I wiped down the tears that had been flowing in my eyes. The little sobs can be heard from me but this man in front of me seemed doesn't care about it.
“Ethann please, I just want to see him.”
“Can't you understand? Are you that stubborn just because of that man? Goodness Helleon, you need to rest! If you want to see Dawn then let him come here!” I suddenly felt uneasy because of his baritone and heavy voice. “I granted your wants so many times, I helped you escaped so you can go to your friends but now, it's too much! I'm so tired of taking care of you, tired of granting your wishes. Helly, stop that stupidity! You're tiring!”
I can feel how my heart broke. Then, I realized what I am doing. Am I being selfish? People around me used to say “Oh dear Helly, we will help you pray for your condition.” but where are they now? They cried after hearing the doctor announced that I am suffering from Acute Myelogenous Leukemia. It caused the paleness of my skin since then but now, those people are out of reach.
“You know, Dawn can't visit here. Daddy would be mad and there's a lot of bodyguards here. Please Ethann…” I pleaded to him while my tears are flowing and I don't know how to stop it.
He can't come to visit me here as after the incident of our family happened, Daddy hired men to be my bodyguards here. Their eyes should be at me and those men have large intimidating muscles. They might punch me once they caught me escaping.
“I told you Helleon Eummer, you're tiring. If you want to see that Dawn again, then it's for you to think how to escape from your bodyguards,” he said emotionlessly and walk out of the room.
I am tiring. Yes. If only it were only that easy to just disappear in this chaotic world, then I would have done it before. However, I cannot just disappear like an immortal, I don't want to leave Daddy and Dawn. As well as my best of friends.
Minutes passed, I continued sobbing and crying while playing with my fingers. If only, it were that easy to get Dawn here. I miss being with him. I suddenly remembered the last moment we had before the chaos happened. We were happy as crackheads that night. Those warm and hot hugs from him, his hypnotizing kisses, I miss them all.
He's the man that I couldn't ask for more, he's more than enough for me. I prefer fighting this bullshit leukemia with his arms hugging me than fighting this and taking tons of tablets alone.
He's the only man who understands every inch of my personality and attitude. He stayed with me despite my immaturities before.
And Ethann, I don't know what's with him. He is one of my hundred of suitors way back in high school and senior years but just like them, I shut 'em all down. As in, thumbs down. That's why I don't know why is he here with me now.
I took a nap with tears in my eyes. I am not alone though, I have Dyxxie with me who's peacefully sleeping beside me. He's a white cat that I got from my best of friends Shannie.
I yawned as I woke up from the loud snore from Dyxxie. I felt a heavy unknown thing on my stomach—oh, it was Dyxxie laying there. The white cat seemed to understand what his owner feels now. He looked like he's hugging me. I didn't bother to move my body for him not to wake up.
But when he heard the loud click of the camera from my phone, it woke him up. I captured a photo of him. My moody yet clingy cat lose his temper. He walked away! I tried to catch him but he's fast so yeah, I just let him.
I felt like I need to pee so the moment passed by, I started to stand up and walk towards the comfort room's door beside my bed. The surrounding is peaceful to the point that the deafening silence made me feel uncomfortable. I'm not used to being alone in a room. The monsters inside my imagination might come out oh my gosh!
I walked out of the comfort room after doing it. As I walked out of my room, I can't see any bodyguards. Turn to the left side, there's none. Turn to the right, I still don't see even just a silhouette of the bodyguards. I smiled devilishly when an idea popped up in my head.
I searched for my pink glittery phone and immediately scroll my phonebook to search for his name. There I saw it! I immediately click the 'call' button the moment I saw his name.
“Helly? what happened?” I heard him said concernedly.
“At the hospital's parking lot now, Dawn. Pick me there! Hurry up, see you!” I giggled seductively.
“Fine, I'll be there in three minutes. Be careful, I love you.”
