Few weeks ago, I remembered telling them that Luigi and I decided to go home together.
I guess today is our first day... "Shit wreck what's wrong with your face? You're blushing bruh..." Rohanie said making me think of something...
I laugh nervously. "Uy! I'm not!" I press my lips together.
"By the way, Today is the day. Remember when I tell you that we are going together?." I slightly twirl my body.
I bit my lower lip to cover up the smile that I don't want them to see.
"What the??? When did you start acting so girly?" Niña grimace.
I creepy smile at them. "Oh shit." There is one thing that came into my mind the moment I saw Rohanie's scanning eyes.
I'm in danger. My heart is in dangerr. I gulp when I saw Rohanie started walking. I freeze in my spot when she whisper into my ears.
"You deserve someone who understand how rare you are. So id you think that Luigi is the answer, I'm ready to be the third wheel in your upcoming dates." She even tap my shoulder! Shiz! I don't know if she's joking or what...
I laughed nervously. "Hey! It's not like that no... that won't happen." I even wave my hand as a sign of dismissal.
**********//THREE MONTHS LATER//************
Days, weeks, and months past in a blurred. I was having a bad day while sipping on my shave ice.
"Hmm? Why do you look like a kid who's in trouble?" I snap out of my lalaland when kins suddenly appear.
"What's your problem?" He ask. One thing is for sure. Kins will always be here whenever I needed him. He will always say something to confort me but most of the time. He is having fun making fun of me.
I frown at him when he start eating his food. Rohanie and Niña buy our food. I did not come with them since I was having a bad day.
"Are you not gonna wait for them to comeback?" I ask him. He look at me with a bored face before putting his food back in the table. I just laugh at his expression.
"Stop changing the topic. What's your problem? Why do you look like you carry all the problem in the world?" He ask again.
I sigh as I remember my conversation with my cousin.
Yesterday I was walking home with Luigi when my cousin suddenly told me that our auntie saw me and Luigi. I'm in the right age to have a boyfriend but their mind is still not open with that Idea. So I keep my promise to my family. That I will never gonna have a boyfriend.
But I was having a doubt about my words when I met Luigi and... my past mistake.
"Luigi and I--- We are not doing anything wrong and I'm here to be his bestfriend. But it still bothered me." I burst out.
I can't shake it off. Knowing my family... "Oh? What's wrong with that? I thought that the two of you are only friends?" Kins ask but what he said makes sense.
I nodded my head before pouting. I remember everytime I'm walking home with him-- i keep my distance. Not because I want to but because I have too.
"You know those gossip people. I felt guily everytime we are together. I always keep my distance since I have too..." I pout while looking at Kins. He nod his head as if he understand me.
"Why would you feel so nervous if you are not hidinh anything?" He ask as a matter of fact.
His question leave me speechless. I dare not to say any words. I instantly forgot all the thing inaide my head when Rohanie and Niña enter the room with our food.
I smile as I dig in. After a moment of my eating show, I'm still bothered since I still don't have a conversation with Luigi.
While everyone is busy with their own world I get my phone and leave a message for Luigi.
Allison: Luigi
Allison: Luigi
Allison: Luigi
Allison:....
Minutes pass but still no reply and it's gettin annoying each time pass.
Tch! He didn't even bother to seen my replies. I bite my lips. Is he mad at me?
Classes is almost over. Still no reply. "Oh? What's wrong with your face?" Niña arch a brow.
I grudgingly put my things inside my bag as I stand up. "Hmp! He didn't even bother to reply to me..." I bitterly whisper to myself as I shove my pencil case inside my bag.
"Who? Luigi?" Niña ask. I look at her with my bored face. "You don't have a boyfriend right Niña Joy?" I ask her. She just roll her eyes at me before crossing her arms.
"Girl? Are you really my friend?" She sarcastically replied. I roll my eyes at her.
Who knows? Maybe she's seeing someone behind my back or maybe she's flirting with someone. But that's impossible so I decided to drop the topic.
