There will always that someone who will ruin your wall and you'll question his existence if it'll make you or completely break you.
My foot was already fine after that incident. Today, we're going back to the town. I just don't know what makes Manong bangkero took so long na paandarin na ang bangka eh bayad naman na kami.
Almost 30 minutes na kaming naghihintay dito sa bangka kaya hindi ko na napigilang maitanong kay Manong kung bakit hindi pa kami umaalis. May sira ba ito? Walang gasoline? Nag-iisip pa ako ng possible reason until someone came, well, to be exact, si Andrew.
"Excuse me? You're on the wrong boat..."
"Eh Ma'am, aalis na po tayo. Andito na po si Sir."
I was shocked sa tinuran ni Manong kaya itatanong ko na sana kay Anj what's the meaning of this when,
"I also rented this boat, nagkataon na paalis din pala kayo sa gantong oras, kaya siguro isinabay na tayo ni Manong."
He said happily. I don't think it's another coincidence, I know for sure na sinasadya niyang magbuntot sa amin.
I looked at Anj who was now smiling like it's not a big deal. Kaya wala akong nagawa but to stay still. Alangan namang bumaba ako, ayoko namang magpaiwan. Mas mabuti nang magtiis kahit 1 oras na byahe. Kaya ko naman, huwag niya lang akong guguluhin.
Kinuha ko na lamang ang aking phone to check if Leandro's already sending me a message but I disappointedly turned off my phone when I saw nothing but my last messaage a while ago.
Ano kayang ginagawa niya? Is he taking his proper meal? Sleep? O baka nagpapakababad nanaman sa trabaho? Hays. Sana okay lang siya. Namimiss ko na rin ang lalaking yun. Kahit pa madalas kaming hindi magkaintindihan, hindi ko pa rin matiis yung lalaking yun. Kahit naman we're not okay, I always send him a message kahit papaano.
Napukaw ang atensyon ko when Anj open a conversation with Andrew. They kept on talking kahit sobrang ingay ng makina. Halos magkapalit na nga sila ng mukha para lang magkarinigan. Pwede naman kasing manahimik na lang diba? Mas lalo pa tuloy naging maingay. Lalo lang nakakapang-asar when they laughed together. Hindi ko na napigilang mapataas ng kilay. I looked away when Andrew saw me looking at them.
I chose to kept our distance away. Pumunta nalang ako dito sa likod, baka kasi nakakasira ako ng usapan diba? Tss. I put my headset on and play a music.
And  I can't keep my eyes from the road
Knowing that she's inches from me 🎶
I felt something when I saw Andrew's face while I sung the lyrics with my close eyes. Naalala ko when he was in my passenger seat that night that we had a dinner together.
Ipinilig ko ang ulo kasi I know it's not normal and I want him out of my mind just for a second but I failed to do so. Kaya I decided to just change the song pero nagulat ako nang pagbukas ko ng aking mga mata, he's now beside me, leaning on a side part of the boat, listening cooly with his own music at nakapikit pa ha. Gaya-gaya talaga.
Tatayo na sana ako para lumayo sa kaniya when he flawlessly pull my hand na naging rason para bigla akong ma-out of balance at mapapikit sa takot knowing na baka mahulog ako pero ganun nalang ang paglaki ng mata ko when his lips accidentally touch mine just when he was trying to protect me from falling.
I was so shy from what happened I know how I get so red when I am blushing kaya napaiwas ako nang tingin. This is just the time that I felt my toungue suddenly tied. Hindi ako makapagsalita at hindi ko rin agad nakalas ang aking sarili sa kaniya. Napabalikwas na lamang ako nung magsalita siya.
"Huwag kang matakot ma-fall, lalo kung sa akin, I won't hesitate to catch you, kahit sabay pa tayong mahulog." Yung pagkahiyang naramdaman ko ay napalitan ng pagkainis lalo nung magtaas-baba ang kaniyang kilay na waring nang-aasar.
Tumalikod na lamang ako and put my headset again but this time wala ng music. I don't know why. I felt saying so many, but ended up being quite instead. Ako pa ba 'to? It's not so me.
"Sarap naman talaga eh. Kaya mahirap talaga maiwanan." Litanya niya like he purposely want me to hear that pero dahil nakaheadset ako kaya I pretended not hearing those. Maniyak pala ang gagong 'to.