I ended the call and grab my white sweater and pink pajamas. I don't have any nice outfit with me. I left them all in my closet. I put red lipstick on my lips to hide the paleness of it. I checked my neck and hands to see if any red spots can be seen there. I sighed in relief after seeing none. I smiled to myself in front of the mirror. I looked blooming and hypnotizingly beautiful now.
I bring my phone with me and walked out. I ran towards the nearest elevator while praying inside my head. I wish, that my dad nor his bodyguards won't be caught me now. The moment I opened my eyes, the elevator arrived on the right floor. I ran towards the exit. When I arrived at the parking lot, there I saw a familiar black mustang. It was Dawn's.
I ran towards it and he seemed to notice me. He then opened the door of the shotgun seat for me. I get in his car and he turns around to the driver's seat.
“What are you doing there? Are you feeling sick?” He grabbed my pale hands while driving the car. He kissed it softly. I fluttered because of it.
I gulped and swallowed after hearing his question. “I just visited Daddy there,” I answered a totally a lie while my chest is racing.
I want to tell him that I was diagnosed there because I have Leukemia but my tongue won't participate.
“With your pajamas only?” he grinned suspiciously to me.
Swallow again. “Uh, yeah. I just realized that I miss Daddy so damn much.” I replied exasperatingly. I knotted my forehead. “Don't ask questions, Dawn, focus on driving!” I shouted but he just chuckled. Damn this man, even his laugh can make me melt.
Who the heck would wear pajamas and go to the hospital? What was that? While I am laying in my bed, out of nowhere I realized how I missed Daddy. So I decided to go to the hospital where my Dad currently working and didn't bother to change my clothes. The fact that I'm wearing lipstick but I am only in my pajamas! The heck is that Helly. I simply slapped my forehead when I realized how stupid my reason is.
He seemed to believe that stupid reason though, after that, he didn't ask more further questions and just drove peacefully.
When we arrived at the condominium, he immediately wrapped his arms around my waist. Yeah, he's a bit territorial. I secretly smiled because of it. When we arrived at his unit, I almost lose my breath when he suddenly grabbed my waist and cornered me at the wall.
He looked at me with his bloodshot eyes and then, showered me hot kisses. I wasn't responding to tease him but I can't help it! He placed my arms on his nape and his hands on my neck. I can't resist him so I half-opened my mouth to let him in.
His kisses were hungry as if he imagined that my lips were a sweet strawberry flavored candy. I tiptoed to give him easy access to my lips. We both gasp for air the moment we stopped. I got addicted to it so I tiptoed again and kiss him thoroughly.
“Ouch!” I simply punched his arms when he just bites my lower lip.
“Sorry, it's just they're so sweet…” he sweetly chuckled.
I craved for his kisses after he left mine but I never bother to voice it out because that's embarrassing. Though, my cheeks are red like a tomato now. He had such a strong impact on me.
“I miss you, Helly. Damn, I miss everything about you,” he whispered to my ears.
I bit my lower lip as I felt guilty. He doesn't have any idea that the Helly he's with now is suffering from Leukemia. I looked up to stop my tears to flow. Damn, not now! I don't want Dawn to see me crying!
“I miss you, Dawn…” I whispered back. My voice almost cracked.
He then looked at me and kissed me gently on my forehead. I closed my eyes while feeling it. I badly wish that we can stay like this forever but I know, we can't. This is the reality, not fairytales.

His eyes darted on my mine again and then snake his hot arms on my waist. My love is hugging me.
I am feeling guilty. I want to tell him about my condition as I don't want to hide anything from him when it comes to him.
However...
“Don't leave me again, I don't want to lose you in my arms again Helleon. Please stay, I love you.”
I can't help my tears to flow. Me neither, I don't want to lose him. I just want to hug him 'til my last breathe.
He doesn't want to lose me, he said. That night was the first time I hide something from him. I can't tell him about my Leukemia. I can't stand seeing him crying because of it. It might cause my death. Please forgive me, Dawn.