I have a really bad feeling.
It looks like something is going to happen.
I stared at mommy.
There's something I really feel I can't explain.
Mommy got up and her mother and I also entered the mansion holding hands.
"The coldness of mommy's hand" my mind whispered.
"liah baby" she said softly.
"Why mommy?"
"Mommy is tired baby" Mommy said while we were still walking.
"Is that so mommy? I'll take you to your room" I replied with a smile.
"Thank you baby" she smiled back at me.
I took mommy to her room and helped her lie down on her bed.
"Mommy do you want me to sing for you? Like when you sang for me when I was young?"
"Sure baby so mommy can rest" she said with a wide smile.
"Liah, when you get to the point where you have nothing you'll always think you have a mommy who won't leave you okay?" Mommy's tearful language.
I was confused by what mommy was saying but I just nodded in response.
"I'll remember that mommy!"
I started singing while I was caressing mommy's hair.
Mommy also started to turn a blind eye.
"You're really beautiful mommy, you're still in a good mood. I hope I can be like that when I grow up" I whispered softly
I also started singing.
This song made my hearts cry, I don't know if it's just my emotions or I just feel in every word of the song the child's love for his mother.
This song is so emotional that I didn't even realize that I was in tears.
When I saw that mommy was sound asleep, I turned off the light and went out of her room, but before I left, I kissed mommy's forehead.
"Goodnight mom, I love you so much that it hurts me to see you suffered like that"
I went to my room and slowly said a prayer for my mother's well -being.
I closed my eyes and in a few minutes I was drowsy.
The next day I woke up early because I had a lot of plans to do to bond with mommy.
I thought I wanted to take her to the amusement park so she could have fun.
But as I was thinking about my plans, I was so shocked when I heard a loud shout from the maid.
I hurried out of the room and went to the place where the loud shout was coming from.
That came from mommy's room.
"In mommy's room" I whispered.
I peeked through the ajar door and I was so shocked when I saw mommy ..
mommy .. Si mommy ..
no more life ...
My knees shook and I suddenly sat up.
"No, this can't be" I whispered softly.
Sleeping pills were also scattered on the floor as well as the chair he used to stand on.
No tears came out of my eyes.
I was just stunned by the events.
I don't know how to get everything into my brain
I don't know how to process everything.
"Isn't it weird that we can still talk to mommy ??" whispered my mind.
I was just surprised when someone pulled my arm.
I was in so much pain when I was pulled.
I looked at it without emotion.
"Dad" I whispered softly.
He looked at me angrily.
"It's your fault it's your fault why your mommy did that.
It's your fault why she left me. It's all your fault. "
crying dad said.
"Me? I'm to blame for this?" I cried tears.
He threw me a white envelope and I opened it
It came from mommy because she wrote it by hand.
I read what was written and that's how much pain it caused me.
The pain I can't explain.
There are not enough words for me to explain how painful it is to lose a mother.
I no longer knew I was crushed.
"Liah, I know by the time you read this I'm gone. I'm sorry son, I can't stand my promise to you that I won't leave you. Son, I'm sorry because your mommy is weak. I can't do that anymore, son. with each passing day I always have nightmares of the past I can't forget how they drove me away, I don't have any love left for myself I'm a disgusting woman. I want you to understand, son. You will always remember that even if I am not there next to you, you will always think that I am there in your heart. I love you so much liah. Be steadfast in all the challenges of life, don't be like me son. Use the pain you went through to get up again. I will always guide you child. 'Till we meet again in paradise where there is no pain and suffering. I love you so much my baby. Be happy always!
With love Mommy,