The sun still refuses to show its bright light. The orange streak is still clearly caught by the senses. It was so quiet this morning. The chirping of birds is not as busy as yesterday morning.
The cold air seemed to have slipped deliberately, making Kirana's body not want to be separated from the thin blanket in her room. Only silence reigns supreme. Just like his empty soul since Mr. Sarmidi's departure two years ago.
"Kirana, Father is asking for help, find your sister! Love Sinta like you love both of you. Guide and teach him so that he can be a useful person for others.”
That was the content of Mr. Sarmidi's last message before God stopped his breath. However, until this moment, Kirana doesn't know where Shinta is. Shinta deliberately left the house just because she did not like living with all the economic limitations. The people of East Java call this act "Minggat".
Kirana has repeatedly tried to contact Shinta. Instead of picking up the phone from Kirana, Shinta rejected it. Kirana's hunch says that Sita is going to the city. Considering that he has a co-worker from Bandung. Therefore, six months after Mr. Sarmidi's departure, Kirana decided to sell the old house left by Mr. Sarmidi.
"Aunty, Kirana is sleeping here first, okay?" Kirana said softly to Aunty Marni that morning.
"Yes, Dear ... please," he answered with a friendly smile.
Aunty Marni still has a kinship with Kirana. He has been living alone in his house for a long time. His children have migrated outside Java. So he always felt very lonely.
"Actually... Aunty really wants to be able to live with the children. But, what can I do, Dear ... Aunty’s children prefer to live in the city with their respective partners. Life is easy and there is a lot of money," said Aunty Mirna chuckled a little. However, the sad expression on his face could not be hidden.
Although every month, her children routinely send money in turn, it does not make Aunty Marni happy and happy. For him, true happiness is when he can gather with his family. However, he always tries to let go of something that has happened. Everything is God's destiny. The task of parents is only to pray for the success of their children. If children can be successful, parents will be happy, he said to strengthen the heart.
"Your legs can walk normally, Dear?"
"Thank God, Aunty. Every morning, you routinely train Kirana to walk slowly."
"Thank God, thank God. Lucky you have such a patient father."
It is true. Kirana is very lucky to be the adopted son of Mr. Sarmidi. Yes, he is an adopted son. However, only some people know this. Kirana only found out about it when Mrs. Yanti – her adoptive mother – berated Kirana on March 13, 2011. At that time, Kirana was 12 years old and Shinta was 11 years old.
"Kirana is indeed unlucky, sir," cursed Mrs. Yanti in a raised voice.
"Listen, ma'am! All of this is destiny from God, no one knows when a disaster like this will come," said Mr. Sarmidi with emotion.
Even though Mrs. Yanti has been deceived by burning emotions, Mr. Sarmidi still responds gently to her words. Mr. Sarmidi had never once yelled at Mrs. Yanti all this time.
Kirana felt very guilty at that time. After fighting with Shinta, Kirana's mind is very confused. Until when he was crossing the road, he was hit by a car because he didn't look to the right and left first. The accident was very serious. Given that the car that hit was traveling at high speed. Kirana's body was thrown 8 meters away. Unfortunately, both of his leg bones were badly fractured because he was crushed by the car. Because of this, Kirana couldn't walk normally a few years after the accident happened.
A few months after the incident, Mrs. Yanti began to get sick. High blood pressure relapsed due to shock with the disaster that occurred. Almost every day he was angry. Either because Kirana's medical expenses are quite expensive or it could be because Mr. Sarmidi's sales are decreasing.
Mr. Sarmidi is a person who works as an oddball seller. Sometimes selling vegetables from planting in the fields. Sometimes they also sell fried food and pentol around. However, he did not complain in the slightest about the situation. In fact, of course he was very tired of such an uncertain job.
"Sorry, sir. Because of Kirana, Mother is getting sick like this."
"It's okay, Dear. All of this is not because of you. Indeed, Mother's high blood pressure is relapsing," said Mr. Sarmidi trying to calm Kirana at that time.
"But, sir ...."
"Don't think about it anymore, Dear. The most important thing now is that you have to be enthusiastic about learning to walk again. Okay?"
Kirana no longer replied to Mr. Sarmidi's words. Only the curve of his lips that he deliberately showed.
Mr. Sarmidi is Kirana's first love. According to him, no one is as good and patient as Mr. Sarmidi. Even though Kirana is not her biological child, the portion of her affection is the same as that given to Shinta. However, Shinta always thought that Mr. Sarmidi loved Kirana more. That's why since childhood Shinta never got along with Kirana. There's just some behavior that Shinta does to just play pranks on Kirana. However, because Kirana is older than him, Kirana must be able to control her emotions so as not to retaliate for her sister's actions. Just be patient, said Mr. Sarmidi.
That afternoon, on December 15, 2011, Mrs. Yanti breathed her last. The clouds are turning gray again, just like the mood of Mr. Sarmidi's family which is getting foggy. Shinta was devastated by the loss of her mother. You know, since childhood, only Mrs. Yanti has always spoiled Shinta. The closest person and always used by Shinta as a place to complain about all her complaints.
Mr. Sarmidi kept on reciting the holy verses of the Qur'an next to Mrs. Yanti's body. Kirana also understands that he is very upset. Evidenced by the tears that continue to flow down his cheeks. As long as Kirana lived with him, he had never met a figure like Mr. Sarmidi as sad as this.
Mr. Sarmidi feels very guilty because as long as he is a husband, he has not been able to give happiness to his mother. However, not according to Kirana. In fact, Mrs. Yantila is very lucky to have a husband like Mr. Sarmidi. A person who always faithfully accompanies and takes care of Mrs. Yanti when she is sick. Even if you are tired after work. Even Mr. Sarmid is a person who is always steadfast when he often gets scolded and scolded by Mrs. Yanti and her family.
“Sir… don't keep going like this, okay? Later, Mother will not be calm in nature," Kirana said while rubbing her father's shoulder.
"Miss Kirana is happy when you die?!"
Shinta's voice is like thunder booming in Kirana's ears. Sometimes in a foggy state like this, Shinta utters inappropriate sentences. Kirana also could not understand his behavior.
"What do you hate me for Shinta?! Is that insulting me in your eyes? Is it just because I'm an adopted child?” Kirana said with unbearable emotion.
"Shinta! Kirana!" Mr. Sarmidi shouted.
"What? You want to defend Mbak Kirana?!"
Shinta's voice is getting louder. Meanwhile, Kirana, who seemed fed up, chose to enter his room. He didn't want to make things worse by responding to Shinta's words. Kirana also finally thought that maybe Shinta was still very upset by the departure of Mrs. Yanti. So, Kirana must be able to understand it.
However, on the other hand, Kirana's heart was very sliced by Shinta's words. Since childhood, Kirana has always loved and respected Mrs. Yanti like her own mother. There was never a spark of hatred embedded in the recesses of his heart. Even though Bu Yanti has never been kind to Kirana. Kirana also understands that. Everyone can do everything for a reason. Mrs. Yanti's attitude towards Kirana was no exception because Kirana was an adopted child who was brought home by Mr. Sarmidi a few years ago. The unlucky child, said Mrs. Yanti.
To be continued ....