"good morning people!" Sigaw ko kala mo talaga may tao sa paligid ko. Plastic ako eh. Sorry ha? God bless.
     Kakagising lang kasi.
Gano'n talaga siguro kapag ang tao tamad, tamad talaga. Well madaldal ako kapag ako lang mag-isa but i keep my mouth shut when ever people are around me.
Nagtungo muna ako sa cr. May cr kasi 'tong kwarto ko para hindi na ako lalabas kapag kailangan gumamit. Hindi naman gano'n kalakihan ang bahay namin tama lang sa tatlong taong nakatira. Pero may dalawa kaming guest room madalas kasi noon sila kuya mag overnight dito lalo kapag wala sila mama.
Maswerte ako sa mga 'yon dahil itinuring nila akong parang kapatid na din at kahit papano hindi ko nararamdaman ang pagiging only child ko.
Kaya din siguro hindi ako friendly na tao. Like mas gusto ko pang mapag isa kaysa makipagdaldalan sa mga walang kwentang bagay. Pero kung importante naman ay hindi naman ako nang i-ignore.
I'm not that really sociabale type. I don't like parties, crowded people and noisy surroundings.
   Sometimes i pretend like i don't care about anybody. I'm hard to people i don't like to be with. I'm not like others that when someone approach them they'll be glad. I'm not use to it, i mean why should i pretend to be someone I'm not diba?
Hindi not being maarte but i just needed to distance myself from the people who might hurt me in the end. Well i know not all people have the grudge to hurt someone but i don't feel like it.
When i was young they always bullied me because of my hair. I don't understand why they do that. Hindi ba pwedeng tingnan nalang nila kaysa manlait sila sa kapwa nila?
I don't what's the exchange of hurting others feelings.
  Nagiging madaldal lang ako kapag pamilya ko or close ko ang taong kausap ko. Siguro i build walls around my heart. Feels like trauma or i have trust issues. I may be cold outside but they don't know how my inside self is.
Is it bad?
Am i becoming bad? I wanna ask my self if am i ready for this.
It's okay to me na tinatawag nilang mataray, maldita or any names they could do basta hanggang salita lang sila. Kasi kung hindi, hindi rin sila uurungan ng kamao ko pag nagkataon.
For me people just like you because of your appearance, wealth or they like what attitude you have. If your part of the elite families they will the one who approach you first, if your beautiful magkakanda-ugaga sila habulin ka just to praise you.
I don't know what people are thinking. But i hope they'll normalize to see each other in an equal line. Like they aren't top or below.
I always believe that if you ignore them they'll be challenged.
  Anyways I'm Ashiannie Kate Ventura. I'm still a student and i had friends who i treat as siblings. This is what i meant. Ughh! I'm being talkative whenever I'm just alone. Hindi ko na nga namamalayan na sobrang dami ko na pala talagang nasabi. Okay lang naman sa'kin sanay na ako mag isa.
Sila mama lang tumatawag sakin no'n. Nag iisang anak lang ako dahil may sakit sa mattress si mama. Hindi nga nila alam na magkakaroon sila ng ako. In simple words i am a miracle baby to them. And because of being a miracle baby my cousins are so protective to me as in daig pa nila si papa.
  Well can't blame them though even I'm boyish i can't still denied the fact that i got a beautiful figured. Perks of habing Ventura's blood, i guess?
May trabaho sila mama at papa. Si papa manager ng bangko at si mama naman ay teacher sa isang private elem school hindi kami mayaman ano lang may pera lang ganun. Supportado din ng mga tito ko staka tita at lalo ng mga pinsan. In general sila tito lang talaga at ibang tita ko ang mayaman may iilang negosyo sila ba pinagkukuhanan ng panggastos nila sa araw araw at saka tapos na mag aral ang mga anak nila kaya sa akin nila binubunton lahat.
  Mas support pa nga sila kaysa kay mama at papa.
Nang matapos ako ng pag aayos sa sarili ay akmang lalabas na dapat ako ng sumigaw si mama.
"Annie gising na! Ano nilamon kana ng higaan dyan?" Sigaw ng nanay kong malakas pa sa machine gun. Grabe its too early but my eardrum can break apart.
Ganito talaga routine namin sa umaga sigawan. Hindi ko naman kasalanan na masyado akong inaakit ng higaan. Sana may magandang magawa o mangyari ngayong araw kahit paano. Nakakapagod din kaya masermonan no tapos walang sweldo.
"Opo lalabas na." Sigaw ko pabalik saka nagayos na't ng makababa na baka masira tenga ko sa sigaw ni mama kawawa naman ako wahahahha.
~dbuiz_