I entered the best university in Surabaya, at the elite University of Surabaya.
I study while working, but I work earlier than college. During the first time I entered college, which was often called Ospek, I had to share my thoughts, share my energy, to study and work, on the first day of Ospek I was given a powerful exam. when that day I had to go to work the night shift, while at 6 am I had to do Ospek on campus, there my mother helped me prepare all the needs for Ospek even though I didn't sleep until midnight, she helped me. On the first day I left in a hurry -hurried without sleeping for 1 hour, until I arrived at campus 15 minutes late I had to run from the 1st floor to the 10th floor because the elevator was full, when I got there I was severely punished by seniors for being late for inspection.
Senior: "You're a new kid, the first day you dare to come late." His tone was hard as he hit the wall.
Senior 2: "Don't pass it already, brother, so the ospek will be repeated next year." his tone while mocking me.
Senior 1: "You now come with me to the head of study program." while pulling me to be invited to the Head of Study Program room. When I got to the Head of Study Program room, I and several friends who were late were asked to sign a statement which stated that, if I repeat the incident late again, I will not pass the Ospeknya and will repeat it next year.
Head of Study Program: "You heard that if you enter my room again, it means you have a problem, you must remember that you never meet me because the one who meets me must be a student with a problem," said the Head of Study Program.
After that we came out of the head of study room, my seniors were still angry" and finally punished us again.
Senior 1: "You have to go up and down stairs 10 times from floors 1 to 10 west, then floors 1 to 10 east, if you haven't finished carrying out your punishment don't expect you to be able to enter class, you understand." he said in a loud voice.
My friends and I took a deep breath, we answered: "Understood, Sis".
Ospek has passed me and my friends passed the Ospek and a series of activities, I went to college smoothly, the first semester I went well, with satisfactory grades, I went through the second semester well with satisfactory results, I started to have a lot of friends Semester 3. I went through this semester well even though I had to live with the work environment, in semester 3 there was an incident where I was asked to make a decision whether I should continue my studies or I prefer my job at that time my position was quite high in one of the big hospital in surabaya, my boss asked me to choose between the two options. i really confused if I choose my job my family's dreams and dreams will not come true and will be continuously oppressed by his extended family, if I choose my education, I must be willing to leave this high-paying job, at first I forced to work while studying I still forced it My boss couldn't tolerate me anymore so I had to decide right away. I asked for time to think so that I could think as wisely as possible, so that all the decisions I took did not harm anyone, especially myself. Finally I decided to face my boss. After college I facing him, with a heavy heart I have to face him.
Me: "Good afternoon ma'am, sorry to disturb your time, I ask permission to negotiate with you." I said worriedly.
boss: "ok mustika have you decided which one you choose, you keep working or you choose to focus on your education, you can't choose both, if you force to choose both, when your focus is on your education the patients in the hospital will be neglected, and if you choose your job, your education will drop. You know you work responsible for someone's life, while you are in college you are also responsible for your future and your parents, medical college requires more focus so you can't choose both." he said to me.
he gave me a look until I thought twice about choosing to work while studying. I said to him: "I'm sorry ma'am, I'm still having a hard time choosing this, it's very hard, my salary is very high, I'm also heavy on my education. live ma'am." I said to him..
she gave me a look until I thought about deciding to work while studying. I said to him: "I'm sorry ma'am, I'm still having a hard time choosing this, it's very hard, my salary is very high, I'm also heavy on my education. ." I said.
boss: "ok, now just focus on your studies, later when you have an internship you do an internship here, later when you finish your profession you return to service here, how do you agree or not?" said the mother above.
Me: "OK mom, thank you for the opportunity I was allowed to join a great team in one of the big hospitals in Surabaya, I thank you for all the knowledge, thank you for the sense of kinship while I worked here. Sorry in advance my mother I decided to focus on my medical education. Thank you for the excellent offer. I will take care of all the things about my resignation letter, hopefully when I return to this house the warm feeling of family will not change." I said to my boss.
boss: "Well, Mustika, thank you very much for your dedication to this hospital, success for you, I hope all your dreams come true, come true, we will welcome you as our big family, with the same sense of family," he replied to me,
I finally decided to resign from the hospital, I decided to focus on college.
