We got jealous not because we don't trust the person we love, but because we just love them so much that it became scary to lose them to someone else.
Sa almost a week na stay namin at Subic Matnog was really amazing. And today was our last day here kaya we decided na magbabad na lamang sa init ng araw because I am loving my tanned skin now. At feeling ko kulang pa. After kasi dito, we'll be back sa city and then food gaming naman kami.
"Cous, you think na umalis na si Andrew? I haven't seen him after that day eh. Sayang naman, he should have enjoyed it as well. Baka naman kasi cous coincidence lang talaga na parehas kayong nandito." Pagbubukas ng topic ni Anj na sinigundahan ko naman ng pag-iling.
"No Anj. Obviously, sinundan niya lang talaga ako because of what he did. Nakonsensya ang loko. And yes, umalis na yun. Wala naman siyang gagawin dito. This kind of place will not fit to a man like him. So not him." Sabi ko na parang kilalang-kilala ko siya eh dahil lang naman ang alam ko'y party goer nga ito.
"Wow cous ah, malay mo naman diba. Tsaka pakiramdam ko talaga andito lang siya eh. Binabantayan ka." Pang-aasar na asik ng aking pinsan.
Hindi ko nalang siya pinansin at muli na lamang nanahimik.
"You know what cous, may naiisip ako." Kabado kong tiningnan si Anj because I knew how naughty her thinking is.
"Ako rin Anj. And I hate what you're thinking so just forget about it." Agad kong decline sa kung ano mang kalokohang iniisip niya.
"Nahh. I'll gonna give a dare tapos vice versa but you'll go first. Ang boring kasi eh. Tapos kung sino man ang matalo, will kiss someone na isusuggest ng mananalo. It's a lip-to-lip kiss para may thrill." Sabi niya na parang it's not a big deal to do it.
"In case you forgot, I have a boyfriend and you as well. Kaya no." Maagap kong sagot.
"Ano ka ba cous! We're here. Wala tayo sa Manila. No one will know about it kung walang sumbungan. Sige na. Nababagot na talaga ako eh. Saka last day na natin dito. Might as well put some twist diba?" Tuwang-tuwa itong nagpapalakpak and seeing her with that face, she knows me, I'll never say no.
"You said I'll go first right? I dare you to shout "Ang ganda-ganda talaga ng pinsan ko beside me" sabay turo sa akin and then you'll dance without a music. Ano, game?"
Akala ko pa naman she'll be saying no na kasi nakakahiya kaya 'yun but what do I expect diba? Baliw 'to eh.
"Wooooooh. Ang ganda-ganda talaga ng pinsan ko beside me. Diba guys?"
At sa sobrang lakas ng kaniyang boses, hindi lang tatlo, apat kundi halos nabulabog ang sangkatauhan ng Subic.
So instead na siya ang mahiya, ako pa.
Lalo pa nung sumayaw ito ng sexy dance with the rythm on her own humming.
Mas lalong natigilan ang mga tao especially boys. Tss.
Lalaki talaga. Masiyadong madaling naaalarma.
Sa kalagitnaan ng kaniyang pagsayaw, I intentionally stop her dahil na rin sa mga lalaking nanood sa kaniya.
Baliw na pinsan ko 'to, mababastos pa nang wala sa oras eh.
"Anj stop! Enough na yun. Dare me na para matapos na 'to."
Natatawa siyang naupo sa buhanginan katabi ko ngunit hinayaan ko na lamang.
"Cous, I dare you to get his number for me. That guy wearing red shirt na may kausap na babae." She pointed out the man on our left near our place na ikinataas ng kilay ko.
I know for sure that the girl he was talking is probably his girl but it didn't stop me from doing Anj's dare. Mas keri ko pa makuha ang no. nun kaysa makipaghalikan when I lose this freakin' dare.
Maingat akong tumayo at pinalpag ang sarili to remove some sand na kumapit sa aking katawan. And went to the man.
