"It is hard to understand that I don't love you?"
"How many times do I have to say that I don't love you!"
I can still hear his voice repeating those words over and over. I look at the sky where the raindrops were still dripping. It was as if it were sharing the sadness I was Feeling in those moments.  The sky witnesses how much I am hurting right now. The sky witnesses how it hurts.
Mahal na mahal ko kasi siya. Yung taong palagi akong sinasaktan, subra kong minamahal. I love him, I love him so much that I can forget to love myself. I love him even if he says he doesn't love me. I love him even if he says he loves someone else.
How can we stop ourselves from falling In love? If anyone knows, can someone tell me? So that, I can stop myself from falling In love. Gusto ko nang itigil ang kahibangang 'to. Gusto ko nang itigil ang mahalin siya, pero paano?
Over the days, hours, minutes and seconds, he is still the one my heart wants to love. I can do nothing, but fool myself and give in to my hearts desire. Minsan nakakasawa na, pero mas madami pa rin ang dahilan para mahalin ko siya, isa na doon ay dahil siya yung nagpaparamdam sa akin ng hindi ko maipaliwanag.
"Sunny!"
From behind I heard Easton's voice. A friend of my cousin and also a friend of the person I love. Nakita ko sa mata niya ang pag-aalala. Sana ganoon din ang makita ko sa mata ni Wesley. Sana ganon din siya tumingin sa akin.
I gasped. I want to physically hurt myself. I hoped again that he would follow me and retract what he said, even though I knew it was vague. I just hoped again, Damn!
"You, ok?" he asked, when he could get close to me. I just nod my head even though, it could see on my face that I wasn't ok. I can clearly see pity in his eyes as he stared at me.
"Why do you always hurt yourself? Just let him go, Sunny."
I shook my head. 
Thanks to the rain, and he didn’t see much of me crying in front of him. Even though I know he saw me crying before leaving the bar.
We just went to the bar and this is what happened, I was hurt again. He hurt me emotionally again
"I-I hope it's easy." He sighed when he heard me sob.
Why do people always get hurt about love? Why do we love people who can't love us? Bakit hindi na lang mahalin ng tao ang taong mamahalin din siya pabalik? Bakit kadalasan, yung minamahal natin ay hindi tayo kayang mahalin?
"Let's go. I'll take you home." I just agreed for him to take me. I don't want to see other people cry. Sunny Miles Enriquez, The woman who is stubborn and rude to everyone is crying?
What I don’t like at all is that other people feel sorry for me. I'm not miserable. I'm Enriquez, the ruthless Enriquez. Ako yung taong kinakatakutang kalabanin dahil ako ay isang Enriquez.
When I got in the car I saw a man standing in a tree. I took a deep breath, I don't want to assume again. Maybe, I'm just kidding my self again. na gusto ko lang na... I only want Wesley to follow me and say, I'm the one he loves. Na bawiin niya yung sinabi sa akin. Na huminga ng tawad dahil sinaktan nanaman niya ako. Na ako ang mahal niya at hindi ang kong sino man diyan.
Really Sunny? Will he really say you are the one he loves? Even more clearly in broad daylight that he loved someone else. Palagi na lang Sunny, palagi ka na lang humahanap ng butas, kasi mahal mo siya. Na kahit subrang linaw na may mahal siyang iba ay pinipilit mo pa rin ang sarili mo.
Hindi ko maiwasan sermonan ang sarili sa isip ko, pero ano namang magagawa non? Anong magagawa nang pagsermon sa isip ko, kong mas makapangyarihan ang puso.
Stop relying on yourself, Sunny. That's enough. Bukas ulit, bukas ka na lang ulit magpakatanga. Magpahinga ka na muna. Ipahinga mo muna ang isip mo at puso mo. Bukas na lang ulit.
I laughed at the thought. Bukas ulit? See! I'm so stupid to him. Even though he hurt me emotionally, tomorrow I will smile again and chase after him again. Napakatanga ko, subrang tanga ko, pero hinahayaan ko iyon kasi mahal ko siya.
I will chase him again and at the last hour of the night I will be hurt again.
Tama nga sila, ang hirap magmahal sa taong hindi pa tapos magmahal sa iba.