semester 3 was passed with various dramas, I am grateful that it went smoothly with the best results. I entered semester 4 where this semester was colored with fear, because the news we heard from our seniors or our seniors said that in semester 4 there will be a student evaluation system, if the grades students who do not meet the targets of the university will be evaluated by the university, that these students will be expelled or retained with a lot of balance. at first I thought it was just unclear news, so I was still relaxed to face this semester, at the end of the exam I was told by my lecturer that this semester was the evaluation semester, I was shocked and our friends were worried about our achievement index. finally the exam scores came out I'm grateful that my grades are still good, I can get through these times well friends only come when there is a need, inevitably I have to filter friendships and in this semester friendships are starting to be few and really sincere, semester 6 went smoothly, but when I stepped on semester 7 this is where the tension started, the situation was very tense where I had to After completing my education in this semester, I was required to have a proposal trial and a thesis trial at that time I was faced with professors or the great one, my heart was pounding when facing him. My trial was postponed due to a miscommunication, then next month my trial finally went smoothly and the results of my trial were perfect. During this trial I found out that my friends were sincerely accompanying me until my final struggle while pursuing undergraduate education.

semester 8 we have completed all educational responsibilities, until it arrived at the time of graduation which went smoothly.
I continued my professional education as a doctor through various stages, First, to get an S.Ked., it took me about 3.5 years. Of course, this time span will be different for each student, depending on faculty policies, student tenacity, and other factors. After getting a medical degree, it doesn't mean you can immediately become a doctor. I have to go through the stages of professional education or become a Koas first, for 1.5 years, Koas activities will dwell directly in the hospital, to help doctors carry out their duties. At the end of the stage of professional education (koas), I met with the Mini Clinical Evaluation Exercise (mini CEX) exam to get the title of dr (doctor).
After I got the dr degree, then I had to take other exams, namely the Medical Professional Education Student Competency Test (UKMPPD).
The UKMPPD exam is used to get a doctor's oath. There are two forms of exams, namely written exams and OSCE exams which are held nationally which are held every 3 months for 1 year.

After taking the doctor's oath, I was not allowed to open a practice freely. The next stage, you have to follow one more program, namely, the Indonesian Doctor Internsip Program (PIDI) or internship for one year.
In the Internsip Program, I worked directly like a doctor in a government hospital. Of course, still under the direct supervision of a senior doctor.
Internsip program is used to strengthen skills and knowledge, before becoming a doctor independently. I can also have a certain amount of salary at this stage.
Well, after completing the internship program stage, I will get an STR (Surat Tanda Registrasi) issued by the Indonesian Medical Council.
After receiving the Registration Certificate, I can apply for a Practice Permit (SIP) to establish a practice independently, and can continue to the next level, which is to apply for specialist education. and finally I graduated with a perfect and earned my degree as a doctor.After I carried out my entire educational process, I began to open myself up to getting to know men, at this time many who approached me came from various professions, ranging from specialist doctors, my seniors, the army, navy, air force to the police. Of the many who approached me, only a few people were included in the criteria for the father and mother, at first those who were included in the criteria for the mother and father were a man with the initials T, this child came from the army unit, this child is very close to the mother and father. my sister, he said he used to think of my mother and sister as his own family
, from that moment I started to open my heart, I tried to realize maybe he was really serious and sincere. At that time Mr. T came home from duty in Aceh, he came to my house, I thought positively maybe he was really serious. He said to my parents if he wants to marry me.
Mr. T: "Father, mother, how are you doing, I'm sorry, before I came here, I meant to propose to the daughter of the father and mother, is it allowed?" the question he asked my parents.
mother: "That's right, don't joke with what you say, you are a man who comes to a woman's house without being with your mother and father, so you want to ask for my son." said the mother to Mr. T.
Mr. T: "I'm serious, ma'am, if allowed next year I will bring my parents" he said.
Father and Mother: "We leave it to Mustika, how do you want it, how do you want to know you are waiting for next year." said father and mother.
I replied: "yes just see".
I don't know, when Mr. T was back on duty in Aceh, he suddenly uploaded a video with his girlfriend, from that incident I became traumatized by the name servant of the state, I tried to explain to my mother and father, to my disappointment, he answered me: "It's okay, not yet. mate means". he said to me, then I replied: "it's no longer possible for me to be next to someone like I've been hurt enough." I said to parents.
in the end our relationship ran aground even though it had existed for several years. a year later I opened my heart again, I tried to move forward from yesterday's deep wound.