"Da dad daddy .." I stammered.
"You're really useless! You've done nothing good to this family!" My father's angry language.
I didn't cry because I thought it was useless. My heart and mind are tired.
I don't want to be tired at first.
I turned to daddy and looked into his eyes.
I saw various emotions in his eyes. Anger, hatred, resentment and what what else.
I feel like I'm going crazy thinking about what he's going to do.
"Dad" I said softly
"I'm sorry" I whispered
"You're such a failure!" her father's emphatic language.
"I know" i replied sparingly and just bowed.
I can't imagine that a ten year old like hme would experience such a painful event.
It seems like only yesterday I was still having fun, that's all there is to it.
From that day on, I became unfamiliar with people, especially with dad.
I'm afraid of making mistakes, It's like when I move I feel like I'm going to die when the people around me.
I don't want to add to dad's burdens.
He hardly ever comes home and if he comes home he will be drunk or maybe he will just hurt me.
Because my face just reminds me of what happened to mommy.
It looks like mommy's case and that's hurts me so much.
My face is ready to hurt, when they see me but they feel sorry for me, they will be annoyed or they will be told that "There was the child when she was raped" she looks like her mother, maybe that will happen to her too.
Why are those people are so inconsiderate? Don't they know the feeling of being lost? Then they will still be rude?
every time I hear their words I am crushed, They insult mommy as well as when I am human.
Such celebrities are debilitating but have no appreciation for each other.
I'm just strengthening my heart for mommy.
"It's all for mommy" I whispered to myself with a smile.
I just got out of the school I was studying when I remembered something.
"Valentines day today I have to give flowers to mommy to make her feel better" i said smiling.
I went to the side of the school and approached the artificial flower seller.
I hurried to the car to get home immediately.
"I'm excited to see mommy" I whispered softly.
When I arrived at the mansion I quickly got out of the car to give the flower to mommy.
I was about to enter mommy's room when I heard someone talking.
"Your wife is suffering from depression, it was also caused when it happened to her five years ago" The doctor said sadly.
"To tell you honestly Mr. Sandoval your wife's illness is getting worse Physically, Emotionally and Mentally now he needs you more. And if there are any things that can remind him of his past please remove those cases that can trigger her more" added by the doctor.
"Especially now that she's getting to the point where she's hurting herself. During the time I was checking up on her I must say that her illness is getting worse and it needs to be resolved"
Dad just sighed and looked at mommy who was just stunned out the window.
I saw how my dad wiped his tears.
Its really hurt seeing my mom without emotion like I am being killed every day. It's like my heart is being stabbed over and over again. There is no end to the pain.
Five years .. It's been like that for five years. nor does she speak. she wouldn't even mention my name.
"I miss my mom, so much"
The doctor left and I approached mom.
I took a brush first and combed her long hair.
"Mommy I have something for you." I smiled even though she couldn't see me because I was behind her.
I took from my back pack the 3 roses I bought earlier at school.
"Mommy here please oh, Happy Valentines Day! I love you mommy !!" I cried as I hugged mommy.
"Ah I lo ove you to o ba by" stammered mommy. To my great delight that she spoke I jumped.
"Mommy are you okay?" I asked crying.
Mommy just nodded and hugged me.
The amount that mommy and I did that day I told what we did at school as well as all the activities I participated in.
I also told mommy that my exam scores were high.
I also told mommy about my classmate's brother because his sister said she was going to make her debut, so she invited me.
"Mommy, what's the feeling of the debutant?" I asked mommy as we hugged on her bed.
"It's like a fairytale child, you're the princess and then you feel like you're the most beautiful of all" Mommy said with a smile.
Now I just saw her smile again after 5 years. but I guess it's worth the wait.
"Mom, aren't you still here when I make my debut?" I suddenly asked.
I also don't know why that came out of my mouth, to think that I'm only 15 years old and excited to debut.
Mommy averted her eyes and just changed the subject.
We talked for so long with mommy that I didn't realize it was 8pm.
I got up from mommy's bed and straightened my messy clothes.
"LiaH, baby let's go to the garden first" mommy's nanny smiled.
"Okay" I politely replied.
Going to the garden, we immediately sat on the wooden chair and looked up at the sky.
"Liah, the day will come when I will be a shining star too" mommy said weakly.
I turned my attention to mommy with what pain I felt.
It was as if I was suddenly enveloped in fear.
I'm nervous about what will happen next.
I hope it's not right I guess, I hope I'm wrong.