"Regrading to some articles Miss Keilee, is it true that you did that thing?" Someone asked me.
I took of my shades "Tsk I don't need to explain, believe what y'all think the truth I don't own your mind." I wear my shades again and walk like nothing happened.
I may seem that I don't care, but I do. Nasasaktan ako sa mga pinagsasabi nila sa articles. Actress Keilee Shin Herrera punch a guy who just want to autograph with her.
Pero hindi iyan ang totoong nangyari, they always believe to a perfect photo without analyzing it's background geez toxic people.
"Okay ka lang Kel?" My manager ask me scrolling at her iPad getting stress about the comments of people on twitter.
@trishanaa: ang pangit talaga ng ugali! She's not worth keeping on showbiz!
_elyna: How rude pathetic person, she's too intense that she can't stop herself. Shame on you Keilee! You don't deserve your popularity.
I rolled my eyes being disgust of what their comments. Shame on them more.
Kasabay kaming naglalakad ni Harley kanina nang may biglang humawak sa beywang ko at inabot ang autograph notebook niya. Uminit ang ulo ko sa gesture na ginawa niya sa akin it wasn't good kahit sa anong pattern dahil first of all hindi kami magkakakilala at second it's a sort of sexualising.
Bumuntong hininga ako kinuyom ang aking kamay at sinuntok ang panga ng lalaki. Napayuko ito sa sakit kaya naman sarkastiko akong ngumisi.
"W-What did you do Kel!" Harley scold me, massaging her forehead. "Baka may naka picture no'n at mag post ng fake news, gosh Kel!"
Habang nai-istress si manager sa ginawa ko ay nakikinig lamang ako sa headset ko habang naghihintay na makarating sa shoot. I will not be surprise kung mamaya ay may article na naman tungkol sa akin.
"Here's Kel again, laman kana naman ng article! Poor guy nasuntok ng walang kalaban-laban sa isang warfreak actress." Maarteng sambit ni Vanessa nang pumasok ako ng dressing room, nag m-makeup siya but why? No need naman kasi makapal na ang mukha niya plastik pa!
"Yeah I am why? Do you want to follow my steps?" I rolled my eyes.
"No need hindi naman ako warfreak katulad mo. Eww" maarte na naman niyang saad na sinisira ang mukha niya kahit sira naman na ito.
Tumawa ako at pumalakpak "Atleast I'm not plastic like you"
Kumunot ang noo niya at umalis sa upuan. Huh go away and don't come back.
Totoo namang plastik siya kasi sa off cam ay ang sungit, maarte at maldita pero pag on cam, ang bait, hindi maarte at palakaibigan. Plastic isn't.
Napatawa ako ng mahihin nang padabog siyang umalis, I won again and again.
"Lights camera, Action!" The director announced by his megaphone.
My role is being the mistress, it's cringing me out to be in this role but ano ang magagawa ko? The more the people hate me because of this role the more I know that I'm worth it to be awarded as the best actress.
I walk towards 'Pia' (the legal wife) confidently looking at his husband in a seductive way.
"Hi, who's this woman babe?" I fake a smile, nakita ko naman ang nakakunot na noo ng girlfriend niya, siya ay pinanlisikan ako ng mga mata. Oh dear you're not a beast so why would I be frighten of you huh?
Marahas niya akong kinaladkad at bigla ding hinablot ng girlfriend niya ang kaniyang kamay at sinampal.
"How dare you to fucking hurt me Brian! I trusted you! And that was my biggest regret cause I shouldn't!" She glared at Brian that is still holding my hands.
Binitawan niya ang aking kamay at niyakap si Pia "Babe she's just a random girl who wants to ruin us....please" nagmamakaawang ani niya.
I laugh "Oh gosh can you please stop lying on your ex girlfriend? you're already busted babe."
Kinuyom ng babae ang kaniyang kamay at sinugod ako "You! You damn mistress."
Naka krus lang ang aking mga braso habang natatawang tinitingnan ang expresyon niya ngayon. "I'm not the mistress, you are...." I said every words clearly and rolled my eyes. Walking away to this dumb event.