Pagdating ko sa tapat ng dalawa, I eagerly took glance kay Anj para tarayan because of her dare. Kapag kuwan ay diretso kong tiningnan sa mata ang lalaki para hingin ang digit ngunit alam kong I insulted the girl sa aksyon na ginawa ko so hindi na ako nagtaka when he chose to not respond. I knew it. Girlpren niya nga ang babae. Dapat kasi talaga I did not push it through. So I decided to turn my back without him giving his number. Talo ako. Shit. But it's shameful kung pagpipilitan ko ang gusto ni Anj. Kaya I don't have any choice but to accept it.
Pagbalik ko, tawang-tawa si Anj knowing na napahiya ako and at the same time, she won. Napailing na lamang ako. At least, she's now happy.
"And since I've won. Kiss this person that I'm going to introduce to you. Wait for a while and I'll go get him for you."
Ibang klaseng punishment 'to. Napag-isipan ng babaeng yun. Sigurado akong hindi lang niya ito ginagawa just because she was bored. I knew her. There's more to it. Malalaman ko 'to mamaya. Sana nga lang, it's not that bad.
"So Cous, he's Renzo, nakilala ko siya kahapon dito lang din, same with us. Having his vacation but unlike us, mag-isa lang siya." Pakilala niya sa lalaking kasama niya. He's not bad at all. Halatang rich kid. May half pa ata 'tong lahi.
"Renzo, she's my cousin whom I've talked about yesterday, Briana." Pagpapakilala naman ni Anj sa akin.
"Hi Briana, Angie said you're beautiful, and I think she really is an honest woman, ya' know." Woah. He complimented me that way. Hahawakan ko na sana ang kamay niya for a handshake when someone stole my hand at hinigit ako paalis sa aming pwesto.
Halos matumba na ako sa pangangaladkad ng lalaking 'to but he immediately stop nang maramdaman niyang natapilok ako. Ang sakit ng paa ko, nagkasprain pa ata.
Agad akong naupo sa buhanginan to massage it when he also knelt down and started to massage it, pagtingala ko to look at him directly at para sana tanungin kung anong problema niya,
"Ikaw?"
I saw his pair of brown eyes, worriedly looking at my foot. I was a bit shocked but eventually,
"I thought you left. Ano pa bang ginagawa mo dito? And what is your problem? Where is your decency and respect? Don't you see it? May kausap ako." Gigil kong tanong sa kaniya lalo nung makita kong nanlilisik na rin ang mata niya.
"Ako pa yung walang respect and decency? Anong tawag sa ginagawa niyo ng pinsan mo? You both have a boyfriend but still flirting? Kahapon si Anj, and then now, ikaw? Akala ko ba mahal mo ang boyfriend mo na soon to be husband mo? Ano 'yan? Dahil wala siya dito, you'll cheat na? Is that the reason why you went here? To chea..."
Hindi ko na napigilang sapakin siya. Ano bang alam niya? Anong karapatan niya to talk to me that way? One day, he confess as if wanting to wreck my relationship with Leandro and then another day, nagpapakahero siya dictating I should be a better girlfriend, and blaming me for cheating? What has been gotten to his mind? Sino ba siya?
After I've slapped him, I chose to turned my back and leave. I hate him. I know I am planning to do my punishment but it's just it. I just want to finish Anj's witty idea. I don't have the intention to cheat just like what he's tryin' to say. Wala siyang alam.
"Sorry Yana, I was just upset. I'm sorry for what I had said. I know it's too much but I can't stop it. If only I can."
I still kept goin' at hindi siya inintindi.
I still don't understand him. At lalong di ko maunaawaan if why he is still here.
"I didn't mean all of it. I was just protecting you. Please, stop and talk to me."
"Protecting from what?"
"I've heard Anj's punishment when you two having a dare. I don't like the idea of you kissing others." I stopped and look at him but he was a lil bit uneasy for what he said.
"Are you perhaps felt jealous?" Saad ko na di malaman kung matutuwa o ano. I really don't understand my feeling as well.
Pagtingin ko sa kaniya, lalo siyang naging uneasy where infact, buong tapang siyang umamin sa nararamdaman siya sa akin. Tapos ngayon pa siya parang nahihiya o not at ease? Problema nito?
"What? No. Ako magseselos? Mas gwapo pa ako dun. Tsaka, I'm just a concerned citizen." He said bago ako tuluyang tinalikuran.
What the? Ako pa tinalikuran?
That man.