Disclaimer:
This is a work of fiction. Unless otherwise indicated, all the names, characters, businesses, places, events and incidents in this book are either the product of the author's imagination or used in a fictitious manner. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, or actual events is purely coincidental.
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Sour Series:
Sour 1: Sour Taste of Selene (Completed)
Sour 2: Sour Love of Seyene (Completed)
Sour 3: Sour Faith of Serene
Sour 4: Sour Luck of Sexene
Sour 5: Sour Life of Seqene
The story may contains spoiler of the first and second stories of the series, I advice to read the first and second book before this. There are scenes with profanities, situations that could trigger someone like cheating and sensual activity. Read at your own risk.
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Prologue
"What do you think will happen to the boys we left?" I asked as I gave them the beers. Ilang taon na ba simula noong umalis ako sa Pilipinas? I don't know. I lost count.
What I knew is that I am fine with the yesrs I am away from him. I felt so contented working and using my own name.
Gusto kong matawa sa dami ng napagdaan namin ngunit sa huli ay narito ako, piniling lumayo at talikuran ang mga responsibilidad sa Pilipinas.
"Why? Wanna go home now?" hindi ko binigyan ng sulyap si Christian. Inaba ko ang sarili sa panonood sa kalawakan.
"I want but its been years and I already felt contented here" I said giving deep meaning to my words.
Thinking going back home feels new. Hindi na gaya noon pero kailangan. Kailangan kong umuwi para itama ang mga naging mali.
 
"You all know that you can't stay like these, you have lives and family left there" Christian added to my thoughts.
Napasinghap ako. He is right.
"I suggest you all figured out what ou should do before it gets to late." he said before he bid his good bye.
Kung noon siguro ay mauuna na ako sa pagsasalita ngunit sa sinabi ni Christian ay nanghina ako. Nababagabag ako ngunit alam ko sa sarili ko kung ano ang tama sa mali.
Pinanood ko si Seyene na humiga sa damuhan ng makitang mas kumportable nga iyon ay tumabi na ako sa kaniya. From here we can see how much beautiful the night sky is.
Gustong gusto ko ang katahimikang naghari sa amin. Tila pare-parehas kaming napaisip sa sinabi ni Christian. I want to go back where it all started but where? May babalikan pa ba ako?
"I am always wondering about that situation, what will happen to us if we go back there or we still have places there?" I voice out my thoughts.
Paano nga ba ako napunta sa ganitong sitwasyon? Dahil lang sa isang pangyayari, nasira na ang lahat. From the promise and to the faith of love I had.
All I remembered is that...
My phone beeped inside my pocket. Sunod sunod iyon kung kaya't chineck ko.
Sa nanginginig na kamay ay binuksan ko ang message ng isang hindi kilalang numero.
'From: Unknown
Hi:)'
After that, she sent pictures. My mind went blank that the phone slipped from my hands. Mas lalong nag umapaw ang pinaghalong sakit at galit sa akin.
"What the fuck, Noah?!" sigaw ko. Hindi ko na napigilan ang hikbi ko. Pinulot niya ang cellphone ko at tinignan ang laman ng mensahe.
"It wasn't true" akmang lalapit siya ng pinigilan ko siya.
"Don't touch me! Nakakadiri ka! Nandidiri ako sayo!" I shouted. Napaupo ako at tinakpan ang mukha.
The pictures are him topless while Farrah is beside her, tanging ang comforter ang nakatabon sa katawan niya. They slept together.
Kaya ba hindi siya umuuwi dahil may iba siyang tinutulugan? Is this why he is seems cold?
"Leave!" I shouted and stood up.
"I didn't do that"
"Liar! Is this why you didn't want to come home?!"
Nakita ko ang panghihina sa kaniya kasabay ng mabilisang pag iling. "Huwag kang lalapit!"
"Leave! I want to be alone" sambit ko at pinunasan ang mga luha. Tinignan niya ako na parang nagmamakaawa ngunit sumunod din agad.
I spent the time while he is outside crying on my knees. Hanggang kailan ako iiyak?
How could he do that?
Farrah. It is her again but this time, I am not mad at her. She perfectly fit to him. She can provide anything Noah wants.
Thoughts of them making out entered my mind. Sinabunutan ko ang sarili ko at malakas na sumigaw. Frustration, pain and disappointment is filling my inside.
Why? Why did he cheat on me?
Pagkatapos mag impake ay lumabas na ako, bitbit ang maleta. Mabilis na umangat ang tingin sa akin ni Noah. Bumaba ang tingin niya sa mata ko sa hawak kong maleta.
Kalmado na ako. Ayoko na rito.
"Where are you going?" he asked, voice filled with fear.
"Somewhere away from you."
"Alana..."
"I don't want to see a cheater on a home like this. I don't want to use a name of a cheater!" I shouted with anger.
Unti-unting nagpatakan ang mga luha sa kaniyang mga mata. Bumagsak ang kaniyang mga balikat na parang suko na siya.
"I-im sorry" he said while wiping his tears. "But please, think about this.... I don't want to be away from you. I love you"
"I want some space." I said firmly.
"Then lets make an agreement. I'll give you the space you wanted... think about your decisions thoroughly."  Tumango siya, hinahayaan na akong magdesisyon.
"I want to be away from you."
"You can travel around the world just do--" I cut him.
"That's on me to decide."
"Love..." tawag niya na may pagsusumamo.
"Don't you dare call me that!" I shouted angrily.
This is too much. I am suffocated. I... I don't want to be on this house anymore.
"I'm sorry." his voice cracked. "Please, lets talk about this divorce when you cool down, hmm? Please... I'm sorry, I am sincerely sorry. I will make it up to you."
After what happened I just saw myself being in a darkness I never thought I will be. But it was comforting.
Once in a while I found comfort with darkness.
But the darkness had ending too, when the light came, the comfort will be gone. Reality will hit us and we have to face it to continue living..
and in order to grow, you have to leave the comfort zone.
Lumipat ako ng bansa na hindi na alam kung ano pa ang nais gawin. I will wake up without the energy to start the day that I have to visit a professional to be okay, again.
Dumating ako sa USA na malabo na ang hinaharap. Hindi makakain, hindi makatulog. All I did was crying and if my friends wasn't with me, I will see myself with cold feet and six feet under the ground.
But someone pull me out of that mess.
My own name pull me out of that mess. If I want to continue my life here, I have to end the tie that bind us...
I have to see a cheater's face again.