"Okay, Cut! Great acting Keilee." The director clap his hands complimenting me.
Tiningnan ko naman ulit si Vanessa na naka-upo sa may mga props looking at me in her dark aura. I bet she's furious deep inside now because of jealousy.
"Ang galing mo talaga bes" Reyleigh sat down beside me.
Kahit ganito ang ugali ko ay meron parin akong kaibigan, she's Reyleigh the one who's roleplaying Pia.
I genuinely smile at her, sa mga taong totoo at mabuti sa akin ako nakakangiti ng gan'to. She never judge me by my attitude cause she knows my past very well, she knows lot of details about me.
"Thank you Leigh, madadagdagan na naman ang bashers ko nito." pabiro kong sambit pero sa kalooblooban ko ay natatakot ako.
I'm scared of their comments again. The way they describe me and talk shits on me on social media makes me think, How can they judge you even they don't actually know your story? I sighed.
"Don't mind them, they're the proof that you made it! Gumana ang acting skills mo sa kanila dahil nagalit sila sa'yo, sa role mo." She seriously replied.
I love the way she makes me happy, Hindi ko kailanman naramdaman 'to sa iba ko pang kaibigan. She was my shoulder to cry on when a controversial issue popped out. I was depressed that time, all I can do is to cry and cry but one day I realized, bakit ba ako ganito? bakit kahit mabait ako ay nagaganito parin ako?
I smile at her "The shooting is done, tara sa beach?" anyaya ko.
Beach is my peace, I grew up on a beach and because of that I discovered surfing. I wasn't really good at it but it pero ilang beses ko ring nalampasan ang mga alon.
Sa tuwing may papalapit na malaking alon ay hindi takot ang nararamdaman ko kundi ang pagkamangha. Sinasalubong ko ito ng walang alinlangan, walang takot kahit na delikado ay palaging saya ang aking nararamdaman.
Waves are just like the challenges in our lives, in order to pass that challenge you should get through it.
"Sure, I will just get my bag." aniya tsaka pumunta sa may garage.
I told Harley that me and Reyleigh will do surfing, pumayag naman siya.
I brought my car so I won't need to call my driver kapag aalis na kami. "Which beach?"
"Wave Oceania" I replied
It's a beach where big waves for surfing exist, madalas dito ako bumibisita kasi ito ang sinuggest ni mommy noong naghahanap ako ng perfect place for surfing.
"Bakit gustong gusto mo ang pag su-surf, hindi ka ba natatakot?" She ask me looking at my photos while surfing.
I don't, surfing makes me feel at peace. Weird right? ang iba ay natatakot dahil sa laki ng mga alon na sasalubungin mo but me?
Ako itong taong gusto ang mga bagay na intense, dangerous at breathtaking. I don't know but it's me, that's my personal characteristics.
I ran towards the seashore the moment we arrived at the beach. The sun began to set and the wind blows a cold breeze.
Kinuha ko agad surfing board ko habang si Reyleigh ay nagpapalit pa. Me? I didn't ang sinuot kong croptop at maong shorts ay 'yon parin ang susuotin ko para mag surf. I'm too excited to waste my time.
"Ang bagal mo Leigh! Race tayo!" sigaw ko habang tumatakbo siya papalapit dala ang surf board niya.
Inilagay ko ang surf board sa buhangin at ganoon din ang ginawa niya.
"Ready...." ani ko na dumapa na sa ibabaw ng surf board.
"Set....." ani Leigh na nakangiti
"Go!...." we both shout and swim through the calm water.
It was serene but the moment we became farther away from the seashore, waves form. Nakisabay kami sa alon na maiiging binabalanse ang sarili sa surf board. Mine is color white habang kay Leigh ay kulay berde.
We both laugh when we fall from our surfboard at lumutang sa malamig na dagat. Sumakay ulit kami dito at mas sinabayan na ang malaking alon ngayon.
"Winner!" nagtatalon kong sigaw nang ako ang maunang nakarating sa dalampasigan.
