I look at sky, there's no stars, no moon, only dark clouds and dullness that can be seen. The rain is pouring and i lost all my hope, nawala na ang pag asa ko na maging kami.
This is what I get for expecting that much. It starts to rain, and I didn't move from my place, hindi ko alam ang gagawin ko, I feel so numb. I screamed as fell down on my knees while my tears are streaming down my face.
"Why!!? Why!?? Me!? Bakit ako pa!? Shuta!" I screamed really loud.
Why? Bakit ako pa? Sa dami dami ng tao ako pa talaga ang nasaktan.
"Lakas nang tama mo! Belandres! Tarantado ka! Sana hindi monalang ako pinansin nung una! You made me fall deep for you! Pakening sheyt ka!" I screamed from the top of my lungs.
Sana hindi niya nalang ako kinausap nung una! Ang sakit, parang literal na nabasag ang puso ko, parang na butas ang puso ko.
Umupo ako sa sahig habang lumakas ang ulan, tumingin ako sa langit at hindi ko mapigilan ang pag iyak.
I'm so pathetic, weak, hopeless.
"R-Ronnallyn?" May tumawag sa likoran ko.
Tumayo ako at lumingon sa aking likoran at nakita ang lalakeng pinaka mahal na siyang dahilan na nawasak ang puso ko.
"Oh?" Walang ganang sambit ko.
"I-i—" Agad kong pinutol ang sasabihin niya.
"Anong ginagawa mo dito? Baka hinahanap ka ng fiancé mo," Sambit ko.
"R-Ronnallyn I-i'm sorry," Sabi niya.
At tumawa ako nang malakas.
"Sorry? P*ta! Jhavies! Hindi mo man lang pina alam sa'kin na may magiging asawa kana! Eh kung sana nung una hindi mo nalang ako pinansin! E kung sana hindi mo nalang ako inimbitahan sa mga p*tanginang lugar na mga yun, e kung sana binaliwala mo nalang ako! Hinding- hindi ako magiging ganito! P*ta! Ikaw pa naman ang first love ko! Ikaw pa ang magiging last ko!" Sigaw ko sakaniya na ikinagugulat ko.
Sh*t, nasabi ko na siya yung first love ko.
"W-what did you say? I-i'm y-your f-first love?" Bingi kaba!?
Tumawa pa ang pakening sheyt na parang wala lang may nangyari.
"Huy! Bakit ka tumawa? Ha?! May nakakatawa ba?!" Inis kong sigaw sa kaniya.
"Nothing, I just missed you," Sabi niya.
Sarap siyang batohan ng sapatos, sa lahat na nangyari, may 'I missed you' pa siyang nalalaman.
"Anong 'i missed you'? Kapal rin ng mukha mo noh?" Sabi ko na may halong sarkasmo.
"Don't give me false hope, Jhavies, ang sakit na eh, I'm exhausted, I know na hindi mo ako pinilit na ma fall sa'yo pero,"  I stopped as my tears streaming down my cheeks.
"I-i can't help it, I can't stop my freaking heart to only beat for you, if you're only doing this because you pity me then just don't, hmm? Continue being the Jhavies Emmanuel Belandres I knew, continue ignoring my existence like you always do, be the Jhavies who's snobbish towards me," I sob as I look at him.
"Don't feel obliged to spend your time and pity someone like me, I don't need your pity, if you can't reciprocate my love for you, then don't come to me, it only makes it harder for me to move on, you're making it harder for me and it's unfair, me crying myself to sleep because of how broke my heart is seeing you with someone other than me," I laughed bitterly.
"I know I'm not rich as Jasmine to have you as my Aladin, nor I'm not beautiful as Aurora  to have you as  my Philip, but I can be your Belle who accepts your imperfections and personality, let me be your Tinker bell who only just wants your attention until you find your own Wendy, just let me live this crush life hmm? Hayaan mo ako na gustohin kita, just let me admire you  from afar," I smiled weakly at him.
He looks at me with full of emotion in his eyes. He then walk towards me and his next move surprised me, he pulled me closer to him and he wraps his arms around me.
"L-let m-me go!, Haven't you heard what I just said? Don't come to me if you can't love me back!" I tried to let go from his grasp but he tightened his arms around me.
"I heard exactly what you said, Ronnallyn, maybe it's time for you to cut the chase, tigilan mo na ang crush life mo," Mahina niyang sabi.
"What do you mean tigilan kona? It's not for you to decide," Sabi ko.
"You don't need to be rich to have me as your Aladdin, you don't need to be beautiful as Aurora to have me as your Philip, you don't need to be my Tinker bell because you are my Wendy, you think that you're the only one who got a crush on someone?" He released me from his grasp and I look at him.
"What do you mean?" Tanong ko.
"I like you since we were in elementary school, can you imagine that? Maybe you didn't notice that I always stare at you every time I see you, did you notice that there's no boys that would come at talk to you?" He chuckles.
"That's because I threatened them, if they'll talk to you I'll punch their faces," Sabi niya.
I feel like thousands of butterflies are in my stomach, so much joy, I burst into tears, I can't believe my crush actually liked me first.
He leans closer to me and I can feel his intense breathing and heart beat.
"I used to catch butterflies when i was a kid, I didn't know you can only give it to me," He whispered in my ears and he looks at me again.
"Y-you're confusing me," I breath out.
He grabs my chin and his eyes landed on my lips.
"I noticed you, my love, so you don't have to do those stupid things for me to notice you," He chuckles.
My face suddenly heats up.
"C-chee! Ang hirap-hirap na kaya nang mga ginawa ko! Para lang ma—
*Tssuupp*
He kissed me! Hinalikan niya ako!!
"W-what anong ginawa mo?!" I slapped his chest.
"I just kissed you, don't worry, that's not the last, you'll be having more of that." Tapos kinindatan niya ako.
"Wala pa nga tayong label may halik-halik kana na nalalaman," Reklamo ko at tumawa lang siya.
"Well then, will you be my wife?" He asked at lumaki ang mga mata ko.