A mind is full of desire, anger, and trouble. As I went deeper into the forest, I noticed that none of the wolves from the other tribes were there. Even though I was in terrible pain, I let myself turn into a wolf and run through the dense forest at night. I didn't know where I was going. There are a lot of insects singing right now, which makes my heart feel heavy. I don't know what to do about the pain I always feel because I don't know what to do.
When I stood on the edge of the cliff and looked down at the whole colony, I thought, "Everything is about to go very wrong."
Just an hour ago, I was here, and then I left. It used to be a beautiful place, but now it looks like it's in ruins, and there's not much reason to think it will ever be as beautiful as it once was. I sat down even though I knew I could fall if I stayed in this position. I don't have any regrets after all.
“Akila!” Since then, a guy who has always been standing close to me said something to me. Even though I know I should be crying when I look at him, I don't feel like I have any tears in my eyes.
He came after me when he saw me running in this direction. He was walking nearby when he said, "I'm looking for you."
I stand my ground at the edge of the cliff, but he runs up behind me in an instant and grabs my back to keep me from falling. I smiled at him but kept a blank look on my face. I told him that it seemed like everyone was looking out for me, but all he did was look at me with a worried face.
"Let's not be here," he said quietly, but I could tell from the look in his eyes that he was worried about me, just like my mother and father were before they died.
The smile on my face made me cry, and I let the tears fall. He took me to the rock formation, which was deep in the woods and surrounded by tall trees. We looked around at the broken things that our tribe had left behind. Our tribe seems to be the only one that made it out alive, which makes me angry at the tribes that were to blame for what happened to us.
"What have we done to deserve this?" I scream, and all he does is stare at me while letting me let out everything that has been building up inside me.
"How could someone act this way toward us!” I began this while I couldn't stop crying because I was in a lot of pain. I don't know how this will end, but I'm pretty sure it won't end as long as we keep our mouths shut. No matter how far this goes, we, and I, in particular, will fight for them. I thought he was trying to hug me, but that made me feel even more alone.
"I'll always be here for you," he told her to make her feel better. I said those words over and over, but when I looked around, no one was there.
Everyone gives up their lives for me, and I don't want the guy who has been with me through everything for the rest of my life to have to do the same.
“Don't say that. I don't want to lose you either," I said, wiping away the tears that were running down my cheeks. He's looking at me and has his hands on my face. From the way he looked at me, he seemed to be getting more and more lonely and sad about what had happened.
"Even though we've lost everything, Akila, I don't want to lose this battle.” I thought there was still a chance when he said, "This isn't over yet, I'll fight."
I gave him a friendly smile, and he kissed me on the forehead in return. I saw this as a sign that he would always be there for me. The last tear of the day has been shed, and from now on, I will never stop looking for the justice that my whole colony deserves until I find it. If I knew they wouldn't have to pay for what they did to us, I'd kill each one of them, and I wouldn't be able to find peace in my life. I make a solemn promise to everyone in my tribe.
He whispered, "Let's fight together," and then he kissed me on the lips, which made my eyes turn green. I nod at him and then stand up.
When I looked over the edge of the cliff, I thought the full moon was a little bigger than usual. I let out a scream of pain. “I will never, ever give up! Never, ever!" I wailed and cried out in pain because the flames and the dead werewolves made me want to fight again.
When I thought about how my mother and father both died from the same thing, I clenched my fists, and the numbness came back. Before I looked at the tribe's clan, I said something in a whisper about being saved.
“Ah! I promise you all that I will never, ever stop fighting! I tried to talk to myself and get control of myself, but I couldn't. While the last tear fell to the ground. My mind jumped to a picture of the same person, but this time he was wearing a black hood.
"You killed my parents, and I will also kill you. I will kill you and everyone else you have with you. This is what I said, and I promise I'll never forget or stop forgiving you.” I can say this now that I've had some time to think about things. Right now, I have a strong urge to get what I think is coming to me.
"We're just getting started here. Wait for me to arrive until I send each of you away!” I yelled at the rock face of the mountain, and Faolan turned into a wolf and moaned in response.
"I- Akila Cryses! Will no longer be Akila! You'll have to pay for what you have done, but you'll never find out that I'm hiding behind a fake name. I will get even with you all, and you will never find out that I, the daughter of the alpha you killed, am the one who will do it.”
“ I-Akila will no longer let their fears control her! I will fight for everyone, including and especially myself.”
And on that night, I told everyone that I was going to stop being the person I was "I'll make you all pay! From the first to the last generation of your ancestors! I'm not going to let any of you breathe again until I die!”
As I struggled for air and looked at the white moon, I said something. Faolan just looked at me. I looked at the moon again and again.
“So who are you right now?” He asked me this question with a smirk of revenge on his face.
"Who is this brave and smart wolf?" I smiled at him and then turned back to look at the moon.
“Asena Barlowe.”
"Starting today, you can call me by that name."