I woke up feeling dizzy.
Napakasakit ng ulo at buong katawan ko. I can also feel that anytime, I would just throw up because my stomach kept on churning for some unknown reason.
I shook my head before focusing my attention to the wooden floor. My brows furrowed in so much confusion.
Wait, n-nasaan ako?
Unti unti akong nag-angat ng tingin. There was nothing aside from darkness. Ang isang bumbilya na nakatapat sa akin ang tanging nagiging liwanag ko para hindi ako tuluyang lamunin ng dilim.
My heart suddenly pounds in so much uneasiness.
"Hmmm-mmm!"
Namamanhid na ang bibig ko. I wanted to speak so badly but this cloth that was now covering my mouth was preventing me to do so.
I tried moving but then I realized that my hands were now tied at my back and same goes with my feet.
"Hmmm!"
Muli akong naggagalaw sa aking inuupuan. Natatakot na ako. Ayoko dito. Gusto ko nang umuwi!
The sound of the chair that was now hitting the wooden floor echoed in the four corner of this dark room.
I tried one more time but I ended up stumbling backward because of what I did.
My body vibrated upon having a contact to the wooden floor. Napapikit ako nang marahas ng tumama ang ulo ko sa sahig. I grunted in pain when my tied hands fell behind me. Ramdam na ramdam ko ang unti unting ang sakit na unti unting idinudulot niyon sa buong katawan ko.
I slowly open my eyes--the dim light of the bulb was all I can see right now.
Gumapang ang kaba sa dibdib ko nang makarinig ako ng tunog ng sapatos. I can feel the cold sweats that were now dripping from my forehead.
I bit my lip. As the time passes by, the sound of the shoes was getting louder--an indication that someone was here at papalapit na ito sa akin.
And there's a creaking sound of something.
My eyes landed on my side. Nagkaroon ng isang malawak na ilaw ang kinatatayuan ko na parang may nagbukas na isang lagusan mula sa kalayuan.
I began moving my chair. Ang paulit ulit na pagtama nito sa sahig ang kasalukuyang bumibingi sa magkabilang tenga ko but I coudn't care less. All I know, I just wanted to get out from this goddamn place as soon as possible.
"Hmmmm!"
Isang pares ng sapatos ang bigla na lamang tumigil sa gilid ng mukha ko. Natigil ako sa paggalaw kasabay ng unti unting pagtigil ng aking paghinga.
Thousands of foreign emotions kept on flowing right through my chest.
A familiar scent enveloped my nose as soon as he tried to put back the chair in its original position.
Naupo ang isang nakamask na lalaki sa harapan ko habang nakahawak pa rin ang mga kamay nito sa likod ng aking silya.
Slowly, he suddenly removed his mask. I stiffened on my spot when I realized who it was.
"Baby.."
"Hmmm!"
He reaches out for the cloth that was now preventing my mouth to utter any kinds of word. Dahan dahan niyang tinagtag ang telang iyon bago niya itapon kung saan.
"S-Sin.." I uttered in a shaky voice.
It's a relief that he's here.
"G-gusto ko nang umuwi." Napahikbi ako. Tears of frustrations are now rolling down to my cheeks and I know by now, mukha na akong tanga ngayon.
Muli akong sumilip sa bukas na pintuan. Natatakot ako, what if the one who put me here will just barged inside this room and hurt us?
I diverted my gaze to Sin who was now staring at me. "Sin, k-kalagan mo na ako. B-baka pumunta n-na dito yung m-may gawa s-a akin n-nito. S-Sin, I'm s-scared. Baka saktan k-ka niya. B-baka saktan niya ako.."
Sin suddenly smiled at me. He cupped my chin as he placed his forehead on me. "Shhh, no one's going to hurt you as long as I'm here."
My brows furrowed more.
"W-what the fvck are you saying?!"
Binawi ko ang mukha ko mula sa pagkakahawak niya bago ito galit na titigan. "Kalagan mo na ako dito, Sin! Just please! Ayoko na dito! Gusto ko nang umuwi!"
Sin suddenly sat down as he tilts his head a little. His lips lifted into a playful smirk as he touches my exposed feet using his finger. Pilit kong iwinawaksi ang mga daliri niyang iyon pero hindi pa rin ito tumitigil.
"Ano ba Sin! Kalagan mo na ako dito! Ayoko na dito! Gusto ko nang umuwi!"
Gumapang ang mga daliri nito sa binti ko. I jolt. My thoughts had gone haywire. Ano bang problema niya?
"Uh-huh. No one's going home baby."
My lips parted. Napakislot ako nang gumapang ang mga daliri niya sa hita ko.
"Sin! Ano ba! Kalagan mo na ako dito! This is not a good joke! Gusto ko nang umuwi!"
But he didn't listen. Instead, he continue doing a circling motion in my legs.
"Sin! Ayoko na dito! Uuwi na ako!"
I kept on recalling what happened and when I succeed, saka lamang nag-sink in sa akin ang lahat.
The car.
Our fight.
At ang nakakahilong amoy na iyon.
My lips parted as my tears started to stream down to my face. Tulala akong napatitig sa sahig. My chest starts tightening.
I kept on convincing myself that he is not behind all of this.
No. Sin cannot do such things like this. H-Hindi.
I lifted my face only to see his eyes staring right through me.
"S-Sin." My voice cracked upon stating his name.
"P-please l-let m-me go home. I-uwi m-mo na ako. M-my f-family i-is w-waiting fo---"
"I said no one is going home!" He growled.
Nag-angat ang tingin nito sa akin. He stood up as he cupped my chin tightly. Patuloy na umaagos ang masaganang luha mula sa mga mata ko. My heart is hurting like hell.
And my hands are terribly shaking too.
"Y-You're not going home, S-Sabrina. W-We will be living here together. We will make our own family here," he smiled.
"A-away f-from them. Away from everyone."
I shook my head in terror. "N-no Sin. This is wrong. Tapos na t-tayo! M-may pamilya akong naiwan sa labas! M-My sisters are w-waiting for m-me, please!. T-They needs m--"
I was taken aback when he slapped me. Bahagyang humarap sa ibang direksyon dahil sa impact niyon. Umuwang ang bibig ko dahil sa pagkabigla.
Hindi ako makapaniwala.
It hurts so much-- hindi dahil sa sakit na naidulot ng sampal niya kundi dahil sa katotohanang pinagbuhatan ako ng kamay ng lalaking hindi ko inaakalang magagawa iyon.
Sin never tried to hurt me physically before...
Ngayon lang..
Unti unti nitong iniharap ang aking mukha sa kaniyang direksyon. All I can do was to cry. I feel so fvcking hopeless.
"Y-You'll be staying h-here, baby." He laughed nonchantly. Patuloy nitong hinahaplos ang magulo at nakalugay kong buhok.
His brown eyes darken when he kissed the side of my lips.
"F-forever w-with me." He whispered.