Days after malibing si Tyrone ay tinawag muli ako sa presinto after reporting the text I got last night.
Baka talaga ang salarin ay mismong taong ito. Kung ganoon man, bakit niya inaabot sa dahas? Nanginginig ako habang iniisip ang posibleng mangyari. Ako ba ang isusunod niya?
"Alam mo ba kung sino ang nagsend neto?" Asked the police as he inspects the text I got. I shook my head as an answer.
"We will investigate further miss," Binalik niya ang aking cellphone, "We will call for you if you're need for assistance and updates." Tumayo ito at inalok ang aking kamay agad ko mamang tinanggap at nag hand shake kaming dalawa.
"Please be safe," sambit nang isa sa mga police.
Tumango lang ako at lumabas ng station. I'm still wearing some disguise para hindi ako makilala, buti nalang professional yung mga police na nandito kaya walang problema. Hindi din naman ako kasikatan locally pero I'm just preventing in any case may makakakilala sa akin. Malaking gulo na yun, and I'm really tired to deal with anything.
Hindi ko alam kung saan ako pupunta, but I just kept on driving. I want to take my mind off to the things that's happening right now. Come to think of it, nagsimula lahat ng trahedya when that weird text before the victory party of the company. May koneksyon ba ito sa nangyayare ngayon?
Kinalaunan, I found myself on a bar. Might as well have a little drink? Wala naman sigurong masamang mangyayari diba?
Malapit na mag alas-siete na ng gabi kaya maraming tao pagpasok ko. I guess it's okay to take off my hat and my jacket since the lights are dim and dark. Wala sigurong makakakilala sa akin diba? Ah damn my head hurts by the events I have experience, masasabi ko nalang rin minsan na wala na ako sa tamang pag-iisip.
Trixie never misses a day to contact me, nakakakonsensya din minsan because I am too drained on answering her texts or calls, but she kept on asking if I am okay and other things related to my health.
I ordered tequilla since that's the only drink I know ever since I joined the socialite world, hindi naman kasi ako palainom or anything. I can feel people staring at me at halos natawa naman ako. Sino ba naman kasing mag-aakala na may babaeng pupunta ng bar na nakaganito? I'm just wearing a pajama and a sleeveless shirt. Too casual for this bar because I'm not in the mood for a make over.
Ilang shot ang ginawa ko and I can feel the dizziness, maybe this is not a good idea. When I was drunk before, Tyrone was there to help me out.
Oh Tyrone...
Ano ba ang ginawa mo Tyrone? Hindi mo deserve ang nangyayari. Hindi ka dapat namatay. Dahil ba sa akin? Kung alam ko lang na magnet ako ng malas, hindi na sana kita ginawang manager... Or hindi nalang talaga sana ako naging artista. It feels like there's trouble whenever I am.
I miss your nagging, Mr Manager.
I groaned, papatak na naman ang luha. Pumikit ako ng mahigpit upang mapigilan ito at huminga ng malalim.
"Please let me go.." pagmamakaawa kong ani sa mga hindi pamilyar na tao. Tiningnan ako sa paligid dahil meron ding ibang bata na sobrang payat at dumi na nakaupo lang sa tabi.
"Patahimikin mo nga yan." Isang lalake ang nagsalita.
I miss my papa and mama. The last thing I remembered is having fun with them at the carnival. Hindi ko alam kung nasaan ako ngayon ngunit sigurado ako na sila ang kumuha sa akin.
I almost puke when a little girl passed by me. Her whole body is covered with blood, may dala-dala itong kutsilyo at blanko ang ekspresyon ng mukha neto.
"Sh*t nagrerebelde na naman si Clara!" A man shouted at pumasok ang limang matatandang lalake. The girl raised her right hand, holding the knife and said, "GO TO HELL!"
A tap on my shoulder snapped me back to reality.
"Hey, mind if we dance?" A stranger asked. He's tall, slick jet black hair, and he's wearing a Hawaiian t-shirt with short. Huh, casual too. I also can't deny that he's charming and cute.
"Sure." I smiled and took his hands with a shaky tone. Ano pa nga ba ang rason kung bakit ako nandito? Para makalimot. Dancing with a stranger tonight will be my first time too.
I will do anything for the world to stop sending me those nightmares, kahit ilang segundo lang. I want to breath.
Anything is fine....
"You're so beautiful."
...to forget nightmares.
"Thank you." Without hesitation, I kissed him and he kissed me back. We were making out in the dance floor. It was smooth at first, but then it gets wild. His kisses went down on my neck as we dance along the crowds. Ang alcohol na aking nalalasahan mula sa kaniyang bibig ay mas lalong nagpahilo sa akin.
I will do anything for a moment of forgetting.
In a blink of an eye, we are in the bathroom. We continued making out. His hands are everywhere. Massaging my thighs up to my boobs.
I am so drunk that I could not say a thing. All I did was groan. Ano nga ba ang susunod na mangyayare? Hindi ko din alam.
"What the--dude! Ano ba ang problema mo?" The familiar perfume of the man I danced earlier was gone. Hindi ko maaninag ng maayos ang nangyayare ngunit naririnig ko ang sigawan ng mga taong nag aaway sa aking harapan.
I groggily stood up to get out ngunit isang malalaking braso ang humawak sa aking bewang.
"I'll fvcking kill you." Rinig ko sa isang malalim na boses na nagsasalita.
A familiar scent reached my nose, I can't be wrong. This smell... it's blood!
"Argghh.." Ang sakit na ng ulo ko at wala na akong lakas pa para itulak kong sino mantong nakahawak sa akin. My mind is going blank and I passed out after a few seconds.