nagising akong punong-puno ng eyebags. Masakit rin ang ulo ko kaya tumungo agad ako sa kusina para uminom ng tubig.
I was about to take a cold water when my ate suddenly approached me.
“here.” inabot niya sa' kin ang maligamgam na tubig na ininom ko naman kaagad.
“what happened to you last night?” she seriously asked. Yumuko naman ako dahil sa kahihiyan when I remembered na naglasing ako kahapon.
“s-sorry ate.” I mumbled.
“I won't take sorry for an answer, explain.” she said again, this time she looks irritated. I felt guilty about it, dapat nakinig nalang ako kay Nephtalie.
“I w-was not just feeling w-well ate, I couldn't think good.” Saad ko without looking at her eyes. Ang pinagtataka ko lang ay kung paano ako nakauwi kagabi.
“Someone take you home, lalake.” ani niya.
“I d-dont remember po. Mag-isa lang naman ako kahapon.” I answered, at napangiwi ito.
“Zenrick, your beloved friend, he said.” sambit naman nito. I got confused when I knew that Zen was the one who takes me here, but I slowly get understand when I remembered about that person who called me before I've fallen asleep.
“ah, naaalala ko na ate, h-he's my friend nga heheh.” I was so shy to look at her, bakit ko ba naman kasi ginawa 'yon?
“don't do that again, hindi matutuwa si mama kapag nalaman niyang hindi ka tumitino. Do you still remember her words before she left? ayaw niyang ganiyan ka.” I was taken aback about what she just trying me to be reminisced about. After she had spoken a lot of words, I promised to ate not to ever do it again. I should not supposed to be like someone who's ruining their life more just because of problems. I learned about fixing things in a correct manner. I now get the point, kasi paano nga ma so-solve ang problema kung mas lalo lang natin itong dadagdagan? Well, at least I've learned my lesson now.
Pumasok narin ulit ako ng school. I don't know but, I just suddenly felt motivated to do what I usually doing back when I was still in a good situation.
Nephtalie got shookt when she saw me when she get in the classroom.
“oh, akala ko ba ayaw mo nang mag-aral?” may halong pagiging sarcastic ang tono nito.
“wala naman akong sinabi, e'. I was just occupied by a lot of problems, I couldn't control myself.” I defended. Tumango naman ito and she patted my back after.
“bes, alam mo na ba 'yong balita?” i looked at Nephtalie confused. hindi naman ako nakapanood ng tv this past few days.
“hindi, bakit ano ba 'yon?” i asked.
“you know, sina Zenrick at Astrid mag on na daw.” i was stunned to speak for a moment after hearing what she just have said.
“oh? bakit tulala ka ngayon?” nabalik ako sa wisyo nang magsalita ito ulit. umiling-iling naman ako pero tinukso lang ako nito.
“tumigil ka nga, ano namang pakialam ko kung sila na, buhay naman nila 'yon.” saad ko ngunit hindi parin ako nito tinigilan sa pang-aasar. maya-maya pa ay dumating na din si prof' kaya't tumahimik na ito.
hindi maiiwasan na minsan sumasakit talaga ang ulo ko kapag politics na 'yong usapan. in fact, kailangan din naming gumawa ng thesis about different cases, and worst is that, we need to have a debate in terms of our political views. mukha bang may alam ako do'n?
I studied immediately after i came home. nagtaka pa si ate kung bakit daw ako tutok na tutok sa notes ko, e dati hindi naman ako ganito. but i know that she's proud of me, nakikita ko iyon sa mga mata niya.
i studied half of our lessons already, hindi pa ako nag didinner, when my phone suddenly flashed.
a text message, from unknown.
“remember me?” saad nito.
“wrong sent, ms/mr.” i replied. ngunit nagtaka naman ako nang mag reply ulit ito.
“when tou you get drank at the bar last night, kinausap mo ako 'diba?” he said. 'yan 'yong lalake na katabi ko sa upuan noong maglasing ako.
“teka nga, where did you get my number ba?” i typed.
“secret, you know what i was just curious about your situation, you look so broken that time, you okay now?” sabi naman nito. i replied a simple yes at hindi na nag abala pang mag reply ulit sa kaniya.
i get back to my notes again but ate called me to take my dinner already, kaya wala akong magawa kundi ipagpaliban muna ang pag-aaral.
“ate, did daddy messaged you na?” tanong ko, ngunit umiling lang ito as a sign na wala paring update. bakit naman gano'n?
“ah, baka busy lang talaga sila 'no?” sambit ko naman, and ate just smiled at me.
“do you eat sushi?” ate asked me while we are having dinner.
“yes, favorite ko kaya 'to.”
“pero, hindi ka naman niyan kumakain dati 'diba? how come?” sunod-sunod na tanong nito kaya natawa nalang ako.
“because of my friend, i guess?” sagot ko. but it's actually because of Zenrick. one time nagkita ulit kami and we ate at the restaurant, ayokong kumain sana, kaso nahihiya naman ako kung tatanggihan ko siya, umorder siya ng sushi but i haven't eat it before, and he said that i should try, which is i did naman. unfairness hindi naman pala masama ang lasa.
bakit nga ba ako nag kukwento, e may Astrid naman siya na puwedeng ipagsigawan siya sa buong mundo. tsk!
“okay this is enough.” i said to myself and let out a heavy sighed. nagsulat kasi ako ng isang chapter as an update for my story, after kung i-review ang mga lessons namin. i checked my phone again, and gosh it is already bombarded sith messages from that stranger i met at the bar.
“alam mo, hindi mo na kailangang pumunta sa ganoong lugar just to let out the pain, maybe at the peaceful place?”
“at saka, that guy who take you home is your boyfriend? hindi ka dapat niya hinayaang pumunta do'n nang walang kasama. people nowadays is scary.”
“Trace De La Cruz, is my name. please reply if you need someone to talk to.”
inisa-isa kong binasa ang lahat niyang messages. i don't know but suddenly it warmed my heart, maybe because of his advices? akala ko talaga dati, isa siyang playboy or something, because he get too close to me even at the first time, but i was just really embarrassed for i judged him too early.
“i appreciate your kind words, trace. have a good night.” i replied to him for the last time before I go to sleep too with a smile on my face.
hope to meet him again, maybe sooner.