Binuhat ni Leigh ang surfboard niya "I knew it! See you're really good than me on surfing." she playfully rolled her eyes.
Hindi ko alam 'yon ah? I rarely receive compliments from people, mostly mga hates ang natatanggap ko. Sanay na rin naman ako sa mga bagay na iyon pero do you know the feeling of being delighted to know that someone appreciate your skills and ability? That's what I am feeling now.
We checked in on the same suite with two beds para kahit papaano may privacy.
Nang natapos na kaming kumain ay lumabas na kami dala ang isang wine bottle at dalawang wine glass. Reyleigh was the one who loves drinking while I'm the one who's a good girl in drinking.
"Cheers!" we made a toast snd drink it looking at the dark sky filled with bright stars and of course my favorite, the full moon.
I leaned backwards and use my right hand for support and watch the small waves from the sea. Paghampas lamang ng alon, huni ng mga ibon at ang hindi gaanong kalakas na hangin ang naririnig namin, this is the peace that I mean. Away from toxic people and toxic society.
"Gosh I hate the role you know?....." ani ko habang naka Indian squat "Kasi of course maraming magagalit at I know na kahit first time kontra bida role ko ito ay maraming na akong bashers!" tumatawa kong pagke-kwento.
Leigh rolled her eyes and cross her arms "You're not the only one! I also hate mine 'no! Ang tanga kasi ng role at minsan nga gusto ko nalang ako ang mag direct pero hindi ako director eh. Hayst though it's a good story, tanga nga lang yung role ko." aniya tsaka uminom ng wine.
Napasapo ako sa noo nang ininom na niya ang ikatlong shot niya ng wine glass! I think I'm in a calamity now, baka malasing 'to at ma knock out! Wala naman 'tong masyadong problema pero kung uminom, wagas pa sa wagas!
Hindi ko pa nga natatapos ang una kong shot pero siya nasa ikatlo na?! What the, help me!!
"That's enough Leigh, you might drunk." kinuha ko ang wineglass na iinomin niya pa sana at straight na lalagokin!
Iniwan ko nalang muna ang wine bottle at ang dalawang wine glass tsaka hinatak si Leigh patayo. Yeah! she's already drunk, mahilig siyang uminom pero ang baba ng alcohol tolerance! Help me mommy.
Inakbay ko ang braso niya sa balikat ko tsaka naglakad papunta sa suite namin.
"Ang pretty mo talaga!" maarte niyang ani at niyakap ako.
I took a deep breathe and sighed "Lasing ka na nga naging baliw ka pa." bulong ko para hindi niya marinig. She might a bit conscious!
I had a trouble opening the door but then I did, marahan kong inihiga si Leigh at kinumutan. I went to the kitchen to get water and a medicine to the first aid, baka kasi magising siya at sumakit ang ulo! I put a sticky note on it 'Drink water and medicine if ever headache attacks you drunken girl:)' I wrote.
I sat down on my bed and get my phone from the side table. Huminga ako nang malalim bago buksan ang twitter ko.
The moment I opened it my notification was in number of millions. I opened some of it but I can't even continue reading their tweets, nabasa ko rin ang statement ni Harley na kinwento ang totoong nangyari kanina. I was relief when some of people believed but ang iba naman ay panay bash parin.
Pinili ko nalang munang talikuran ang mga nangyayari sa akin ngayon at lumabas para panoorin ang dagat.
"I'm tired of being judged... I-I'm tired with it!" I shouted even no one will hear, even no one will care.
I wipe my tears using the back of my hands and sit down on the sand watching the waves.
"Ang ingay mo naman...." aniya na nakatingin lang deretso sa kalangitan "May ibang tao dito ah? na maririnig at mag-aalala sa'yo." then he walk towards me and sat down beside me. Tiningnan niya ako sa aking mga mata at pinunasan ang natitira kong luha gamit ang daliri niya.
"Huwag kang umiyak, alon lang iyan ng buhay mo at malalampasan mo rin." aniya tsaka ngumiti.
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