I looked at my watch and check the time. I still have 35 minutes. I looked around and decide to go in the our music room.
When I opened the door room, it wasn’t locked. Great!
Wala rin naman kasi masyadong nagpu-puntang estudyante dito at ginagawang tambayan, kaya naman hindi ito inilo-lock ng guards. But I think every weekend they are locking this room. They just using this for choir practice.
I look around and I saw the guitar on the side. Ba’t may gitara rito?
Dahan-dahan akong nag lakad papa lapit sa gitara at kinuha ito. iniikot ko ang aking paniingin sa loob ng room para humanap ng upuan. Agad ko namang nilapitan ang upuan na nakita ko at umupo dito. Huminga ako ng malalim at sinimulan mag-strum ng random songs.
May kantang biglang pumasok sa aking isipan...
the song she loved...
Anyone can heal, but I can’t…
Bakit hanggang ngayon ang hirap mangapa sa kakarapot kong ala-ala? Hindi ko mawari ang nararamdaman ko. Basta mabigat sa dibdib ko at kung minsan naluluha na lamang ako.
If my grandmother is still here? What if we didn't lose her? I miss Lola. I want to see her.
How I wish she's still here, watching me. Us.
This is the last song I played with her. Lola was always watching over me then when mom and dad were not at home. she is the one who always with me. at first, I thought grandma mina was hot-tempered like Lolo Maximo but I was wrong.
She was kind, caring, loving, understanding, lahat nasa kanya na.
Kung naa alala ko lanb ang nakaraan ko baka ngayon alam ko na ang pinangga-galingan ng galit sakin ni Lolo.
Gusto kong bumawi.
Sana lamang talaga ay dumating ang panahon na unti-unti kong maalala ang mga pangya-yari sakin no'n.
I was shocked when someone suddenly handed me a handkerchief. My eyes winded when I recognized it.
This is the handkerchief my grandmother gave me.Hindi ko din napansin umiiyak na 'ko. I looked at the one who handed me the handkerchief. It was my classmate. I think his name was Chris. He was just looking at me too, so I looked away.
"Bakit ka umiiyak?" Nagta-takang tanong n’ya. Halata rin sa hitsura niya ang paga-alala.
Napangiti naman ako ng mapait.
"Nothing. I-I just remember something" I answered and looked away.
Ayokong may nakaka-kita sakin na ganito ang hitsura ko.
"Wait where do you find this?" I asked while pointing my hanky.
~CHRIS P.O.V~
"I just remember something. Wait where do you find this?" She asked.
"I saw that on the table earlier, so hinanap kita kasi may nakita akong pangalan mo diyan ikaw lang naman ang kilala kong may Zynniese sa name." I answered honetly.
Sa totoo lang nag pabalik balik ako sa room, gym at canteen—do’n nakita ko siyang nakikipag-sagutan sa tatlong babae.
Hindi konga alam kung tatawa ba ako o maawa dun sa mga babae kanina, I think Zy is older than them. Pero ung sinabi talaga ni Zy grabe napa-wow nalang ako, who wouldn’t, right? At mas lalo akong humanga, when she starts play guitar and sing.
"Oh. thank you" She said. Bahagya pa ngang namula ang magkabila niyang pisngi.
Is she sick?
"For what?" I know what she is pointing to, I just wanted to hear it from her.
"Thank you because you returned it to me."
"Bakit, sino ba nag bigay n'yan sayo," Curious kong tanong. But she looks away and took a deep breath.
Fvck this, Chris! Why are you asking that to her?! She’s still..
I thought she will not answer my question but then she speaks.
~ZY'S P.O.V~
"This is one of the most important things to me, because it was given by the person who was so precious to me, "I said as my tears roll down my cheeks. Remembering my Lola.
I wipe away my tears after looking at him and gave him a forced smile. but I remember something, I looked at my watch. our class is not over. So glance at him again.
"Wait nag c*tting ka ba?" Umiling naman s’ya. "Then why are you here?" I asked again, this time lumingon na sya

"To give you that," He said seriously, while pointing at my hanky. So that's why he is here?
Mahina naman akong natawa." Why are you laughing?"
"Kasi naman you can give this to me after class. Silly, " She said and shook her head. "Tara na. Ma la-late na naman tayo sa next class," I said.
Pero bago pa ako maka-tayo, he held my hand and I arched my one brow. Seryoso lamang siyang naka titig sa akin na para bang may gusto siyang sabihin ngunit parang may pumipigil sakaniya .
"You don't have to live in the past you have to forget the painful memories you had before. You need to move forward forget about those memories that hurt your feelings," He said as he stood up and walk but then he stopped.
"Past is past, Zy, ika nga diba? Hindi mo kailangang ikulong ang sarili mo sa nakaraan. Parang nasa madilim na kwarto ka lang, walang bintana, walang pinto, walang liwanag dahil pinipilit mong sisihin ang sarili mo sa nakaraan. Once you're trapped in the past you can never get out because you can't even see the door or neither a light."
Ani niya bago tuluyang lumabas habang ako ngayon ay nakatulala lamang sa kinakatayuan niya kanina.
Nalilito ako sa sisinasabi niya. Hindi ko naman sinabi na si Lola Mina,or even my past… but his right hindi dapat lagi akong nanatili sa nakalaraan.But how can I forget that night if Lolo Maximo always reminds me of what happened?
He always says that I’m the reason Lola isn’t here anymore.
~~●~~~●~~~●~~~●~~~●~~~●~~~●~~