After that night, the rummors about how I kiss the Mathadeus’ superior spreads. The chaos we’ve made reached our Dean and set a meeting about the people who's involved with it. Napatawag kami nila Zamara and Zara pati na rin sila Yvyn and her minions na nag-aaral din pala dito. Zahirayah is safe about it. Ni hindi naman kase siya nakipag-away. May nasukahan lang ata siya sa bar.
My parents became more tenacious again. Para nanaman akong 13 years old na binigyan ng rules at curfews. They said that I'm more than plethora and they castigate me by their words.
Look what you've made, Natasha! Ayways, kasalanan ko rin naman. Ugh- No! Di 'ko kasalanan. Kung di lang ako sinundan nung lalaking mestizong iyon ay hindi ako makakagawa ng malaking gulo.
I actually loosing my sanity this fast few days. Despite of this ignominy, I still manage to vanquished all the bad thoughts on my head.
"I'll sleep after this," Zamara suddenly spoke while wipping the floor.
Nagkapunishment kami dahil sa nangyari. We have school service. Good for us, hindi kami ginawang parang katulong.
"I want to take shower now. Ang lagkit-lagkit ko na-" I halted Zara from speaking.
"Ako ang mauuna mamaya!" I declared.
"Hush your garrulous mouth, girls. You can join me in our comfort room later. Maligo nalang tayong tatlo ng sabay." Zamara curved her lips for a mocking smirk.
Imbes na magsalita pa ay inirapan ko na lamang siya. Her guffaw echoed on the four corner girl's restroom.
"What a stupid, Zam. That was so disgusting," si Zara itong diring-diri sa mga sinabi ni Zam.
After cleaning hour, we went to our dormitory to rest. I showered first, hindi na sila nakapalag dahil sinarahan ko na sila ng pinto.
6:30 am when we went out our dorm. As usual, marami nanamang nag-aalmusal sa cafeteria. Malamang ay kagaya ko, tinamad nanaman silang magluto. Best thing for Zamara, she always had cookies and cupnoodles in her cabinet. Masyado siya pala-lamon. I always wondering if what was her secret. May iniinom ba siyang vitamins para hindi tumaba?
"Ano sayo? I'll eat pancake and bacon today. Ikaw? Kakain ka nanaman ng damo?" Zahirayah laughs.
Pati ako ay nakitawa na rin sa mga tinuran niya. Masaya siya ngayon. I have to manage myself to be joyful too. Nakamove on na kaya ito?
"I want chiken sandwich and… milk," I requested with delighful intonation.
"Okay. Just wait me here," she uttered and go.
I manipulate my phone as I wait. I open my acc and here I am, enjoying the view of my newsfeed about that chaos I've made. I feel embarassed about it. I feel like I was fooled.
I smirked by myself and look around. Ang iba ay nakatingin sakin. While the others, aren't looking and busy eating their meal.
Maya-maya pa ay dumating na si Zahirayah at umupo sa harap ko.
"That's your order, Ma'am." She offered my food.
I replied a smile and get it.
The clamor began to alive as I eat. Unti-unting umingay ang paligid dahil sa mga taong pumasok sa pinto. It was Zad, with Zindriach, Zeirajni and Zorrow. Zad's friend are really intimidating. Marami sila sa circle of friends niya and most of them, galing sa killaang pamilya like Zeirajni and Zindriach. Of course, knowing Zindriach, tss..
I higher my gaze to look at them. Papunta sila sa counter. Dumapo ang paningin ko kay Zad na ngayon ay nakikipagngitian sa mga babaeng malapit sa pinto.
When his eyes darted on me, my heart suddenly skipped from beating. It's almost rumbling inside. Parang isang malaking tambol.
He suddenly curved his lips for a mischievous grin and rolled his eyes on me before turning his gaze to Zin. Inakbayan niya ito at mas inilapit sa kaniya. I wonder, magkaibigan ba talaga sila?
Sa utak ko ay gusto ko siyang bugahan ng apoy. Kung humahaba nga lang ang kamay ko ay matagal ko na siyang nasampal o nasuntok kahit sa malayo lang. Naalala ko nanaman yung gabing iyon.
I later switch my sight on my food. Kung pwede lang magbasag ay binasag ko na ang hawak kong baso.
He's so annoying! Gusto ko nalang sanang ipabarang siya.
Maya-maya pa ay nakita ko na siyang palabas ng glass door. Nakaakbay parin siya kay Zin. Bahagya pa siyang tumingin sa akin ng napakayabang bago siya lumabas ng pinto. Sa inis ay inirapan ko na lamang siya.
"Zsol, ayos ka lang?" Zahirayah suddenly tapped my shoulder kaya naman napabaling ako sa kaniya.
"O-Okey lang ako. Hindi lang siguro maganda yung gising ko kaya ganito," saad ko.
"Sigurado kang ayos ka lang a." She smiled.
