Dear Future Boyfriend,
It's been awhile since Kuya Liam and I argue. I was so mad because of what he did. I wanted to talk to him about the issue. He ended up becoming someone I don't know. I was really scared and mad at him.
Kung mag aaway man tayo in the near future I want you to talk to me so we can always work things out. We should always communicate. Sabi nga nila lahat ng bagay naaayos sa magandang usapan. I want you to tell me everything that hurts you, bother you and everything that make you overthink. When we talk about the issue, I know we'll be able to figure things out.
Sa mga ganitong panahon hindi ko maiwasan na isipin na ako lang mag isa at wala akong maka kausap. Si penelope kasi ay laging busy kay Trevor. Ayoko naman istorbohin siya dahil hindi lang naman sa akin umiikot ang buhay ni Penelope.
Gusto na kita ma meet. Ikaw ba si Cameron? Kung hindi man ikaw, tandaan mo yung araw na to. Sobrang lungkot ko. Gusto kong mag rant, ilabas lahat ng sama ng loob na meron ako pero wala akong mapaglabasan ng sama ng loob.
I feel so sad today.
Love,
Rana
CHAPTER 5
"What happend?" Tanong saamin ni daddy. Walang sumagot saamin ni Kuya.
"Wala bang mag-sasalita sainyong dalawa?"
He was always like this. Whenever Liam and I argue dad always push us to talk about what went wrong.
But right now, I don't even want to think about it.
"Let them eat first" mommy said. She looks at me and nod her head.
Ayoko muna sanang sumabay kumain sakanila but I have no choice nasa bahay si daddy so we need to eat together.
Number one rule ni dad ay kumain ng sabay sabay.
"We had a small misunderstanding dad"
Misunderstanding my ass. How can he push someone like that? Para syang walang kapatid na babae.
"Bakit may pasa ang braso mo?" Tsaka ko lang narealize na may pasa nga ako sa braso. Kaya pala kagabi pa masakit ang braso ko. Ngayon ko lang nakita to.
I saw guilt in his eyes. Na-guguilty kana ba sa ginawa mo saakin kahapon?
"Just a small accident lang po sa door knob ng door ko dad. Nothing to worry about po"
I hate lying.
"Okay but I still need to know kung bakit nag away kayo kagabi"
I sigh. I don't really wanna talk about it. Thinking about it make my blood boil.
"May pasok pa po ako dad"
"No, walang aalis hangga't hindi kayo nag kaka ayos"
Nakakainis. Bakit kailangan ko pang madamay sa ginawa nya?
"It's my fault dad. I got carried away last night and ended up hurting Rana"
"What was the first thing na itinuro ko sayo Liam Sebastian?" I can say na galit si daddy ngayon. Whenever he use that tone I know he's mad. Freakin mad.
Mom tried to stop daddy but she can't.
"Not to hurt Rana and other girls" Kuya whispher and he looked down. Im getting scared na din. Its been a while since the last time I saw dad getting angry.
"Charles" Mom called dad's name.
"I'm sorry dad. I didn't mean to hurt Rana."
Humarap saakin si daddy kaya napa yuko din ako. Hindi ko kayang salubungin ang mga tingin ni daddy.
"And how about you? Bakit nag sisinungaling ka?"
I bit my lower lips "Natatakot po ako dad. Na baka masaktan mo si Kuya. Ayos lang naman po ako I know hindi naman po sinasadya ni kuya at kasalanan ko din naman dahil masyado po akong naging pakyalamera"
I heard him take a sigh "From now on Liam, ihahatid sundo mo ang kapatid mo."
"Ayoko ng maulit pa ang nangyaring ito. Whatever reason you have you shouldn't hurt your sister, Liam. Kayong dalawa na nga lang hindi pa kayo mag kaka sundo sa maliit na bagay? Paano pa kapag wala na kami ng mommy nyo?"
I don't know kung ano ang pinag huhugutan ni dad but one thing I know is he hate violence
"Hindi na po mauulit" sabay naming sagot ni Kuya.
Hindi na ako naka pasok sa unang klase ko dahil sa nangyari kanina. Kaya nag stay nalang ako sa library at nagbasa ng notes ko.
Habang nagbabasa ako may tumigil na pares ng sapatos sa harapan ko. Pagtingala ko nagulat ako dahil si Asher ang nasa harapan ko ngayon.
"Can you move your bag?" Utos nito na may halong pag kairita?
Mabilis kong inalis ang bag ko na naka patong sa upuan.
Umupo ito sa tabi ko.
"Do you have some cookies?" He asked.
"Wala" maikling sagot ko.
After what you did may gana ka pang tanungin ako kung may cookies akong dala? Inaasar mo ba talaga ako?
"Tsk"
He lean his head on the table and Asher closed his eyes.
Kung inaantok sya bakit hindi sya matulog sakanila?
"Wake me up when the bell rang"
Inuutusan nya ba ako? Grabe'ng ugali meron si Asher. Kung hindi lang sya pinsan ni Penelope hindi ko sya ka-kausapin.
I used to be afraid of him but not now. Dahil nakakairita sya.
"Rana"
He open his eyes pero naka lean pa din ang ulo nya sa table.
Ngumiti ako ng pilit "Hm?"
Kailan pa tayo naging close para tawagan mo ako gamit ang pangalan ko?
"Stop baking a cookie. Hindi masarap"
"What?" Gulat kong tanong. Buti nalang ay hindi ako sumigaw dahil baka palabasin ako.
"The cookie, hindi masarap"
"Nang aasar kaba?"
"I'm telling the truth"
Ngayon ko lang narinig na may magsabi saakin na hindi masarap ang cookie na gawa ko.
Napaka ungrateful nya! Bakit ba nya kasi kinain ang bigay kong cookie kay cameron!
"Bakit mo kinain? Hindi pala masarap"
"QUIET PLEASE!"
"You shouldn't---" hindi ko na narinig ang sinabi nya dahil bigla nalang tumunog ang bell.
Mabilis akong tumayo at lumabas ng library para hindi nya ako mabahol.
Nakakairita na talaga sya. How dare him!
Napa isip tuloy ako. What if hindi talaga masarap ang cookie na ginawa ko? Nakakahiya dahil binigyan ko pa naman si Cameron.
"Shit!" Sigaw ko dahil bigla nalang may lumipad na spaghetti kung saan at tumama sa mukha ko.
"Oh my ghad. I'm sorry" I know her. She's Kayleigh. The bully!
Everyone was laughing at me right now. What the hell?
"I'm sorry, it slip in my hand" she's smirking right now.
"Wha--" I didn't get to finish what I'm trying to say dahil bigla nalang may lumipad na Spaghetti somewhere at tumama sa mukha ni Kayleigh.
"Ohhhhhhh"
"What the hell!" Naiiritang sigaw nito.
I saw Asher handling a bottled water and a spaghetti.
Parang alam ko na kung ano ang gagawin nya.
"Asher!" I called him but he didn't look back.
Napa pikit nalang ako dahil ibinuhos nya sa ulo ni Kayleigh ang hawak nyang spaghetti at tubig.
What the hell just happend?