“nakakainisss, he must be kidding, mukhang hindi naman siya seryoso do'n e.” paikot-ikot lang ako sa kama ko habang hindi parin maalis sa isip ang sinabi kanina ni Trace.
I looked at the paper bags, at binuksan iyon. sinuot ko ulit ang pulang dress na binili niya para sa'kin saka ang necklace. it looks so cool. para saan ko naman kaya gagamitin 'to? my phone beeped and Nephtalies’ message flashed on its screen.
“do you have an outfit for this coming valentines?” she asked, and then i suddenly remembered what's the announcement earlier. why do they have to celebrate it at school?
“yes, hbu?” i replied.
“i don't know what to wear, can you help me pick up a good one?” she said. alam kong marami na siyang dress sa bahay nila na bihira niya lang suotin. but she's not really fashionable as me so she's having a bad day choosing one.
“gotta go there tomorrow, hapon na kasi and ate isn't here pa.” i replied again. ate must be very busy with her work. ayoko namang umalis na walang tao dito sa bahay at saka malapit naring gumabi. i am not fond of going out when it's evening.
“sure, you'll commute or should i pick you up?” i chose to commute nalang para hindi na siya pabalik-balik pa. pagkatapos kong plantsahin ang dress ay binuksan ko kaagad ang laptop to check my novel. kaunti nalang at matatapos na.
should this story must end with a happy ending or with a tragic one? i still don't know what would be its ending. this story must be unique among those stories i have written before.
“zayellaaaaa, buksan mo muna 'yong pintooooooo.” napapitlag ako dahil sa kalabog ng pinto at sigaw ni ate sa labas. nakalimutan kong ni-lock ko pala kanina dahil mag-isa lang ako dito.
“andiyannnn naaa!” sigaw ko rin pabalik.
“hayy, bakit mo ba ni-lock? i forgot to bring my spare key.” saad niya pagpasok sa loob ng bahay.
“malay natin 'diba kung may mga masasamang loob na dumayo.” sagot ko.
“oo nga pala, dad messaged me earlier.” she uttered. hindi agad ako nakasagot but i am excited about his message.
“ano 'yong sinabi niya ate?” i asked.
“they'll comeback home, maybe one week from now.” natuwa naman ako dahil sa sinabi niya. mabuti naman pala't successful 'yong operation ni mama. i hugged ate so tight dahil sa tuwa.
“hindi pa kaya ako nakapag half-bath.” saad niya. sa sobrang linis niya hindi niya kami hinahayaang hawakan siya kapag galing siya sa trabaho dahil baka may virus daw. but this time, hindi ko lang talaga napigil ang sarili ko.
naligo muna si ate, kaya ako naman ay pumasok muna ng kwarto at agad na nag chat kay Nephtalie.
“omggg, bestie they'll going to comeback soon!” i said.
“wow, sabi ko sa iyo e, successful ang operation, congratulations!” she replied.
“thank youuuu.”
in-open ko rin agad ang laptop ko, 'cause i have a plan to finish my story. ilang chapters na lang ba? sana pagdating nila ay tapos ko na itong maisulat.
“still ongoing?” napatingin ako kay ate ng pumasok siya sa room ko. i nodded as an answer.
“i am always waiting for you to be a published author.” she uttered, “promise me that you'll tell dad and you'll prove to him that you deserve to be a writer, kapag umuwi sila.” i sighed when she said that. i am still worried what if, dad won't let me still.
“ayoko ate, natatakot ako. at saka ayokong bigyan ng stress si mama pag uwi niya.” saad ko, then she also sighed deeply.
“okay, i'll give you a chance then. hahayaan muna kita sa mga plano mo. but please.” tumango-tango naman ako para hindi na siya mag-alala pa.
i continued writing again. i suddenly remembered Zenrick Aphelion asked me before why I am so sad. i wonder kung kamusta na kaya siya ngayon? after i've heard the information na sila na ni Astrid ay hindi na siya nagparamdam pa sa'kin. So, i guess the information was true. Alam ko naman kasing selosa si Astrid, kahit na sa aura pa lang niya ay alam ko na, at kung patuloy pang lalapit sa'kin si Zenrick ay mag-aaway lang sila.
i was scrolling down my facebook. ngayon ko lang ulit ito na open.
without a thought, my hand just searched for zenrick's name on the search bar. nagulat ako kung bakit hindi man lang sila nag set ng status sa facebook. i was on the midst of checking some infos’ when i saw his post last day saying that he'll be in-active. hindi rin talaga maiiwasan na mag-alala ako. Zenrick was good to me, he's caring. and before I've met Trace, siya rin iyong napagsasabihan ko ng problema, especially when i got lost so bad that i couldn't feel myself anymore.
i miss him. i really missed his existence.