One day ago. It all felt very confusing. Don't know how that could happen. Currently, I am in this abyss, still hoping for something that seems uncertain. At that moment I felt like everything would be destroyed. The questions that keep coming my way are now getting more and more dangerous. I guess the world doesn't let me be in a zone that is really fun. I myself felt that something was coming towards me. Don't know how to deal with it anymore. Everything seemed to just stop. Even when time passes. It's still the same. Nothing different from my usual self. That's when I felt short of breath as if I had asthma. I feel this happening all day. When I was at work, I imagined what if someone saw me suffering like this, it would definitely become a topic of conversation. To what extent do I feel this kind of thing. Even so, it still cannot be avoided. It's like a curse. At the same time, I also have to do several things that are quite important. I don't know where to start if it continues like now. There is something right now right in front of me. I think the image that comes to me every time, I think it's just a coincidence. Sometimes I also keep denying this. Even now, I'm still confused. There is no reason to believe this kind of thing. That's what's in my mind. However, over time, why does it feel like it keeps imagining. As if it wasn't an illusion. Honestly, it's very torturous. I can't imagine that there really is something that looks terrible. I feel the same way until now. There's no reason for me to run away for now. No matter how, all those strange-looking memories must be confirmed immediately. But until now I haven't found that girl. It's likely just a coincidence. Not long after, someone approached me and invited me to chat.
"You looked like you were thinking about something. If it continues like that, I don't think you'll be able to do your job well."
“Ah, you're right. There are a few things I'm thinking about.”
"Is it about your living expenses or something?"
"No. Nothing like that.”
"That's how it looks. Yes, I think it is not possible for a young person like you to think about life so quickly."
"Not really. It depends on conditions. Doesn't everyone have different conditions?”
"Yes. You are right. Very different. Until I don't understand it either. By the way, what are you doing after this?”
"Maybe continue other work."
“Wow. You seem to be a hard worker."
“Please don't say that.”
It's true, sometimes someone will never understand many things that happen. Don't know why it feels something strange. It was as if something that seemed unreasonable was coming. This time it also concerns me. There is nothing else but me. Just keep going like that without end. Many things have passed but strangely there is only one thing that is more certain than all of that. There is nothing to worry about in facing anything. As if this could be resolved easily. I see that the same thing continues like this according to a cycle that just keeps coming. This is very scary indeed.
'Unlucky. Why do you suddenly remember this again,' muttered Yarel.
Currently the situation is getting out of control. There was always something that made him feel uncomfortable. Even though he was just breathing, everything became chaotic in the blink of an eye. Nothing has been more Special lately. Everything that was in front of my eyes felt like it had just frozen. There are those who continue to control like an actor in a drama. This one is no exception. Until the second Yarel let out a breath, it showed that it was really tiring now. Not a single problem is reduced that easily. Many also seem unreasonable. Even if there is only one person in this world, I don't know why it feels like it is breaking down so quickly. There are so many unpleasant things. The memories then came back with a feeling of familiarity that was so real. His eyes couldn't look away even for a second. Unexpectedly, the previous girl who met at the beach was seen in this room. Yarel still couldn't believe it after he bought coffee at this place. Even so, the real scene appeared before his eyes. It feels so mixed up. There were many things he wanted to ask the girl. However, not long after that, the girl just left without even looking at Yarel. Apparently it was a girl who was with the girl who took her away.
“Who do you see?” said the girl's friend.
"What? Oh, no. It is nothing."
"It seems like there's someone you know."
“Don't talk carelessly. What did you see just now?"
"Hmm, I don't know, I forgot."
"Oh yeah, are you finished with the event you told me about?"
“Event? Wait, which one?”
"Good grief. That time you told me. Don't tell me you've forgotten now?"
“Oh, about that art exhibition. No, still in progress. It's very difficult to find people who can work together well. I feel like I'm going crazy."
“Maybe I can come too. Just as a visitor."
"Up to you."
"Isn't it true that none of them want to cooperate with you?"
"There is. But still not enough. Do you have any recommendations?"
"There isn't any. It seems like I can't help when it comes to looking for people either. You know I'm terrible at that."
"No need. Does not matter. Besides, this should be my job. You don't need to do it. You have nothing to do with that event."
"Wow, you're so mean."
"It is true. Besides, it's more comfortable to just come as a visitor rather than having to be the organizer."
"There is some truth in what you say. Then I will come as a visitor as I said earlier.”
Currently at Yarel's place. He seemed to be thinking about something. Not only that, he even ignored the phone calls that kept ringing. In his head which was so full of problems, he still had to make sure his head didn't hurt. That's what happened to him for a long time. During this time the load continues to increase until now. Yarel can only do things throughout the working day to ensure himself and his life. There's nothing that can be done other than that. This time it was indeed what he had heard from other people, sometimes it also tended to influence him a little. 
'Gosh, why are you dizzy again?' muttered Yarel.
For a moment I saw something very confusing. A place that feels familiar with the same views. I think this is an imagination that just keeps sticking around. There was no way to get out in a situation like this. In fact, there are many things that must be tackled. At the same time, it seemed to make me feel scared. This fear is almost similar to the one I experienced when I was little. Honestly, I can't just avoid it quickly. Until now I feel like my world is really much worse than what it could be. Same with the times I'm going through now. It's terrible how I saw it with my own eyes. Once I discovered how everything was connected, I thought it would have been better if I had never discovered it. There's nothing more perfect than that. Until this moment I feel that all of this really doesn't make sense to me. There are things I should do, but they all seem stupid. There are several other things that cannot be digested properly. The confusion is increasingly haunting me. This time my world is filled with so many questions. Slowly, I took a deep breath. No problems so far. Even so, I felt something was strange and it turned out that this was what I felt. My thoughts couldn't line up. When I tried to calm myself down, not long after that I heard the sound of someone making a fuss near the office door. When I checked it turned out it was just colleagues who were arguing. There's just a problem happening. Even though I had hoped there wouldn't be any problems. To the point where I just think clearly for a moment, I see myself as no different. I guess this all ends there. There was nothing I could do next. Familiar images often appear when alone. I find this really frustrating. Even though I saw it with my own eyes at that time, I didn't dare to come closer.
‘Damn,’ muttered Yarel.
"Hey, you okay?"
“Ah, who do I think. Yes, fine.”
“If you're not feeling well you can say so and go home quickly.”
"What? How can it be like that?"
"Of course not stupid," he said teasingly.
“Fuck. You shouldn't have tricked me like that."
“By the way, who are you thinking about? "It seems very serious," he said curiously.
“No. It's nothing."
"Wow, you're not the type to talk about personal things easily."
“Is that really important? Why do you want to know?”
“Just asking. Is that a problem?”
"Yes. That's a big deal.”
"In that case, okay. I guess I shouldn't have asked."
"Yes. If you understand, that's great."
"So true."
This annoying day feels very long. Not like the usual days that pass easily. I didn't think it would take so long. Not only that, after this unpleasant conversation, suddenly a new problem arose. Someone scolded us all because of a misunderstanding regarding the project being worked on. I think it's really bad luck. We met at night. Now I've just returned. This feeling of sleepiness continues to bother me. From then on I felt like I couldn't hold it in anymore. Even though soon there is my favorite film that must be watched. Even so, it turned out that my weak self had to give in to a feeling of sleepiness that was so strong that I closed my eyes.