Nagising ako na nandirito na sa kama ng aking silid. Malaki ang silid ko pero hindi kasing laki ng silid ko sa bahay ni Galaxy. Napapalibutan ng iba't-ibang klase ng palamuti na nanggagaling pa sa iba't-ibang lugar. Galaxy themed room with purple led lights, my favorite. Kaharap ko ngayon ang hindi kalayuang pinto, kung nasaan makikita ang mga litrato namin ni Lax.
Naalala ko na naman siya. Wala man lang akong litrato niya. Sa tagal na naming magkasama hindi man lang niya ako pinagbigyan kumuha ng litrato. Iwinaksi ko sa isip ang naalala, ayoko na hindi ba?
Remerich Yuji Montemayor will always be my first love.
Walang gaanong gamit na makikita except from the cabinet in my right side opposite where the balcony of my room resides. Na nakabukas. May grand piano rin, binili ni Lax para sa akin. Spoiled nga ako. Lax love to spoil me with things na minsan hindi ko na alam kung saan gagamitin.
Mabuti na lamang nandirito siya sa tabi ko. My best friend who didn't left me. The straightforward and rude Galaxy. I really love my best friend.
"I have seen broken hearted people but yours is different. You look like shit, Earth.", my gaze turned to the guy who's leaning at the door, hands crossed. Nakangisi siya pinipigilan matawa sa nakikita ngayon sa akin.
Pumasok siya ng tuluyan. Lumapit sa grand piano at umupo. He played Nocturne Op. 9 No. 2 of Frederic Chopin. The music was heard in every corner of my room. I stared at Lax. He really knows me. He always plays that composition whenever I don't feel good.
"Didn't really expect that the guy ruined you like this. I don't want to have a diagnosed mental disorder best friend, Earth.", tuloy-tuloy pa rin ang pagtipa niya sa piano. Pinasadahan ko ang aking sarili habang nakaupo pa rin sa kama.
Lumingon sa salamin sa cabinet. Then I saw a woman, a hopeless woman with eyes that are half dead and a messy hair. A common look of a broken person.
Pinakiramdaman ko ang sarili, ano ang nangyayari sa akin. Opposite of Galaxy's who's currently sporting a clean look. A white tee shirt with sky blue linings. A dark-colored jeans partnered with an air Jordan shoes.
Tumutulo ang luhang humarap ako sa nakatalikod na Lax. Ang sakit. Ang sakit-sakit. He stopped playing the piano, humarap siya sa akin na umiiling. Hindi ko alam ang mararamdaman, kung matatawa ba ako o hindi. Lumapit siya sa kama kung nasaan ako at umupo.
"Get dressed. We're going somewhere. I can't stop you from crying because that's your way to express things, Earth. But please bring back my Earth whom I have missed for 6 years.", His eyes softened telling me his thoughts. Tinaas niya ang kamay at hahagurin sana ang buhok ko ng ngumiwi siya.
"Nah, take a shower first. You smell like fish.", natawa ako at hinampas siya sa balikat. Napatayo siya galing sa pagkakaupo at pinandilatan ako ng mata. Hindi nakatakas sa paningin ko ang paggamit niya ng sanitizer sa bedside table.
"Ang arte. But thank you.", I smiled at him pero nagkibit balikat lang ang lalaki.
"Yeah, yeah. I know."
I thought he'll bring me to a place where brokenhearted people commonly waste time. But no. We are both standing in front of the Philippine Museum. A place composed of sweet couples. Bitterness crept into me.
"Museum. Really, Lax?",gusto ko pa naman sanang uminom. Magpakalasing upang kahit isang araw lang makalimutan ko ang nararamdaman.
"Liquors are made for business, Earth. Not to comfort people who wastes their time for someone who can't give what they want. Don't be martyr. Don't give me reasons like you love him. That won't work on me.", lumingon siya sa akin.
Tinititigan ako, walang kahit emosyon ang makikita sa mga mata. Hindi ko nga alam bakit naging kaibigan ko ito. Last time I checked nagpapataasan lang kami ng scores sa exams.
"All you can do for now is feel the pain so you can move on. You can't forget the memories and pain, Earth. You just need to accept that he's not for you.", I was left in the first two stairs in front of the museum. Maybe he was right. I just need to accept the things that are not really meant for me.
I have fun. We went to different corners of the museum. I even took a picture of different paintings that our ancestors made. Maybe a museum tour is quite good for broken hearted people like me. Kahit minsan naaalala ko siya bumubuntong hininga na lamang ako. Ayoko ko namang sirain ang araw ko.
I was laughing while following Lax who's pissed dahil lang may batang madungis ang mukha na kumakain ng chocolate na nagpunas ng kamay sa pants niya.
"Let's go home.", He's still sporting his pissed face. Hindi man lang lumilingon sa akin. Kulang na nga lang ay ipadyak niya ang kaniyang mga paa dahil sa inis. He just don't like dirty things.
"Let's go to a near by Mall. Let's buy you jeans.", Hindi makapaniwalang lumingon siya sa akin.
"Seriously, Earth? I need to take a shower. Can't you see. I'm covered with dirt. I thought you knew me.", napangiwi ako. It's just chocolate but nevermind. For a person who's diagnosed with OCD. I need to understand him.
"I'm just joking. Fine, will go home.", nakita ko kung paano nagliwanag ang mga mata niya. Thankful that I agreed.
When we got home he immediately went to his room. Napabuntong hininga na lamang ako. I took a sit in his couch. His house is big. Walang kahit sinong katulong na nandito. Pero may kasama naman siya.
His house is a mixture of a modern and a victorian ornate designs. But hindi naman talaga niya kailangan noon. He can clean his house alone. He doesn't like crowded places because according to him. Too much people means double the number of bacteria. I'm trying to understand him sometimes. Pero minsan hindi ko talaga kaya.
"Earth.", My gaze fell to someone who called me. Venus. Nakangiti siya. She's wearing a floral yellow dress.
My eyes remained to the guy who has a serious face na nakatingin lang kay Venus parang hindi ako nakita. Naiinggit ako. Bakit sila kayang maging masaya pero bakit ako hindi makalimot sa tagal ng panahon. Kinurap kurap ko ang aking mga mata upang pigilan ang mga luhang malapit ng tumulo.
"Oh, Hi, Venus. How come you're here?", I casually greeted her pinipigilan ang nararamdaman.
"I want to talk to Galaxy. Where is he?", She's looking for the clean freak.
Sasagot na sana ako ng may tumawag sa akin sa itaas ng hagdan. Lumingon ako at nakita si Lax na nakatingin sa amin, bagong ligo. He's hair is wet, hindi man lang siya nagpunas ng buhok. Bago na rin ang damit na suot, parang hindi lumabas.
"Nice to see you all here. Reunion?", nakangisi pa siya. Nang-uuyam. Napabuntong hininga na lamang ako. Ito na naman tayo, Galaxy.
"We're here trying to make amends.", William's voice echoed in my head. I miss him, really. Tumango tango si Lax at iwinestra ang kamay upang maupo sina Venus. Lumapit naman siya sa akin at may ibinulong bago umupo.
"I was diagnosed with a Urinary Tract Infection yesterday. I can't drink, Earth. Museum must've been a big help, huh?"