
Matapos nang nangyari kanina ay hindi ko na ito nilingon pa. Nang inihatid ko si Kyle dito sa bahay nila ay wala na ito sa pinag-iwanan namin.
Pilit akong ngumiti dito bago tumango. Natigil ang paggalaw ng kamay ko nang bigla na lamang itong hawakan ni Kyle.
He forced me to put my hands on my weak knees as he sigh.
Bahagya nitong ginulo ang buhok niya bago ako hilahin sa isang yakap.
He patted my head as he slowly brought his finger tips to caress my hair.
"Come on, Sabrina. Cry all you wanted. I won't judge you.." mahinang bulong nito sa tenga ko.
As if a cue, my tears just started falling continuosly.