"Yea, ayos lang ako," sambit ko at ginantihan siya ng ngiti.
Matapos nun ay nagsimula na ang klase. I have classes this morning. May gaganapin pang meeting para sa leadership camp next week.
This day is such a foreign day for me. Kalahating araw palang ay parang pagod na pagod na ako. Somekind of my day that really comes in rarity. I'd like to know if I can live such a recluse man right now.
Can I leave Mathdeus for a while and go far away here?
Matapos ang pang huli kong klase ay halos inaantok na ako pauwi. But then, I remember that I have to do my punishment. Dahil tapos na sila Zam sa service hour nila ay ako nalang mag-isa ang naiwan para mag-linis. Today is friday. Panigurado ay nakauwi na sila sa kanilang bahay. Tuwing weekdays lang kase kami nag-istay sa dormitory.
I saw Zeirajni while I am walking. Ngumiti ito sa akin kaya't napangiti na lang din ako. Sometimes, I'm thinking if how I be friend with her. Sa tingin ko naman kase ay napakabait niya. She's the type of girl na nanahimik lang sa gilid minsan. Somekind of elusive girl.
"This is the last day of your community service, right?" tanong sa akin ni Mrs.Revago. Our Literature Prof.
"Yea. Why?" I answered.
"Sa library kana maglinis. Hindi na mabigat ang pagsasaayos ng mga libro," she said as her brow rased.
I realize how rude I am to answered her like she's just an ordinary person and not a proffesor. Bat nga ba ‘di ako nag- po man lang?
As she said, I went to the library room. Malawak ang buong kwarto. Sa harapang bahagi ang mga study tables at upuan habang ang natitirang malaking espasyo ay para sa mga naglalakihang bookshelves.
Wala sa kanyang desk ang library coordinator, walang iba kundi si Mr. Harckson Mathadeus. The superior's uncle and the third son of the Great Old Man's Mathadeus.
The desk beside the coordinator's desk is filled with books. Dito kase nila isinasauli ang hiniram nilang libro at bahala na ang organizer cleaner ng library para ilagay ito sa tamang shelf.
I walk closely to the study tables and get off my bag. I quietly place it in the chair far from the library's glass door.
Matapos iyon ay nagtungo na ako sa mga libro para kunin iyon at ilagay sa tama nilang shelf.
Silence filled the whole room. Ang tanging maririnig lamang ay ang maingay kong takong.
The books I am organizing is for Law course. Nahirapan pa akong hanapin kung saan ang tamang shelves ng mga ito. The last three books on my hand belongs to the tallest shelf in the library. Napabuntong hininga na lamang ako at naglakad pabaling sa open area.
I chose three chairs and lift it one by one goes infront of the tallest shelf. Pagkabuhat ko sa pangalawa ay ipinatong ko ito sa naunang upuan. When I came back to get the last chair, I was shocked when I saw Zad, smugly leaning on the glass door. He's smiling…idiot!
"K-Kanina ka pa ba diyan?" Why are you stuttering, Natasha!
"Yea. I almost watching you for 15 minutes," mayabang niyang wika.
"Why are you here?" tanong ko, sabay buhat sa ikatlong upuan at naglakad pabalik sa shelf.
"To watch you," he frugally answered.
I chuckled because of what I've heard. Is he trying to mock me? "Why do you watching me?" I ask again. Ipinatong ko na ang huling upuan sa dalawang upuan.
"Why are you asking?" his voice echoed on the whole room. Medyo malayo na ako sa kaniya ngunit rinig ko parin siya dahil dun.
"Kase gusto ko." I smirked.
He chuckled because of what I’ve answer. I heard his footsteps towards me and I felt bad about it. I lift the books on the floor and began to step my foot on the layered chairs.
"Aren't you moved-on in my kiss, Magnus? Seems like you're following me because of it." I rased my eyebrow even I know that he don't see my face.
I was about to put the books on the shelf's top when I felt him in my back. He glided his hands on my stomach and gently grab me down from the chairs. In just one blink, I already felt his nose behind my ears.
I was gasping for a bunch of air. I'm actually skipped from breathing for a seconds because of the rumbilng drums inside my chest. I feel like I'm suffocated. I feel like I'm loosing my sanity and my mind can't manage to digest all what happened for a while.
His hot breath on my nape is a torture. It makes me want to tickle and giggle. Matinding pagpipigil lamang ang ginagawa ko.
"I kissed too many girls, Zsol Natasha. And to all the lips I've tasted, you got the most powerful flavor that drives my senses insane," he murmured into my ears.
He suddenly pulled me closer to him.
"The sweet taste of cudberry and strawberies…And the fragrance of lemon and ivory…"
He let me go from his grip and now, I am watching him turning his back on me. Smugly grinning like he finally reached his triumph.
"It's your damn taste, Natasha. And it's addicting," he said and left me their, dumbfounded.