"Ano kaya ang pakiramdam na ulit-ulitin?Hm. Parang ang sarap sa feeling." Malakas niyang sabi na hindi ko na mapigilang lumingon at ibato sa mukha niya ang headset. Napakamanyak ng gagong 'to. Nakakapang-usok ng ilong.
"Loko-loko ka, you pervert!"
"What? I was talking about Subic, but I like what you're thinking. It'll be more fun instead." Kaila niya na halata namang nang-aasar.
"Argh! Pwede ba stay away from me? Malaki naman 'tong bangka. Shoo. Bumalik ka dun sa unahan. Panira ka ng moment." Pagtataboy ko sa kaniya.
"Hey! I want here. Tsaka akala ko ba nagmumusic ka kanina? Oyyy, pinapakinggan niya ako." Sabi niya na humagalpak pa sa tawa.
"Ewan ko sayo. Bumalik ka dun. Hindi ka nakakatuwa." Pagtataray ko para takpan ang pagkapahiya. Tanga din kasi ako eh.
"Ayoko nga kasi, gusto ko dito. Near you." Seryoso niyang sabi.
"Sus. Near you. Kanina kung magtawahan kayo ng pinsan ko, hindi pa ba near yun? Mukha mo. Cassanova." Mahina kong banat na pinagsisihan ko naman sa huli. Ano ba kasi 'tong pinagsasabi ko.
"So you're jealous that's why you went here? You know what Yana, just accept the fact na gusto mo rin ako. Na hindi mo mapigilan ang charisma na meron ako kaya nahuhulog ka na." Wari niya na parang siguradong-sigurado habang tumatawa.
Eh gago pala 'to eh. He's perfectly aware na may jowa ako.
"May I remind you that I have a..."
"Boyfriend? Bakit? How are so sure na mahal ka niya? Eh baka nga nambababae na 'yun eh." Pagputol niya sa sasabihin ko na lalong nagpataas nanaman sa kilay ko.
This man is really impossible. One time, he's sweet and kalog, another time, parang gagong seryoso.
"Excuse me? Leandro loves me and we'll not last this long if he isn't. At lalong hindi ugali ni Leandro ang mambabae. He's too good to cheat." Pagtatanggol ko but automatically avoided his gaze lalo pa nung maalala ko ang huling sinabi ni Leandro when we were arguing last time. No. He'll definitely not do that. He loves me. He did sacrifice his life for me.
He can't just do that lalo pa we've known as a couple ng marami.
Leandro, a successful businessman, and Briana, a great writer of all times and a freelance Model as well.
So no. I beg to disagree. Hindi siya mambabae while I'm away.
"Why? Is he a saint? Lakas naman pala talaga niya sayo. Sobrang perpekto sa paningin mo." He bitterly said na nakapagpatahimik sa akin.
"Sir, mga Ma'am, malapit na po tayo, pagkababa niyo po mag-check out nalang po kayo dun sa opisina to inform them na umalis na po kayo sa Subic."
Tango nalang ang naisagot ko kay Manong at mas pinili na lamang ni Andrew na manahimik.
Pagtigil ng bangka, akmang bababa na ako when he snatch my bags and hold my hand para alalayan ako.
Hindi na ako nagreklamo pa but I saw Anj's reaction. Alam kong mahaba-habang tanungan nanaman ito mamaya.
Pagkababa namin ay he said na siya na ang magchecheck out for us and we'll wait him sa car. I don't know what's the point of waiting eh magkaibang car naaman ang sasakyan namin and magkaibang route. But Anj says we'll wait. Okay then.
"So where is your next destination?" Ask him sakin pagkabalik niya. But Anj was the one who answered nang hindi ako umimik. Ano namang plano niya? He'll be coming? O nag-aassume lang ako. Argh. This is crazy.
"We'll be going to El Residencia del Hamor, at Casiguran. We'll be staying there for 3 days. Wanna come?" Lalo paa akong nawindang when Anj invited him to come.
"He can't. He have no reservation and I think it was fully booked. Wala siyang lugar dun." Amok ko.
"Sorry but I am happy to inform you Ms. that the owner of it is my one and only Tito Hamor kaya it's impossible na mawalan ako ng place dun. So let's go?"
My eyes was automatically dilated hugely when he said like it was a normal thing.
"What? Like seriously?" Hindi ko pa rin makapaniwalang sabi.
Wala na akong nagawa but to ride in.
Bakit ba sumisikip ang mundo naming dalawa?
Nakatadhana ba talagang guluhin niya ang nananahimik at masaya ko nang mundo?