I'm not really interested in her lovelife. I was about to open another topic when my phone beep. My face instantly light up as my heartbeat increase faster than expected as I read his message.
Luigi: hey, I'm not mad. I'm just playing games with my friends that's why I never had the chance to replied to your messages.
Luigi: sorry.
I'm sulking. But I will not admit it. First of all I don't have the right to sulk because I'm not his only friends and Luigi is not obligated to replied to my message or calls.
I decided to reply with a simple message.
Allison: oh, that's okay.
It's okay even tho it's not really okay.
Luigi: I can't go with you later. I need to go to church.
That made me frown. Luigi is Iglesia ni christo while I'm a catholic.
And I know for the fact that he is lying. I shake my head while a bitter smile is plastered in my lips.
"I can smell you lying..." I whisper.
Allison: Oh, that's okay. Haha.
That's all I can say to him. I don't want to explode my feelings.
My eyes tremble a little when I read his reply.
Luigi: Whenever we are together, It's feels as if we really not together.
I felt my heart throb. Why? How can you say that when I'm enjoying walking with you in silence?
Luigi sent a message again. I frown. "You are staying away from me..."
Oh...I should say something right? "It's because my auntie saw us together. I need to keep my distance. I don't want them to make me stay away from you..."
That's the words that I wanted to say. But I keep my silent. I can't tell him that I don't have my own freedom. I felt to responsible in every action that I will do. I was thinking about what my family will think.
I just don't want to be a failure. Especially to Mama...
....
Weeks passed by without me seeing Luigi. I felt empty. Even our conversation is on leave. I'm stating to hate this feeling. I was hurting for no reason.
"Ugh!" I can't help but to crumbled my hair while staring at the blackboard while it's color green.
"Oh? What's happening to you? Should I bring you back in the mental?" Rohanie ask while doodling my back notebook. I frown at her before shaking my head and going out without a word.
Teachers are busy so do I. I need to bring snack for my sanity!
While buying some snacks, I can't help but to think about Luigi. Did he eat his food? I pout. He always skip eating. It makes me worry.
I bite my lip as I saw our last conversation. Even though we don't have any proper conversation, I still chat him.
Allison: Luigi.
I smile when he replied. I sigh. Luckily he didn't ignore me this time.
Allison: Have you eaten any food?
I'm worried. I don't want him to starve just because he have a problem with his family.
Luigi: Haven't.
I roll my eyes. Why bother to ask if I know his answer for the start?
I can't help but to frown. "Tss, he keeps on skipping lunch."
Allison: Tss, what time do you plan to eat?
I'm really worried. I don't want him to catch any sickness.
Luigi: Once you go home, I will eat you.
Luigi: Charot.
Hala?! After humarot he said charot! Ehe~ why not do it? Chour...
I keep on biting my lips to stop myself from smiling.
Allison:Luh? Let's eat Mami later. You cannot eat me.
I almost laugh loud when I read his reply.
Luigi: You are my Mami.
Does friends suppose to say things like this to each other? Damn!
I smile sadly when I feel longing inside my heart.
Allison: I miss you. So much...
I just can't help myself but to feel that way. I'm used to walk alone but when He came into my life, It's the time when I notice that Im stating to get dependent on him.
He made me feel that I'm not alone... when I feel like I was.
I look at the line when Luigi suddenly call. Line is still long so i take the call.
"What kind of miss? Hmm?" My mouth hang open with his hoarsely voice. I felt a butterfly in my stomach. I shifted my weight from side to side.
I smile at his sarcastic remark. "The kind of miss that I wanted to punch you." I sweetly said.
Luigi chuckle. "Weh? You want to hurt me?" I saw a strand of hair in my vision. I girl twirl it in my finger.
"Charot! Lemme hug you later. I really miss you." There is a hint of tenderness in my voice which is I don't know where did that came from.
Luigi gently laugh. "Really? Just a hug? Nothing more?"
I laugh at what he said. If only you knew my dreams about you...