In every thing that keeps repeating itself, at that moment there is something new. Until now it feels quite interesting. Every breath you exhale feels a little more relaxing. Not only that, there are also things that feel very troublesome. Nowadays nothing is impossible. When you only leave something that is quite important in life. There are thousands of reasons why this could happen. Apart from that, everything seemed to just run smoothly without any obstacles at all. Many of them are almost crazy about this. At that moment everything felt ridiculous. The facts that seemed to clump together in front of me are now like dust that just flies around. It doesn't matter if it continues like this, it's no longer just a hope. However, as time goes by, this feels increasingly cramped. There is one question that keeps nesting in my head. I don't know why it took my breath away. I feel this is really bad. When my eyes opened, I saw a really boring world. I feel like this is pretty bad. At that time, many other things will happen. I imagine it's on the verge of collapse. However, this seems to leave some peace in my life. I only depend on myself and no one else. It will probably continue like that forever compared to what usually happens. I'm just dizzy imagining it. At the same time, a girl was seen who was waiting for her friend near the park. Not long after that person came and at that time they started talking about something. The beautiful view made both of them feel at peace even under the hot sun. As time goes by, it becomes more apparent that there are other things that might have been overlooked. They also talked about many things. This indicates that there is joy between the two of them. The constant look in their eyes as they laughed openly at each other. There was a hint of warmth visible between the two. The friendship between the two of them is truly beautiful.
"So, you already know the opera spoiler?" asked the girl's friend.
"Yes. A little. But something makes me wonder why good stories only happen in works of fiction?"
"Huh? What are you talking about? Come on, it's just a work of fiction, you shouldn't think that far."
"Why?"
"That would just be a headache."
"Even though if you continue to analyze it, it's quite interesting. Do you want to try it?"
“No thanks, I think there are more things I should be doing than that kind of thing.”
"If that's what you want, it's up to you."
"But this time I found new evidence."
"What question?"
"You believe in reincarnation?"
"You finally said that. Of course."
"What? You really believe that kind of nonsense?"
"That's not nonsense. I'm willing to bet that it actually exists in our world today only a small number of people know about it."
"Jeez. You're just weird."
"That's what I think. For example, there is someone who is similar to someone and it's like deja vu. If you were in that position, what would you do?"
"Maybe I will believe it but not that much."
"So what does that mean?"
"I don't know, I guess I have to believe that it exists."
"Really? So why are you still hesitating?"
"I don't know, it just doesn't make sense to me."
Even now, I feel something is quite different. Not only that, I think everything that goes before me never goes well. At first glance, this looks like a mirage. Last time I thought it was as if it just stopped, apparently nothing is smooth. There are ongoing problems. Even though it doesn't make sense that everything turned out like this. This time I bet myself that it was all just a dream. It turns out not at all. This joke that seemed to be true kept appearing right in front of me over and over again. To be honest, I feel frustrated about this but I can't say anything anymore. Instantly I could only remain silent. At first I felt this kind of thing was like human nonsense in general. But when you think about it, this isn't bullshit. There are only facts before our eyes and it turns out they are true. Time passes so quickly. It looks cloudy out there. There are times when things like this come. Not once or twice, but more and more. Until now, it still continues like that. This time I walked slowly in the drizzling rain. Until I saw someone who looked familiar in front of a shop. The person was neatly dressed like most office people. The longer he kept looking at me. At that time I walked to meet the man.
"Wow, it's been a long time. I saw you here a long time ago," I said in a friendly tone.
"You're right. It happens to be raining. So I think staying here is much better."
"I see. By the way, how have you been lately?"
"Ah, about that... it hasn't changed at all. How about you?"
“When it comes to me, there seems to be a bit of a problem.”
“Is that so?”
"Yeah. But it's not that bad."
“Does that have anything to do with your current job?”
"No. This is different. But strangely it gets less and less controllable."
"Are you sure? Actually, there are times when that happens. You just have to get used to it."
"It would be crazy to just accept everything and feel normal. To be honest, this month quite a lot of strange things have happened."
"Really? What did you experience?"
“I never thought I would see that person in someone else.”
"What do you mean?"
"It's like seeing the same person. Can you believe it?"
"Gosh. You're just getting weirder. But if it's possible it's true, you should check it properly."
"To be honest, I still don't have the courage to do something like that."
"What? Why?"
"I don't know, this is strange."
"I think it will only get more complicated if you let it go."
"That's right. It's just that there's no time to just investigate things that make me feel a little curious."
"You're very busy?"
"You can say that."
"Wow, if that happens it will be difficult. What if you will never find what you want if you just stay like that."
“But this is different.”
“What's different?”
"The situation. It was unpredictable and even then it just happened without my asking."
"Ah, it gets even crazier when you think about it. Why are you always in the middle of trouble?"
"I don't know, this is really annoying. Oh yeah, there's one thing I really want to ask you."
"What is it? Just say it."
"Do you know where Mr Amir is?"
"Ah, that old man huh. He's in the corner of town right now and owns a watch shop if I'm not mistaken."
"I see. Alright. Thank you for the information."
"Yes. No problem."
Until now, I still continue to question something that continues to make me curious. At that time, there was something that felt increasingly odd. Life should go on as it should, but it wasn't long before I realized something was a little different. I can't explain why this happened to me at this time. Until here, only a few seconds of my breath continued to accompany my mind which kept repeating itself to that problem. Not just once or twice, one thing is certain, this is very annoying. At that time, when I first saw that person with me, I felt so happy that I couldn't describe it. Deeper memories continue to pour out. Even the sky was very clear. There, myself and that woman became even more real. Every step always has a deep meaning. It's just that, when a loud noise came over me, the weather suddenly changed. Heavy rain poured down on me along with memories that are really hard to forget. Without realizing it, it turned out that the hope in my mind was increasingly haunting me. It kept gnawing at my throat until my eyes opened and I realized it was just an illusion. Suddenly a feeling of disappointment appeared right in front of me that second.
'Damn,' I muttered.
The picture of sadness that I once felt was truly suffocating. There is no reason why I could survive this far. Unexpectedly things progressed slowly. The ongoing journey of life makes me feel a little frustrated. No problem is resolved as if my life is a game board. Strangely, I, who was full of wounds, felt normal. I once asked myself this question. But there was never an answer even within myself. This time I saw several photo galleries that reminded me of that day. When someone who means something in my life accompanies me every day. This is a miracle. Until very happy.
“What are you looking at?”
"Ah, this is just a design for a future project. Why? Are you interested?"
"Wow. That's impressive. Turns out you're really talented, huh."
"Of course. Why do you suddenly doubt me so?" I said in a tone that pretended to be annoyed. 
"Who doubts you? Come on, you just misunderstood."
"Really? But I heard something like that just now."
"Where there is."
"Okay, you don't need to be so upset, bro."
“No one is upset.”
"Wow, you're so cute when you grumble like that."
"Hey, stop teasing me."
"Too much."
Now I can only remember fragments of those memories. I never forget anything, even for a second. It's really crazy. I can't imagine if I had amnesia and couldn't remember anything. When everything feels very empty, again I can't do anything. None. Seeing the wall clock showing 12 o'clock at night made me feel a little disappointed. It turns out that time passed so short. Tomorrow I have to go back to my very boring daily life at the studio. But that's why my mind was suddenly diverted. Unlike usual, there was something that really made me feel anxious. Not long after, I got up again and took the sleeping pills that were on my desk. It's time to rest even if you have to consume this little thing. This time it felt really crazy.