Late at night , Shao Boya still isn't asleep . He was busy reading books , studying advanced lessons . Kids at his age was supposed to only learn simple addition and subtraction , but Shao Boya has already began recognizing numbers over ones , tens , hundreds to hundred thousands .
Instead of reciting simple poems , Shao Boya was reading english vocabulary and stories .
The boy spun his cheap pencil for a while before calculating the problem he had read on the book . There's a lot of tricky logics within it but Shao Boya effortlessly comprehended the problem after some time of contemplation .
Shao Boya had long since finished all his homeworks and all he did right now was just reviewing his answers and also to scan wether he had made any stupid mistakes .
When he reread some problems again , his profeciency when it comes to solving math problems increased and the time he spent on solving a single item was shortened .
There's a sudden knock on the door bringing the focused child's attention to the door . A few seconds later , a cute head peeked inside . Shao Yu shyly entered while nervously looking back at her silent brother and hesitated for a while before showing her notebook and carefully trotted towards his direction . Shao Yu then took a seat beside Shao Boya and took a peek at the alphabets on her brother's notebook .
Shao Yu gulped then slowly opened her own notebook . The big brother's irises then fell unto the crook simple chinese characters on the notebook .
" B-brother " the young child called out .
" Hmm? " The older kid responded and put down his pencil .
Shao Yu licked her lower lips then looked at the foreign characters on her big brother's notebook . " Are you being taught english in your class , Brother ? "
" No , we are more in playing and learning chants and songs , socialization , simple math , English and etc .. " Answered Shao Boya and boredly spun his pen .
Shao Yu then showed Shao Boya her notebook where crookedly drawn circles , triangles and rectangles could be seen .
" Brother , the teacher told us to name these shapes , but I can't remember them anymore. " Shao Yu expressed a distressed look and put her forefinger to her temple . She looks really cute but Shao Boya's attention wasn't focused to Shao Yu's face but instead on the ugly drawn shapes on the paper .
Shao Boya sneered . " What kind of shapes are these? I almost couldn't recognized these . "
" But i tried my best to immitate the blackboard though . "
Shao Boya sighed then slowly stood up to fetch some things . When he came back , Shao Yu is still seated on the chair with a behaved expression .
Shao Boya returned to his seat and showed Shao Yu the things in his hand .
" Brother , what's that? "
Shao Boya put all the things on the desk and pointed at a small coin . " The coin's shape is circle . "
" Circle? "
" En , it's circle ... The ball's shape is also circle . " Shao Boya showed a picture of a basketball , and volleyball .
Shao Yu immediately remembered its name and answered the item she recognized and wrote the word circle on the item .
This way , the two children helped each other on answering homeworks . When Lu Meifeng came to check them , this scene entered her vision which brought warmth to her heart .
" Hello mom ... " Greeted Shao Boya while guiding Shao Yu on how to write .
Shao Yu penmanship is very ugly which brought a helpless expression upon his face . Shao Boya looked at the doorstep and saw his mother watching them with a loving smile . Shao Boya pursed his lips then poked Shao Yu .
Shao Yu looked at her brother and saw her brother pointing at the doorstep . Shao Yu then followed his gaze and saw mom smiling at them .
Shao Yu immediately smiled brightly and called out to Lu Meifeng with a milky voice that melts anyone's heart . " Mom! Brother taught me shapes! I know triangles , circles , rectangle and square now . "
Lu Meifeng chuckled and nodded indulgently . " Yes yes , Yu'er knows a lot now . She's the smartest child of all the children in the village.  "
Shao Yu smiled brightly then closed her notebook . She leaned over to kiss her brother's cheeks before trotting to Lu Meifeng's direction . " Night night , brother . "
Shao Boya nodded . " Have a good lucid dream . "
Lu Meifeng entered the room and lift up the child . She turned to Shao Boya then caressed his cheeks for a while . " Don't stress yourself ok? You're still young . "
Shao Boya smirked . " I'm no longer young mom . "
Lu Meifeng sighed . " I know , i know that you have a matured mind compared to anyone else , but you still have a body of a child . If you keep on stressing yourself like that , you may not grow up healthily . "
Shao Boya still does not know a lot of things regarding health but he always heard from Teacher Qi that a child should at least have an 8 hours of sleep in order to grow and repair the tired cells in the body .
Teacher Qi always taught them trivias about health , he may not understand any scientific words but he could comprehend that his body has to rest .
Lu Meifeng exited the room together with Shao Yu . Shao Boya closed the door and began arranging the room properly before tucking himself in the quilt .
Gradually , the boy's tensed and stressed muscles began to relaxe as the sounds of the crickets became more particularly louder and noticeable now that the whole room turned silent .
Any child at Shao Boya's age shouldn't have been separated with his parents when it comes to sleeping . Shao Boya wasn't any different . He's also a child , but the room would be too cramped if they all squeezed over a small bed .
Shao Boya slowly closed his eyes , but whenever he tried closing his eyes . The sight of blood appeared , the scenario of him killing those two assholes flashed across his mind again making him tremble .
An uncomfortable feeling loomed over his whole body . He felt like after he did that , he already became a different person .
He's no longer normal .
He killed .
Not only one ... But two persons .
Why did he only felt this way now? He had always been planning to poison Shao Xiaolin to death , but now that he personally killed them with his own hands ... Why did he feel guilty yet at the same time ... Fear?
What does he fear?
Alienation? The police?
He couldn't understand . After his hands touched their warm blood for the first time ... Shao Boya didn't feel disgusted . Instead , he felt that killing was so easy .
He just had to stab them at the heart then their life would cease to exist . The feeling of harvesting one's life felt so damn easy that he even had the impulse to try it again , which made Shao Boya fear himself .
Yes ... He feared himself .
Because he knows what's right from wrong .
He knew that what he did had always been wrong.  He could have done something else but kill ...
He could get rid of those two assholes but he instead resorted to using blade . 
Shao Boya washed his face with his palm as his breathing turned ragged . " I need to calm down . "
If he doesn't control himself , he might really become a real monster who only has thought to kill .
Shao Boya tried to convince himself .
Shao Xiaolin and Shao Feng didn't exist anymore . He has no reason to have an impulses to kill .
He should instead focuse on making money .
Right! Money ... He should instead focuse on making money .
Forget about that incident ... Let's burry it deep within ... Deep ...
Deeper ...
Yes ...
Forget it already .
But Shao Boya wouldn't have expected that this impulse would palpitate again once he meets another reason to cease another life due to irritation and disdain towards life .
And this very reason ...
Was due to the gangsters that blocked his way and wanted to snatch the money he earned with his own hands .
Money ...
The thing that he is so obsessed with .
Why do they have to ask him for it?
Are they seeking for death?
Note : The story contains slight psychological . The mc has an unstable mind so he thinks that way despite him still being a child . Remember guys , the mc is not a reborn person . He is really set to have a mature mind set yet crooked world view . It can be contributed to his genes , unhealthy environment , poor life and the supression of his stepfather .